i watched "closer" last night, and i don't know why, but it really affected me. i didn't cry but i felt so bad for jude law's character. how can human beings be so stupid, malicious and unforgiving? he messed up bad....twice. but the most important question is whether cheating is becoming the norm of society? hm, something to think about...

People
They don't mean a thing to you
They move right through you
Just like your breath
But sometimes
I still think of you
And I just wanted to
Just wanted you to know
My old friend...
I swear I never meant for this
I never meant...

Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
An honest mistake

Sometimes
I forget I'm still awake
I fuck up and say these things out loud

My old friend...
I swear I never meant for this
I never meant...

Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake
An honest mistake

- the bravery

this week was quite eventful, what with the nike 10K run on centre island on sunday (1:00:45 mins, i'm so proud of myself! ;p) and then the zoo on tuesday (the orangutans, elephants and the pink flamingos!!), as well as going downtown with my sister on wednesday and going to harborfront. eric was so nice as to take my sister and i to one of his martini hangout areas and treated us to some ice cream!! and yesterday shelley and i went and had a massage done at the aveda at yorkdale. it was sooo good. i think we're going to invest money into these things! ahaha.

i mean it doesn't seem like much, but i've also been planning my itinerary for france. i have so many ideas and plans, but they seem so sketch, i need to get an official train schedule or something...the only thing i've booked so far, is a musical in london. something to look forward to!

hmm, well apparently lots happen in a month...

naima won! she's the new "america's next top model"!!!! i'm so happy that FINALLY one of the girls i've been rooting for is THE one.

yeh anyway, i just finished watching that on tv so it was on my mind. in other news: i saw jann arden perform live yesterday night at the toronto rehab gala. tickets to this thing was incredibly insane...$500 a ticket. i, of course, didn't need to buy one because i volunteered all day yesterday and the day before. i now know how to set a table properly (apparently there's a proper way) and i know how to fold the napkins for the bread bowl. from now on i will be taking note of how other tables are set. (hahaha)

i'm dying for coldplay tickets for august 2nd. since i missed the one last week i'm kicking myself in the ass for not "hearing" about it. so i will do anything possible to get these tickets this time round!!! grr. i hear franz ferdinand is opening for them, so that's really really awesome too. i was also checking out the oasis show with jet opening for them, except tickets are sold out. =(

what else what else?

met up with mich, chris and cass for the first time in a very looooong time. we went to an all-you-can-eat sushi place and well, that's exactly what we did. EAT. tony espinoza came by too, and then afterwards we went out for bbtea at metro square where i was so full i couldn't even have a FULL bbtea. i could only have just the "tea" portion. no bubbles! and THEN i watched star wars episode 3 at 12am. crazy. i was sooooo tired that i was afraid i'd fall asleep during the movie. luckily, i didn't. ;p

oh, and i finally got my G license!!! it was a little bit freaky but i felt good during and ESPECIALLY afterwards. now i can "re-learn" how to drive. haha.

last week i also met up with liz for coffee. after not seeing her in a while, it was really good to catch up on the comings and goings. and somehow, i got roped into doing the 10K nike run on sunday may 29th. i am so screwed hahaha. after not working out in so long, i'm in panic mode as to how i'm going to survive this thing. i'm only trying to live past this so that i can see modest mouse on june 26th, well, that and plus france.

well that's enough updating enough, i might not have anything else for next time. HA.

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

- Jet

this lack of school of activity has made my brain extra active in other areas, i've been thinking too much....

and eating too much...

went out for dim sum with jake, alex, jordan, and adam for lunch, and then carmi and shelley came by and we went up to her place in stouffvile to see the dogs and the ducks. what a great day for duck watching! one of these days we'll go swimming in the pool, until then...hahaha.

and then this evening i went out with jake to return "ocean's twelve" at blockbuster (i don't recommend it, the first one was way better) and then we stopped off at price chopper and waited for alex to finish work and then we walked home.

and then we brought up some past stuff and then started missing, and then i went digging up old stuff (smart one, huh?) and then i started thinking about "what might have happened if only...." and then i realized i haven't updated my website since the major "deletion" and so i've put up a couple of pictures from the other day when there was the chest gathering at mullins. i have to hand it to them though. if it wasn't for them and their crazy picture taking, i'd still be photoless. i've gotten really lazy about taking photos. =&

anyway, that's how i've been and now i'm feeling generally stupid. but i guess that's ok, it comes with the territory.

demetres...yum!

awww, nostalgia...

seeing rita, caitlin littlefield, tee, em figs, and mark for lunch at the sushi club (because shintori is closed for renovations?!?!) and then spending almost 4 hours with carl, who i haven't seen in ages....and then pre-drinking at elmsley first with alan, victor, jill, jadea, iain, and kevin. AND then the party begins at mullins with the cast of "chess": signing of laura and mark's cards, and the presents, and the posters...

fun times! ;p

this is it. it's over.

ok, well classes at u of t anyway. i still have two upcoming exams, but of course they had to screw me over by having them on the next to last day of exams. ahhhhh, bastards.

although i had an in-class final monday and a paper due thursday, my brain went on vacation about a week in advance...i think it had something to do with the nice weather outside, i don't know! either way, i don't think last week was a really great effort to do well, oops.

BUT
lectures are over, i have more time to do my favorite...nothing! ok, well not nothing, but nothing that has anything to do with school.

highlights of last week include:
sin city on tuesday - was it just me, or did alexis bledel just look and act like a sluttier version of rory? i'm sorry, that wasn't a great movie for her. but the rest of the movie was wicked. my favorite parts were the most morbid...no extremities elijah wood, the talking benecio del toro...yah...

oedipus rex play on wednesday - i studied it in highschool, so it was a real treat to actually see the play, held by the ryerson students. but matt and i left during the intermission because the good part was over, plus i had to finish my last paper that was due the following day.

grandma doesn't like grandpa anymore movie on thursday - it was one of the better short movies that i saw that night. i also liked the shrimp nightmare one too.

brook's sisters saturday night at hugh's room - great performance by my friend caroline brooks and her sister katherine. it was really cool because jerome stopped by and i hadn't seen that boy in almost a year! and tee, mark, and manny were there too! i think mark's planning a "4th year get-together" on wednesday so that will be really nostolgic!

i want to see all my friends that i've been neglecting because of school! hahaha. hopefully i'll be able to do this before i go to france!

yah, france!

yesterday was definitely a "feel-good" day. #1, i finally finished that essay that has been the bane of my existance for at least a week and a half. i guess it was either finish the paper yesterday or hand it in monday (seeing as it's supposedly a holiday or something? ;p). #2, CONGRATULATIONS TO AVRIL AND ROSE, SMCSU'S NEWEST PRESIDENT AND VICE-PRESIDENT!!! it was just incredible, everyone was so happy and excited! never in the history of smc has two female COMMUTERS won over a a jolly smc community. it was great to be there counting votes and knowing that they were always the leaders! smcsu democracy might be looking up! ;p

needless to say, all these recent events (grammateion, formal, symposium, smcsu elections) are my very last ones. i'm not very sad right now, as i think i'm more then ready to leave this hole for a bit, but i'm pretty sure come september i'm going to either nostalgic or embroiled in my own new exciting future. although, now that av and rose are manning the helm, i think i would like to visit round the college occasionally.

this is it...two more weeks until schools out!

edit

whoo hoo! so remember that stupid essay i handed in yesterday? well i received some papers back this week and i didn't want the marks to affect my writing capabilities (especially if they were bad marks) so i decided to wait and check out the marks now....two papers...A- and 85%!!!!

feeling hella good!

wow am i SOOOO procrastinating on one of my final papers right now. i could have been done, but of course not...i decided to watch "the prince and me" with julia stiles. the movie itself was kind of sappy, but i was so intrigued with the movie because there was just SO MUCH U OF T IN IT!!!! there was so much st. mikes, like the underpass, some of kelly library, the guys residences on the lane, the coop?!?!?! and there was shots outside of sidney smith, and they even had a whole scene inside EJ PRATT!!! i was like COOL! anyway, yah, i definitely didn't do any work, and that is not very good at all! so i've decided to remedy this by going to sleep now. hahahaha. i guess i'll work on the essay tomorrow morning!

she's back!

after a long break from the internet world, i'm back in full force. the musical that has taken 3 months out of my short life has now come to an end. now that it's over, i can finally take a look back and say that i'm glad that i did this project. there were some pretty intense times when tension and stress was at maximum level, but it's turned out fabulously! CHESS has completely exceeded my expectations, and all the important people (to me) came out to see it so i have no regrets! i've met a whole bunch of great people who i'm sure to keep in touch with for the long run, and it's going to be so great when we're all at formal together!

so now that this baby is done and over with, it's time to get back to the school work! !!!

i was attacked by a killer migraine last night. i could feel it coming on about 6 in the evening, but i was in the middle of teaching so there was nothing i could do...AND the students came late so i had to plug on 15 mins longer then i originally planned. by the time i got in the car, i could barely see straight and just speaking on the phone with shelley was really painful. shelley had a natural medicine book where she was looking up stuff for migraines...except where was i going to get celery juice? so i took the easy way out: popped two advils and went to sleep. that's the only way i can get through the pain....ooooh my head.

as a result of this unfortunate episode, i'm totally freaking out over my essay now. i need to start writing it tonight after work, but i don't want to!!! this is going to distress me even further because of rehearsal tomorrow, which means my whole day is wasted on music. *thumbs down*

i'm going to take another pill to ensure that i can get through the day...

i missed the oscars last night because of rehearsal...it was 10 hrs long!!! i'm starting to get really frazzled about the music, i still have so much to go over...and less the two weeks! *sigh* i don't like pressure, but i guess without that, i'd be doing nothing.

oh right, so the oscars. apparently i didn't miss much, seeing as i checked out the red carpet pictures when i got home. is it me or were the dresses really blah this year? it was either all black or really pale, and some of the girls just didn't have the boobs for their dresses. the ONLY dress that i really really liked was the red dress emmy rossum wore. that's it. that's all i liked.

anyway, i think mark gave me the cold, i woke up with a sore throat. i should get ready for a gram meeting that i'm most definitely going to be late for...

soooooooo incredibly tired. yet why am i still awake? i'm actually not sure why...i figured i'd just post a little sumthin sumthin and then be on my way to sleep land.

i got a test back today. i thought i had done horrible on it, seeing how i had spent a total of only 18 hours at starbucks cramming for the test two weeks ago. so the prof walks into class today 20 mins late (only at u of t people) and announces that she has our tests, that they've been marked, except that she hadn't finished recording them in her book. fine. so she lectures briefly and then sticks a movie in so that she can finish recording our marks. great. and then she comes back in and tells us all that she has our tests and everyone can get them back but only people from A-G would have their mark and grade and everyone else would get them next week or see her to get the marks. seeing as my name begins with an M, i picked up my test and went to see her. looking at the marks in just the short answers section, it didn't look very encouraging. but i was watching her write my mark and grade upside down....an A-. CRAZY. unbelievable. so the gist of this story? i'm a happy camper! ;p celebrated with smoothies! hahaha.

the dao is chilling-ly

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

- Robbie Williams' Angels

after watching the brit awards last night, i fell in love with this song. i love brits, they are so cute. except that some of them (like franz ferdinald) are sooo thin, i couldn't date someone that thin, i might squash them or something! (disclaimer: joseph didn't count because we didn't go out for very long!)

anyway, it's snowing yet again. and i'm tired. so off to sleep i go.

reading week was a complete waste of time. all i did was eat, watch lots of movies, eat, see people, and did i mention eat? ugh. and now i'm looking at my calendar again (which i haven't looked at in awhile) and suddenly i realize that i need to get my act on with my chinese philosophy assignment (which i haven't a clue what i'm going to be doing it on) and oooooh, i'm sooooooo incredibly screwed music-wise as i haven't touched the piano in a long time and we should all know that that is a big "no-no".

in other news, here are two websites that are definitely worth checking out:
ames this is my sister's new website address, and she just did a trip back down memory lane of her past web layouts, they are awesome! so pretty!

the phat conductor this guy, dylan is in my chinese philosophy class. he does some pretty cool breaks, and he gives his music away for free!

i should go play some piano now (like it'll do me any good...)

it is currently 5:15pm on a thursday evening and the professor has not put up the lecture notes to our 6pm class. this sucks!

in other exciting news, this has definitely been a fun filled week (literally from last thursday) with the abbey reunion that actually took place saturday evening! the witkos bus came around to everyone's houses and fayewood picked up me and karen. i think we had reservations to jack astors but since we were late (surprise surprise!) we gave up our time slot and ended up at shoeless joes. hahaha. what a ghetto place. i don't recommend the veggie burger (it was a bit dry) but the nachos were good! then we wanted to go to demetres but it was full, and so was just desserts, so we finally ended up at tim hortons! what a way to go...you know you're old when you chill with your buddies at a coffee shop. no one really wanted to go clubbing or anything. hahahaha....we're getting so old!

i have been seeing other old friends that i have met over the past four years here, with ms. bozek being #1 on the list. hahaha. considering how she goes to osgoode which is literally 7 mins from my house, we are pretty sad to only be catching up NOW. we went to york lanes and had some really soggy soup (?) and then she took me to her building that has no windows...hahaha. i hear wongie is back, so it would be nice to have a get together with holly and tee sometime.

ian himself has been back from australia since the end of december, so it was nice to chill with him at uc's jcr for a bit on monday. i like the updates, and it's really nice to have an idea of what to expect if i go to australia next year (lachlan, don't get your hopes up yet!!!) and today i met up with mel d'souza for coffee which in itself is funny because we originally met up at starbucks, but there were no seats so we went to second cup where she bought a muffin she didn't like and i was drinking starbucks! hahahaha. i am SOOOO boycotting second cup. they don't know how to make soy chai lattes.

oooh, another fun event i went to tuesday night. matt had a showing of one of his short films at this media promotion event, and shelley and i went to see it with him at the drake hotel. the atmosphere was really nice, clean and spruced up. and there were three screens set up in a room so you could see the films at three different angles. at the centre was a stage where there was a guy who did the music and noise for the films by blowing on some keyboard thingy or playing the accordian or strumming a guitar. basically they are introducing films and songs with some crazy instruments that require lots of wires. ??? hahahaha. needless to say, that definitely took up my tuesday night!

wednesday night i went to see some fellow chess members perform in a one act play called "check please." victor and i went specifically to see their show, and luckily it was the first of four one act plays so we jetted after their show. kevin and shannon had some of the best parts ever! hahaha, i'm not going to disclose their characters as they are performing them again tonight and tomorrow night, and it's so much more fun if you go to see them perform at the william doo theatre in the new new college building (85 wilcox).

tonight after lecture (which the notes are still not put up for...) there is a bachelor/bachelorette auction for valentine's day. i personally am not for these things, i don't see a point in auctioning people off, by putting a price on them. but hey if people think they are fun, good for them! since my aileen is going to MC the "show" i will be going to see the ruckus as well as seeing how the bakesale goes! ;p

and then i will have to get some work done...HA. oh mu, if only our paper was on immortality and not on nancy cruzan i would be so much more happier. but needless to say, this essay should be done tomorrow so i can get cracking on an upcoming test! =:o

as for the musical, i think it is going well, but i will have more of an update on that after reading week. hahahaha, they key here is that i spend alot of my reading week practicing so that after reading week i will be set! i will know ALL the songs. hahahaha. KEY.

kk, so off to class i go...

i ran into henry yesterday after class and after berating him about not blogging, i promised him that we would both make a more conscientious effort to blog more. HA.

it's not that i haven't tried blogging, the computer said no and shut down several times, or i forgot what i was writing and gave up. i dunno. it's been busy busy what with all the rehearsals and substitutions and trying to gather up my thoughts and whatnot.

it has also been snowing alot and i think that is a good thing. snow is good for the economy, this is what canada is known for. it does cause of lot of traffic delays and falling downs, but oh well.

so what is up? well other then the fact that THE musical (CHESS) has taken over my whole entire being, i have no life. well ok, i do have one sort of. There is a hockey game at the varsity this thursday (smc vs. vic...we are so going to kick vic's asses) so that will be a well deserved break from doing nothing, as well, if anyone is interested in going it would do well to bring some non-perishable foods as that is the point of the game, to bring in donations.

There will be a pseudo abbey reunion saturday night (oh horrors, i don't want to jinx it) but thanks to len, it looks like it will actually happen. ESPECIALLY since i got a special call from my buddy corona today. wow did i feel special! ;p hahaha. And dinner at grace and juju's? we'll see about that. i may not have room after dinner with the girlies. ok, maybe for that tiramisu dessert that the cousin makes. ha!

whatelse what else? oh right so i am selling homemade cookies at 1 for $0.25 and 3 for $0.50 and all profits will be given to the graditude fundraising committee, and i've made just over $10, wow i should feel proud.

meh, nothing big now except for the TSO for 3 piano players on 3 grand pianos and some street music (with a guy drumming on the subway with two pieces of rubber) coolio. there's a guy in my death and dying class that dimps and i have nicknamed the "smelly guy" because the past two weeks he looked like he didn't know proper hygiene. but we are reconsidering the nickname because he looked SOOOOOO hot in class today. damn he looked good with the specs. oh and plus there is always starbucks boy, who always makes me so happy when i see him. hahaha.

oh i missed velma and kelly. love you too.

oh this is just craptacular...i am so totally putting the blame squarely on matt. why? if he hadn't taped the first episode of the second season of The O.C., and then had me, shelley and carmi watch it an hour before the second episode (while explaining the crazy drama, who dated who, who is who's mom...), i never would have been hooked to this multifaceted eye candy show! honestly, is it just me or was lindsay wearing a purple bra with a sweater on top to cover herself?!?!?! and the coincidental hooking up of everyone with their respective girlfriends and boyfriends (with the exception of the girl who got dumped by the gardener)...and next week everyone is dumping everyone.

geez, you'd think i had better things to be watching...like GILMORE GIRLS. unfortunately that show hasn't had a new episode in ages. i hear maybe the week after next week? COME ON. i want to know what's going on in stars hollow, i want to know if luke and lorelai are ok (i personally think lorelai is better suited with christopher...but that's me), i want to know if rory will date the hot hot hot rich cutie, and i want to know where lane and zack's relationship is going.

so i realize this rant is very superficial as it centres around the comings and goings of television people, but i'm way too tired to try to write something of importance, so i guess i'll save it to tomorrow? or is that today? hmmm...we'll see how i feel after i wake up after a bag of sour cream and cheddar chips....among the various other junk food i've had today. but please, let's not dredge that up tonight.

what am i doing? i'm so tired right now, i'm falling off my chair but of course i decide that this will be the time that i blog about my very VERY short winter break.

first off: i had an amazing time!

right, so i currently have a huge bruise on my left bum cheek from skiing. no i don't suck at skiing, it just happened that the two days i skiied in mont tremblant, they were shitty days. the 31st of december it rained all day and the visibility was as good as nothing. i went skiing that day with my sister, and after falling the gazillionth time and even performing the splits, she decided to call it quits and i ended up going solo the next day (which i totally didn't mind, in fact i think it was better that way, i could go faster...yay!) the only problem was that the next day the weather got cold and the rain from the day before became ice and that made for a great abt workout on the slopes. ;p

so new years was in mont tremblant and christmas was in NYC. this is all i have to say about asian bus tours: NEVER AGAIN. never had i ever felt so asian in my whole entire life. hahaha. i mean sure i got to go to NY for cheap, but after this...NEVER AGAIN.

actually i have so many stories to go with that trip but i'm just way too lazy to type it all out. but it was a great trip, just too claustrophobically asian for me. yech. (picture an asian tour guide in a bright yellow puffy jacket holding a yellow flag and yelling for us to follow him...shudder...ames totally knows what i'm talking about!!) but the best part of that trip was that i was there for the boxing day sale at saks fifth avenue and was able to score myself a pair of gorgeous garnet chandelier earrings for a low (but still insanely high) price of $37 from $115. go me.

interestingly enough, i spent the most amount of money in kingston. as soon as i got in and met up with tanaka, she said "hey miao, we're going shopping now." the biggest "oh oh" in the world, and about $80 later....i ended up with a pink coat, a pink top and a very cute black sweater with a poodle. hahahaha. jokes, so jokes.

anyway, school is back and therefore so is running into all these random people that i haven't seen in 3 billion years. so far i know a fair amount of people in my classes, i am just waiting to see if anyone is in language acquisition with me, and that will make my day.

i lied. you know what made my day today? seeing the hot starbucks boy at college and yonge.

wow. nuff said.

it's been really great so far, catching up with luke and csb jeff (california sunshine boy), who i haven't seen in ever so long. also talking to fayewood and karina on the telephone, it makes me sad that i won't be seeing so many people before i leave.

i'm planning on going off to kingston tomorrow to visit tanaka and then saturday off to NYC...and next week we're off to mont tremblant for skiing time, yay! i only hope that this constant migraine will go away, somehow i'm not too optimistic about that.

other then that, "hero" is a great visual movie, very much enjoyed that. and vaughn mills mall is overrated, the only thing i really liked there was the outdoor store, THAT was much more interesting then the rest of the mall...come on, they have an aquarium with rainbow trout and hunting gear, and the like...

oh, and i played the piano at the christmas party at the toronto rehabilitation hospital on tuesday. wow, it was an exhilarating experience, having everyone singing along and just so happy. and i was happy that people were requesting songs that i knew i could play. oh, and the piano was SO WONKY. all the notes were off by a semitone so when i played middle c, it sounded like a b, and b sounded like a and so on....so wrong, but it worked out! ;p

and look, it's snowing outside now...

T-minus 16 hours --- last exam

god, my head is going to explode of soy chai lattes, spastic cerebral palsy, hearing disorders, cleft palate, aphasias and my all time favorite, neurogenic disorders of speech. it's been bad, what with my bouts of dizziness the last couple days, i'm convinced that the perilymph in my cochlea (ie, fluid in my inner ear) is messed up.

true to form, i've been studying like a fiend and i am SOOOO looking forward to tomorrow afternoon. i've already planned what i'm going to be doing after my exam: cleaning my room. yes yes, my room looks like a hurricane AND a tornado has struck...i can't see my bed anymore, i just crawl under something resembling a comforter at night and hope that the clothes and paper on top don't fall off the bed!

it would be nice to see some people before i leave christmas day, but i went to nisha's christmas condowarming party yesterday with shelley and it was a lot more fun then i anticipated. i do believe i have entered the age when my friends are getting married or scoring big shot career jobs or living in fanatastic places.

me? i'm going to be a traveller. ;p

oh how exciting, in exactly 10 days i will be out of this wretched city!!! i had been preparing to write another essay for today's exam (because the exam is 60% of our final grade, and come on, 60%?!?!?) but about 2am this morning i had a relevation, that i didn't HAVE to write the essay, it was only optional to take the stress off of the fact that the exam was 60%. it also helped that i hadn't even begun the essay and i was freaking myself out. so in the end, it all worked out. ;p

so i am now a starbucks dweller, i have spent the last two days studying there (there being the one closest to my house) and i'm pretty sure all the starbucks people know me. i even know which one is the manager, which is pretty crazy. i met this girl, raquel, one day sitting on the couch (which looks suspiciouly like velma) across from me last week. and the crazy story to that is that she knows my friend robin! i pulled the line "do you know..." and she started laughing and then was like "wow yah i know her!" fun fun times.

ok, i'm planning on catching up on some lost sleep now. but my goal is to start hardcore studying for JLS tonight and then review review review, and then kick some booty. (that is the plan, let's see how it goes!)

i am in SUCH A GREAT MOOD RIGHT NOW!!! finished bioethics and for the first time ever, i have a FIVE DAY break before my next exam! (i mean for this semester anyway) so i went out with the bioethic ppl after our exam and we went to o'grady's where there were kids from JLS promoting 'communications awareness week' and we had such a great time! (i am so in love with jon, he's like a cuter version of eminem! hahaha!)

it's been a long couple of weeks, and it feels great being so relaxed (oops, my bad, i had a margarita! hahaha) but now i'm going to go to sleep because it suddenly occured to me that i am EXHAUSTED. i'll have an update when i am more coherent! ;p

A cardiologist died and was given an elaborate funeral. A huge heart
covered in flowers stood behind the casket during the service.
Following the eulogy, the heart opened, and the casket rolled
inside. The heart then closed, sealing the doctor in the beautiful
heart
forever.


At that point, one of the mourners burst into laughter.
When all eyes stared at him, he said, "I'm sorry, I was just thinking
of my own funeral...I'm a gynecologist."

The proctologist fainted.

hahaha, that is SO funny!

no i am not an insomniac...this weekend could not have been any longer then it possibly could be. i just got home from celine's where alicia and jamie are staying over tonight and are still working on our jls project. we better get an A++ on our project, we're killing ourselves to get it done. ellan's mac is nearly dead, as are we...it is currently having a fan blown at it...hahaha.

however, the outcome of all our work looks like it will be breathtaking, so yay for a job well done. but i will go to sleep now before i pass out, plus i have class tomorrow morning so that will be hell in itself. oh the black liner tomorrow...

my apologies. i never intended to go on hiatus. however, this month happens to be the "projects" month, and projects are always MUCH MORE time consuming then writing essays and tests (which are also neverending). plus i'm volunteering at the toronto rehab center, and "out of the cold", as well as the usual teaching piano, so i'm much too exhausted to go online and chat, let alone blog.

my boyfriend is taking up too much time. his name is goldvarb, and he speaks a completely different language then i do, thus it is very difficult to understand him and i have to work on him most 24 hrs/day because he is very needy. if i even try to leave him alone for a day, i run into major problems with him and i cannot afford to make him angry. when i am through with him (because if anyone knows me, they'll know why), i will show you how i did with him.

anyway, a quick highlight of what you've missed:
- grad photos on tuesday, i am officially graduating...very scary!
- interviewed a speech language pathologist and an occupational therapist at west park
- hole-punched my pinky on a three-ring puncher yesterday. hurt like a bitch!
- i have been spending a lot of time at the starbucks at yonge and college, and so shelley and i have named "our" couches 'velma' and 'kelly'. shelley gets a very nice view of the cute 'starbucks boy' from 'kelly', and i get a nice view of the 'tutor boy' from velma...so everyone is happy!

i need to go shopping!!

what a LOOOOOOONG WEEK. it seems never ending...and it's only THURSDAY. it's been quite a blast from the past, starting with monday running in to patrice in the middle of the night on bloor street after class, and then running into karen and andy volpe at bloor station. and then having the most insane msn conversation with patrice and alex g (talk about desensitization guys!)

and then tuesday it was casa loma ghost tours at night with shelley and matt, and then the 4 for all pizza at pizza hut...mmmmh, yummy...pizza and jessie the pirate in the pink shirt! hahahaha!

wednesday was see everyone day at the jcr. shelley, simone and i decided to go eat there for lunch, and so after jacob and i finished some research at the library, we headed over there, and lo and behold! ellan, margarita, and....flo?!?!?! and of course the krispy kreme donuts came in from the graditude campaign, and so i made an appearance at the infamous SMCSU office...props to me for carrying a bunch of fattening donuts!

and of course there is the never ending set of assignments and essays and tests and quizzes going on. because of my crazy fun weekend, i didn't get to really work on my ethics paper until monday so i was quite happy to have finished it for class that day, and then i stayed up to extract and code data for assignment that was due today. it's a fun course, but it's extremely tedious and time consuming. i literally felt my spine beginning to curve! and then there was the "broken speech" play that was going on tonight, and such an adventure to go to the beaches to get the cameras.

and just to relax a bit, went out with shelley to starbucks this evening and the starbucks boy really liked us so he started giving us free sugar food, which i didn't mind but man was the cakes sweet! ;p (i'm sweet!) hahaha. and through the powers that be, i got a ride home from ellan so yay, saved a token! hahahaha!

"the incredibles" come out tomorrow! whoo hoo!

hahaha, so jokes! thanks to karen for sending this to me.

step 1:
go to http://www.google.com.my/language_tools?hl=en
step 2:
enter the following line into the translate textbox:
Aishwarya's mom is nice and cool
step 3:
translate from english to spanish.
step 4:
copy the translated text, and translate it back from spanish to english.

it was unbelievable the amount of unnecessary drama that i went to go to the longest award dinner ever last night. it was 6 hrs, i guess they knew it would be that long, that's why they put it on the evening where we get one more hour. i'm not even sure why they awarded my sister, but whatever.

no sleep from the previous night because of smc's halloween party = one very tired piano teacher.

everyone loved spongebob! *wink wink* hahahaha. (oh, i was NOT spongebob...) when the pictures are developed all will be revealed! hahahaha, oh such good times!

well now the little girl has to make up for all her partying (what partying?!?!? hahaha) back to the grind. one more month to go!!!

happy halloween!

reason #9847559 why commuting sucks...

i had one class today. sociolinguistics from 2-4pm. there was a problem with the subway line, and there was no subway service between finch and eglinton so i had SHUTTLE all the way to eglinton. and then of course at wellesley, they have the FREQUENT SERVICE 94 bus, but OF COURSE there had to be some crazy lazy blaming the driver for driving the goddamn bus and making her bang her leg so she was writing up some sort of accident report. so the bus driver had to kick us off the bus and i had to WALK to class.

it took me TWO HOURS to get to school.


in other news: i am currently procrastinating from studying for my speech disorders test...yet again...

it's scary, but i've been studying for this test since tuesday and i feel like nothing is sinking in. i've gone to all the lectures and review everything while i'm eating, sitting on the bus, drinking (of course non-alcoholic...hahaha), eating, eating...did i mention eating? ...i hate this.

anyway, no more studying...one more review...go to sleep, wake up and go to school EARLY tomorrow. there's NO WAY i'm going to be late for this class!!!

oh oh! scandalous costume!!!!

simone, avril and i went costume shopping today. our theme is slutty-ho disney princesses. i have no back to my top, so it's going to be covered with some tattoos. hahahaha. ;p

so no more junk food for the rest of this week! anyone have a mu shu?

best movie ever! sex and the beauties i haven't laughed so hard in ages. a total ab workout! god it was good!

i pulled a 'girly' today. shelley and i tried to put the pieces of her futon together, and omg it was such an ordeal! we had the most horrible picture telling us how to assemble the pieces, and we think that they didn't give us enough nuts and bolts! either way, i'm never doing this ever again! (hahaha)

ok, i'm tired, this entry is done.

50 things girls wish guys knew

1. Mark anniversaries on a calendar.
2. If you don't act like soap-opera guys, don't expect us to dress
like Victoria Secret models.
3. There is no such thing as too much spooning/cuddling/kissing.
4. This is how we see it . . . Don't call = Don't Care.
5. Which also means that if we don't call, take the hint.
6. We like you to be a little jealous . . . but overly possessive is
not necessary.
7. Foreplay is not an option, it's a prerequisite!
8. We're allowed to be late . . . YOU ARE NOT.
9. Eye contact is key.
10. Don't take longer to get ready than we do.
11. Three words: honesty, honesty, honesty.
12. Do not start with us. You will not win, because we ALWAYS win!
13. Would you like it if a guy treated your sister in a bad way? We
didn't think so.
14. If you ask nicely, we usually answer the same way.
15. We will never have enough clothes or handbags or shoes!
16. We have an excuse to act bitchy at least once a month.
17. We love surprises!
18. Pay attention to the little things we do, because they mean the most.
19. Clean your room.
20. Always brush your teeth before you see us . . . a fresh mouth and
white teeth are a necessity.
21. Even though you are sometimes insensitive and hurt us, we still
love you anyway.
22. Sometimes "NO!" really means "NO!"
23. It takes a special kind of stupid to forget birthdays and anniversaries.
24. We may think you are gay if you wear tighty-whities on a regular basis.
25. Guys who are good cuddlers = guys who know how to satisfy a woman.
26. "Fat Chicks" have feelings too!!
27. Silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears, yelling and nasty looks
all add up to . . . YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG!
28. Don't say you love me if you don't mean it.
29. Don't lie to us . . . we will catch you.
30. You have to tell a girl how you feel about her...we make no assumptions.
31. We hate porn.
32. We need food, water, and compliments to survive.
33. We think about you all the time.
34. Being able to make us laugh is so much more important than how
much you can bench-press.
35. Hold our hand.
36. If you think for any reason that we don't like you then we probably don't.
37. Having us over while you are doing something else and/or with your
friends does not count as "quality time".
38. Never comment on how much a girl eats...ever.
39. You just can't force us to like cars or sports (or whatever other
stuff you may be into).
40. We're typically smarter than you...so get over it and stop whining.
41. Walks in the rain, kisses on the forehead, and cooking dinner for
us will get you everywhere.
42. Just because we're in a serious relationship doesn't mean we plan
to marry you someday.
43. Anything you do or say to another girl that you wouldn't want us
to know about is considered cheating.
44. If we can admit that we're wrong, you'd better be able to do the same.
45. Think before you speak...it'll make a world of difference.
46. Make fun of our clothes...prepare to die.
47. Tell us we're beautiful.
48. Don't screw us over...especially if we have an older brother or
protective guy friends...they will hunt you down and kill you.
49. The "little things" in a relationship are really the biggest.
50. When the girls get together, we talk about EVERYTHING. Meaning my
best friends know everything about you.

isn't it funny how so many of those are true?

These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts, and are things people actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by court reporters who had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place.

Q: Are you sexually active?
A: No, I just lie there.

Q: What is your date of birth?
A: July 15th.
Q: What year?
A: Every year.

Q: What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?
A: Gucci sweats and Reeboks.

Q: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?
A: Yes.
Q: And in what ways does it affect your memory?
A: I forget.
Q: You forget? Can you give us an example of something that you've forgotten?

Q: How old is your son, the one living with you?
A: Thirty-eight or thirty-five, I can't remember which.
Q: How long has he lived with you?
A: Forty-five years.

Q: What was the first thing your husband said to you when he woke up that morning?
A: He said, "Where am I, Cathy?"
Q: And why did that upset you?
A: My name is Susan.

Q: Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo or the occult?
A: We both do.
Q: Voodoo?
A: We do.
Q: You do?
A: Yes, Voodoo.

Q: Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until the next morning?
A: Did you actually pass the bar exam?

Q: The youngest son, the twenty-year-old, how old is he?

Q: Were you present when your picture was taken?

Q: So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th?
A: Yes.
Q: And what were you doing at that time?

Q: She had three children, right?
A: Yes.
Q: How many were boys?
A: None.
Q: Were there any girls?

Q: How was your first marriage terminated?
A: By death.
Q: And by whose death was it terminated?

Q: Can you describe the individual?
A: He was about medium height and had a beard.
Q: Was this a male, or a female?

Q: Doctor, how many autopsies have you performed on dead people?
A: All my autopsies are performed on dead people.

Q: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to?
A: Oral.

Q: Are you qualified to give a urine sample?

Q: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?
A: No
Q: Did you check for blood pressure?
A: No.
Q: Did you check for breathing?
A: No.
Q: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
A: No.
Q: How can you be so sure, Doctor?
A: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
Q: But could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?
A: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law somewhere.

No wonder we don't trust attorneys....

today was the most gorgeous day to go apple picking! went up with matt to pick "cortland" apples...very sweet, and very yum! we picked 2 bags full (i was going for half-full but apparently we had to go for overflowing full...) and then we got to pick a free pumpkin! so we went trippingly around the field looking for a ideal pumpkin for his sisters. found a gorgeous orange one that i named "pummie the pumpkin". hahaha. we also went in the cornfield "maze" which we ALMOST got lost in. ;p the cherry pie that i bought for tonight's dinner at grace and juju's house was good. i got some complaints that it was bitter (?!?!?) but i really enjoyed it.

whatever, i got to take the leftovers home.

I got the sweetest email from my professor in my mailbox today:

Dear All,
First of all, let me wish you a happy thanksgiving day.
Also let me remind you that the first assignment is due on Wednesday October 13th. You can just submit it to me before the end of our class that day.
It's only an excercise on interpreting one or two text. 3 or 4 pages will be enough. You can always download the guidelines from PHL237 website. If you don't have the Source Books at hand, you can always pick up any text from what I have supplied there.
By the way, those who are still in need of the Source Book can find it in East-West Book Store.

Wish my best wishes,

Vincent Shen

handed in my first "big" assignment today. i'm not sure how i'm feeling about it. i mean, i'm really excited about what i've been doing, but to actually put it down into words so that the professor could see what i've been doing and trying to make sure it made any sense....that...and plus of course i had to procrastinate about doing it! ;p

today also happened to be the first day that we had our class in the multimedia lab. and might i add...the program we're working on, goldvarb, it's scary shit. i'm not a numbers girl, and the whole program is based on numbers...yaaaaay? hahaha.

well, it's 4:20pm, and i'm skipping ABT. why? because i was supposed to have my ethics paper finished already...but guess what? yah, ok..i'll leave that part unanswered. i'm just trying to finish it now. it's actually due tomorrow, but i'm going to be a training session all day...something about non-violent patients?!?!? and then guess who's graduating tomorrow evening? yay, for my smart ass sister who's the valedictorian this year. i was listening to her speech yesterday and she thought she was boring me to tears. for the record, i think it's going to be an amazing speech, i just happened to be really really really tired yesterday. it was a fight to not fall asleep in class so i guess reading me a speech at 11:30pm wasn't much of an idea. hahaha.

anyway, the good thing is that if i finish this early enough tonight, i can actually do something that i haven't done in awhile....relax...well, not really...but i can try for a couple of hours anyway!

this is not good. i just stumbled upon some old doodles that i had made with an old "bf" and now i've got old memories of the past coming up. i mean, this just totally sucks because i know the only reason the past is so easily surfacing is because i'm at a standstill right now. the world is still rushing past at an incredible speed but i'm falling behind. not good, not good at all...

so everyone who knew cynthia nixon went out with same-sex people, raise your hands...because i didn't know that...but now that i do...i'm not sure if i'm really surprised about that...

i'm starting to go nuts...i've been looking at intensifiers for the past couple of days in gilmore girl transcripts, and i'm starting to hear and see people who say the words "just, really, totally, so, very, quite, too...." and it's interesting! des would know what i'm talking about. when we did that project last year on quotatives and the "be like"...i started hearing them ALL OVER the place!

what say you if i said australia? i went to the goabroadfair thing at the metro convention centre on friday, and picked up a lot of information and brochures on studying and/or working there. it's an interesting path to go, and i'm toying with the idea...i can't say much about it now because i don't have time to go over everything that i picked up...but at least i have that kind of an option. yipee...i have ideas! ;p

the cold is also slowly going away. i say not fast enough. oh well.

yikes! yikes!

i'm sick.

monday's are brutal. simone and i were like dying on the subway ride home. i was so tired that i went to sleep after i printed off the essay assignment that my prof posted on the web.

except...

my nose was all stuffed up and my throat is KILLING me. and i think henry called last night (i couldn't remember). i don't wanna do work!!!!

i guess i'll just have to watch gilmore girls! ;p (oh right, i have the season one dvd box set now...mwahahahahaha!)

i wanted to blog several times over the course of the week, but alas, my internet was down for a couple of days, and suffice to say, that was quite annoying. so now is the perfect time because (of course) i'm in the middle of PILES of catching up to do. i think it was partly because of the subway fiasco on thursday (some broken switch at eglinton causing me an extra 2 hr headache) and the toga party friday (yeah baby yeah!) AND add procrastination and laziness to the mix.

to all the people that know i'm not a huge "big dog" fan...i can now add to my resume that i've "dog-sat". hahahaha. shelley has taken in carmi's dog, karma...and because karma hasn't fully gotten used to his 'surroundings' (ie, her place) she's afraid of leaving him completely unattended most of the day. this is where i come in...hahahaha...i watched karma for 3 hrs on thursday, and although i was kind of worried about being in the same room with him all by myself, it was a huge success! mainly because i just sat and studied, and he contentedly ate a bone and got a pamper job from me. hahahaha. this kat made friends with a big dog. whoo!

i still haven't gotten that history book from that bookstore. this is causing me undue amounts of stress and headaches. see, i would REALLY love to know what's going on in my chinese philosophy class, but unfortunately i think i'll have to stick with writing down almost every other word the prof says and then try to decipher his notes after class (which for the record i haven't gotten to yet). hahaha. i was supposed to finish most of my homework today, but that doesn't look like it's happening anytime soon.

note to self: no more parties until the smc halloween party...i don't think i can handle anymore activities on my plate....i've got my full course load, piano, the volunteer placement, most likely adrian, AND best buddies going on...oh yeh...my friends. hahahahaha. what friends?!?!?! ;p

why is it that every time i run into my teenybopper frosh kid (whoi have the biggest crush on), i lose all my abilities of speech and acting like i'm 4-5 years older then him? i get all retarded, that's what i do. hahahaha. i told shelley today that i have stop treating him like a materialistic object and start seeing him like the human being that he is. hahahaha...i've got a ways to go with him. :)

another stupid thing i did today: i went to buy my books for chinese philosophy at the east west bookstore at 128 harbord...this bookstore is fairly small and i clearly walked in on some sort of lesson the guy was teaching...and after finalizing that i had the right books, i realized that i didn't bring out either my debit or credit card, and that i didn't have $6 to my name. needless to say, i had to tell him that i'd be back monday...boy that guy won't forget me in a hurry! hahahaha.

okok...i need to get in some study time before i go out tonight...to INSIDE...INteresting...hahahaha, i kill myself sometimes...

congrats to kalan porter, our next canadian idol! hahaha, for the record, i heard him sing for the first time tonight, talk about waiting until the end! ;p

so this has been a jam-packed fun fun week. i totally wasn't expecting to go out tuesday night, but somehow i got conned into going to o'grady's to watch the final hockey game: canucks vs. finns...and of course we rock, so after jacob spends $200 on food and beer for everyone, we hit the streets to yonge and college, go down to dundas where jake and chad jump in the fountain (oh, brandon, adam, greg, matt, simone, shelley, and bhavna were with us) and then we head back up to college for mickey d sundaes before heading home for some much needed sleep!

it was manny's birthday monday (happy belated manny!) and tomorrow (or is it today?) is faye's birthday. tanaka's back so it'll be good times! ames' is getting her wisdom teeth out tomorrow too, so we'll be having lots of ice cream meals too...hahaha. the silly girl's been reading stories about people getting their wisdom teeth out, and is now severely freaked out. hahahaha

i'm happy. mu's in bioethics with me...frasier's in chinese philosophy...aileen's in globalization and underdevelopment...and jenny's in speech disorders and language variation. the last two classes are the best because they're small and intimate, and the profs are genuinely interested in US (not the number) and we get to pick and work on our projects for the rest of the semester. groovy. i secretly love it. hahahahaha.

oh, and one more thing....ABT's BACK!!!!!

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said..."no."

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said "no."

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a "no."

She had heard enough.

As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....

"You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.
And I wouldnt cry if you walked away...I'd die..."

ever party on a boat cruise during the tailend of a hurricane? well it's tons of fun! we had about 200 people come out and we all danced up a storm for 3 hours. the floor of the boat was literally bouncing up and down and it reminded me of titanic, just before the windows caved in! hahahaha!

suffice to say, it's been quite a trip down drama avenue. i lost my half my voice and now ames says i sound like a really bad sex operator who's been smoking for 55 years. i've had a total of 7 hrs from monday to thursday morning, PLUS during the olympiad tuesday morning, we ALL got SOAKED to the skin and didn't have anything to dry off in so needless to say....GOOD TIMES!

so this is the end of frosh forever...this is it. the last frosh where i handle hassles of no show leaders, of endless registration, of endless bickering and drama and stressed out coordinators and marshals. it's kind of sad, really...i'm already nostalgic but i guess it'll really show next year.

school's begun....yet again. i went to my only class today, and although it's going to be ALOT of WORK...it's something i'm really interested, mainly variation within language. i'm working with professor sali tagliamonte again (i had her for LIN254), and she's pretty awesome with this stuff. the class is also very small so it's very personal and lots of discussions with the group. i love starting new classes...it's when the marks come rolling in that gets me less motivated. hahahaha, oh well, seven more months and i'm out of here!

ever been to a pub at york? well we'll see how this situation goes!

it's been soooooo crazy busy! and i LOVE IT! THIS is the busy i like! i think i need to find a job where i get to organize stuff...anything, events, parties, folders....hahahahah...just not in a basement! hahahah

i love everyone for everything you've done to make this the best birthday ever! i opened my email to the sweetest messages and people were calling me all day as i was helping out with the stuffing of the frosh kits! people went out of their way to come and see me at the madison and i fully appreciate their love!

highlights included:
- shelley (phone) and henry (msn) being the first people to wish me happy birthday at 12am!
- talking to simone on the phone till the wee hours of the morning...
- taking out condoms from the frosh kits...hey kids time for the debauchery to begin...what better way then to get 500 free condoms? hahahaha....oh this can be taken in SO MANY different ways...
- dinner with my parents (we had some GOOD FOOD!)
- shelley and karen called at the same time while we were eating, i had to call shelley back...and faye calls not 2 mins after...hahahaha...all my parents could do was roll their eyes! hahaha
- matt came down with me to st. mikes so we could finish the photocopies of the puzzle scavenger hunt
- ruby (romeila's sister) was at the smc parking booth...congrats to romeila on the birth of her son, ethan (as in ethan hawke!)
- georges, reza, matt and i walked out of the priests' residence doors to find the garden gates locked...the guys hoped the fence and had to do some pretty cool lifting and carrying of me over the fence! hahahaha
- of course i was late getting to the madison, and kept people waiting...but then we took up most of the top patio...good times!
- cha and karina bought me THREE shots...and no one would have them with me!!! so i had to have them all to myself! heeeeee
- tim attempting to have a conversation with my about teaching piano AFTER i had three shots...
- henry and katie did a good job with pretending their present to me was a dildo...hahahah
- al putting ice down my back
- simone, jake, steve, and the boys showing up and immediately getting drunk! hahahaha
- rita, jamie, and aaron couldn't get in at the front, so they had to come in from the basement!
- the piano man sucked ass, but whatever...we had a good round of "bye bye miss american pie" haha
- after having two more shots and chasing them down with a smirnoff twisted ice....I DIDN'T PUKE! yah!

so i think that was the best part of the day. i went out with faye and jamie the next day for bubble tea and now i wish school wasn't starting again! hahaha. of course frosh half-week starts tuesday so busy busy busy!

until today, i never understood why everyone thought being a leader was better then being a marshal. now i know. we had our dsac orientation today, the turnout was amazing, and i was given 10 frosh babies to go over the events with. ten pairs of eyes that were trusting me to help give wonderful tips on how to start out in university. i swear they get younger every year...manny also pointed out that we get older every year! my group was the best! hahaha, i'm not even being biased, we REALLY were the best! we won all our games (except for the tug of war...that's not our fault the rope broke! hahahah!) i think the best part is that i really bonded with my group and i felt like they were mine! hahaha, if i was 5 years younger, i'd totally date a certain person in my group! hahaha, too bad i'm sooooo old! ;p

*sigh*...it's begun, the running and shouting and fun fun fun!

i'm sitting in the backseat of jacob's car at 2am this morning, and alex is sitting next to me:
me: omg!
jake: what? what's wrong?
me: did you know...that if you put your seatbelt on....you stay in your seat!
jake: you're right! you do!
alex: oh man....
hahahahaha

the last couple of days have been so amazing! i'm so happy that i'm on vacation, i really needed this extra time. i haven't felt the feeling of being relaxed and just letting loose in a very long time! yesterday, after attending a shiva for lenny's brother with jacob and simone, we headed over to the fox and the fiddle for drinks and dancing with lucy, cherie, alex, brandon, greg, steve and chad. the atmosphere was so energetic and everyone was having SUCH an amazing time, i'm still feeling the effects this morning (oops, my bad...two smirnoff ice's and i'm soooo done. hahaha) greg was like "CHRISTINA! i haven't seen you since....YESTERDAY!" hahaha, we had gone shopping at yorkdale with chad and simone and then had dinner at the outback steakhouse. i think the last time we had pure jokes was at george bbq back in july...too good!

i've fallen in love with this punk group called "yellowcard". ok, they're not really punk, they're what matt calls "positive punk". what i find really cool about these guys is that they've got a violinist with their drums in electric guitars. it gives it a certain edge, very very cool. i bought their cd, and i'm fully enjoying the sound! i also got the "queen" hits, and we were singing "we are the champions" up yonge street on wednesday...hahaha, it was so funny people were looking at us like we were crazy...and you know what? we are! hahaha.

You tried so hard to be someone
That forgot who you are

You tried to fill some emptiness
Till all you had spilled over

Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where are
You are

When all that you wanted
When all that you had don’t seem so much
For you to hold onto
For you to hold onto

For you to belong to

When it’s hard to be yourself
It’s not to be someone else

Still everything’s so far away
That you forget where you are
You are

Jet

soooo.....

exams are done, back from a weekend of shopping in buffalo (guess who i ran into there? my two aunts and alex! weird, eh?), and dsac & frosh stuff is slowly coming together. monica is finally computerizing her system at the studio, you don't understand what a BIG relief that she has finally entered the 21st century! student schedules are underway and it's going to suck big time this year because i have to come in on thursdays now, which means no partying thursday and friday nights!!!

i'm so proud of myself. i put together this little pamphlet guide for commuter students at smc last night, with pictures and all! immanuel helped me with the ideas and avril was thrilled to death when she saw it today. we went shopping at costco for our waffle breakfast, but somehow we managed to get everything EXCEPT the main ingredients (waffle mix, syrup and whipped cream)...hahahaha...i guess everyone will be eating "pretend" waffles...hahahaha. i'm also really psyched about putting together the puzzles for the scavenger hunt. it's so good i wish I was a frosh again! hahahaha.

reading up on some blogs, i'm finding myself yearning to travel to the places catherine's been going to. i'm so jealous that she provided herself the opportunity to go out for 6 months in europe. i want to travel! i want to study in a foreign country, learn another language (or make myself better at one of the ones i know). so many people i know have gone to so many places...france, australia, japan...one day i'll be able to say i went everywhere, but until then...i guess i should save up! i think shelley and i will plan a backpacking trip in europe for sometime soon, maybe next year? how exciting!

i don't miss school itself, but i miss the people that i go to class with, or study with, or hang out with...where is everyone? yech, i'm tired!

i'm only blogging right now because henry was complaining that people don't blog any more...and of course i have to prove him wrong. i just got home...i JUST finished an exam....aw feck, it was LONG...i have another one tomorrow at 2pm...hahahahaha, that's FUNNY because i'm going to be shitting in my pants because i know NOTHING!!!! i've been studying for this one, and now i'm EXHAUSTED. on the bright side, i DID run into a hell of a lot of people after my exam. i returned a 2 week overdue library book to kelly library (thanks jacob!!!) and then i was wondering if i should call al, but then decided against it because i figured it would mean i'd have to stay longer and REALLY (REALLY) i need to study (well, besides this...but whatever) and then as i was walking towards wellesley, i heard this guy talking...and it was AL! he had some friend's over from L.A., and we chatted for a few mins when he mentioned that mu was working at the newsstand next to the starbucks on yonge and wellesley, so i popped by there, said hi and then waited with simone at the station for mu to get off work....and who else showed up?!?!?! yup, that's right, long time no see marko! (wow, i DID see a lot of people tonight :S)

anyway, before i forget...happy birthday ames! we're postponing her birthday dinner until tomorrow because i'm *supposedly* studying right now. hahahaha. okok....freak attack's coming on...gotta study!!!

no complaining henry!

there was no food in the fridge when i left this afternoon, and then when i got home this evening...there was like a food explosion or something. i've been in such a shitty mood today. i feel bad for the people who saw me today, i was soooo not someone you wanted to have a conversation with. jake took the subway with me to school and he was having his own conversation and rambling on and on for about 20 mins...

i went to buy some books at the rcm, and on a whim tried to check out if ed was in. he wasn't. boo. so i went to chapters and bought a book for $2.99 so i could pass the time waiting for my *last* summer class of this year. (ie, procrastination yet again...)

what an unproductive day, and plus i'm tired.

i feel like i've been in a time warp...the days have just flown by and so many things happened. i just want to stay at home and rest!

i've gotten a tan! whooo! i'm so proud to say that i went to wasaga beach on saturday...but the tan wasn't from the beach...hahahaha, that i got from my own private backyard today. wasaga was for 'work' but it didn't work out...oh well! but the worst thing is that we had marshal training yesterday and a marshal/leader meeting today, and they just take the wind out of me. although, i have to say that i got a great kick out of going out to mcdonald's with immanuel, avril and little jenny! we left the meeting today, and randomly saw steph donahue and nicole...so we stopped and started chatting with them, and then suddenly in a span of five mins, there was a whole group of other st. mike's kids and we just congregated on the side of the street and chatting up with everyone...it definitely shows how much we're like a family in our great st. mike's community! it never fails to surprise me how much i love my college (no matter how much i bitch about it)

so after about half an hour, we finally broke away from the crowd and had an amazing time the golden arch place (hahahaha). jacob, steve, and simone met up with us...simone walked in with a happy face steamwhistle cardboard box on her head. (i know, that's our simone!) she was so drunk, and kept trying to wash her feet, and then she pulled out of her bra (it was quite entertaining to see) jacob's house keys...hahahaha.

i'm so happy, shelley's back from france, and i spent the night at her place on thursday. i love how it's so much fun and relaxing to hang out with her, no stress...that's all i really need. i met carmie, and he's the greatest guy in the world, i'm so glad SOMEONE has a great stable relationship...of course, no relationship is complete without a gorgeous dog as well...hahaha.

i can't tell how this summer has been...it's like a messy relationship, i can't stand it...it's not particularly great, but it's not that bad either...grrrr....i'm getting bored and completely wiped out of the constant drama that encircles everyone. i just want to hibernate for a week.

school's done in 2 weeks, and then a short 3 week break...and then straight back into shits and giggles...sigh...

the worst part...i'm craving hashbrowns...but mcdonald's only has them for breakfast...damn.

i just found two more articles on a paper that was due today, i also just had 5 spring rolls, and about 8 handfuls of nuts, washed down with diet cola from costco...am i pregnant?!?!?! i'm a wreak. i think i'm pregnant.

i can't decide what is more exhausting...to go out partying or to study!  after a weekend of late LATE nights and then a test monday, i'm just soooooo tired!  i don't know how you people do it.  i lost half my voice after the evanescence concert, and i have a little teeny cold that i only know i have because i have the sniffles.  juju's account of the concert is pretty accurate, so no elaboration needed there.  

jacob's birthday bash at lucidworld was pretty good.  well, except for the part where the hip hop room was MUCH too small for the amount of people that wanted to dance in there, and it was hot, crowded and LOUD, but it was all for fun's sake.  of course, there was the usual drama before hand, which included simone forgetting her driver's license at home, so we had to go get it, and then she somehow left it in the fridge...(don't ask...it's too much to handle.) as well, tanaks was missing most of the day and we didn't know if we should pick her up or what, but she somehow turned up at my place while we were out getting simone's license, and mom was all freaked out when the doorbell rang because she had just showered and was in her pj's.  (hahaha, i'm sorry, but that was just too funny!)  having the girls there was nice because it's been awhile since we've all been out together...montreal in august will be interesting!  ;p

friday was georges' bbq of steaks and wine (+ beer), and we had such an amazing time there, i don't know why we didn't stay longer!  the house he's staying at is GORGEOUS, with his own plasma tv, a rooftop patio and the whole house to himself!  it was really good seeing the sorbara guys as i hadn't seen them in sooooo long!  lauren and lisa were there too, as well as some of the guys' girlfriends so there was a nice mix of girls and guys.  steve and chad showed up to pick up simone and i, so we could all give jacob (mr. birthday boy) his presents that i so enjoyed shopping for.  shopping is so theraputic for me...especially since i was so excited when i bought the most gorgeous pair of heels at aldo with tanaka...oh my poor bank account...and on borrowed money too!  hahahaha. 

i'm happy to say the weather held out for my outtings so i'm quite content.  my only other goal this summer is to hit up a beach sometime before school begins.  i've been wandering around the house with my bikini top on in hopes that the weather would be nice enough and that we'd have the time to go out...sooon...

cat, you don't even want to know how long and hard i laughed when i got your "long glance", i WILL definitely send you some stupid silly emails (i have a bad habit of forgetting to do that) i hope you're having a great time in spain!  i love reading about your excavation accounts!  ;p  oh, and don't forget to drink for me too!  please, if you have time, send me a hot boy home, k?  mwah!  hahahaha. 

what an exciting and funfilled weekend.  it included a wicked ass bbq with a high patio and st. mike's friends, a night of clubbing at lucidworld with some abbey girls and the jacob crowd, and an evanescence concert with my sister and cousins that just blew me away.  i have a test tomorrow that i should start studying for so i'll probably have more time to spend on more of the highlights afterwards.  there was just an episode that bothered me and i needed to get it off my chest. 
 
perfect by nature
icons of self indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world that
 
never was and never will be
have you no shame?
don't you see me?
you know you've got everybody fooled
 
look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
but now i know she
 
never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled
 
without the mask
where will you hide?
can't find yourself
lost in your lies
 
i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore
 
it never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled
 
it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool
 
- evanescence
 
this is for you, you know who you are and i hope you get it.  if you don't know who you are or you don't get it, well too bad.  that just means you don't know me and if you think about it...you're not worth my time and effort. 

i went to a rehabilitation orientation at the university center, and i'm looking forward to playing for the geriatric ward. the coordinator was so excited when she found out that i teach piano. hahaha, i'll never get away from playing piano...

hahahahaha...what was i thinking when i said a couple posts back that i'd have so much time on my hands and nothing to do? well, as immanuel said to me today "i'm too busy socializing!" that being said, it's great to see immanuel, i don't see him enough! i love catching up...all i do is chatter away...hahahaha!

it's true, it's so bad, but i'm having friends asking me out to go places but i'm having such a hard time keeping track of what and when, that i've been forced to bust out a mini-calendar to keep me on track (yes, you all know the purple/orange notebook that i use during the year...i was trying to steer clear of THAT! that's heavy duty organizing!) maybe i should just post an online calendar and people can fill in their own time slots! ;p

georges is planning a bbq at the house he's sitting for, and we met up yesterday, and man...i haven't seen that boy in AGES!!!!! since before the end of exams?!?!?! i went to japan, he went to guadeloupe...and now we're BACK! whoo! i forgot how much fun we are when we get together! soooo.....bbq friday!

But you gotta make choices, be wrong or right,
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like,
But I was born to try

- delta goodrem

i'm so happy that i'm seeing people i haven't seen in such a long time. i find that we're all so busy, that sometimes we lose contact with people by accident...and then it comes to a point when you don't feel right contacting them, so out of the blue...gotta keep the people you love around...and sometimes it involves effort, without trying you'll get nothing...nothing falls in your lap, you've got to try...

there's an angel watching over you...

i can't sleep. i keep thanking god over and over again for having an angel watch out for one of my loved ones. what i would do without her i have no idea. i'm so grateful that the boys were there to keep her company and make sure she was ok, i love those boys. i know, jacob keeps telling me over and over not to kick myself and no one's to blame, freak accidents happen. but somehow i still think over in my head, the many stupid things that lead to this circumstance...definitely gives a different perspective as to how i take this world for granted. i'll cherish my loved ones with a deeper passion and greater respect, and not dwell on the little petty and selfish people who aren't worth a penny for their thoughts.

life goes on, it's how you make the most of it that counts...

guess where i am? that's right...school...well, gerstein to be specific. i really enjoy the libraries (well, the university as a whole) during the summer time because there are WAYYYYYYYY less people (i hate crowds...). yup, i just got another indicator of how u of t wants to screw me over. on the bright side, 9 more half courses and i'm out of here!

i've been rudely jolted out of my summer dream of just relaxing and no worrying. HA. why i even think that could happen is beyond me. i guess it's one of those "you gotta dream" kinda things. anyway, the point is, i was informed quite bluntly that i'm not being serious enough about my projects and that if i don't shape up, i'm going to be a deadweight. #1. it's fucking summertime, and this project is a work in progress STARTING in september but not even due to start until JANUARY. #2. this has me seriously considering if i WANT to stay on this project if i'm going to pushed around and made to feel awful all year round, and #3. i've come to the sad realization that i really don't have the same love and devotion to my college that i once had in my innocent first year, and maybe it IS for the best if i resign now.

this along with another self-discovery: sometimes no matter how hard you try to keep things afloat, sometimes it's best to let things go. i've exhausted myself trying to keep up with my friends and family, and suddenly it's clear that while i can go out of my way to be a good person, friend and daughter, not everyone is on the same level. i can't continue killing myself to make selfish people happy, it's time i put myself first and make ME happy. of course this is going to be difficult, it's hard to put a philosophy into play, but i have good friends and family that are willing to help me in this "change".

on another note: it's interesting how small our world is. steve, simone and i found ourselves shopping at promenade mall yesterday after the movie we wanted to see (the notebook, oh yes, you can laugh at that) was sold out. we walked into jean machine and while simone was trying on some clothes, the salesgirl approached me and asked "so...are you going out with jason?" i stared back at her (like she was crazy) and informed her that no i wasn't dating jason (for the record, i don't know any jason's), and for that matter, i wasn't dating anyone! she apologized and said she asked because i looked familiar. fine, we all had a good laugh and steve and i continued waiting for simone. then the salesgirl came BACK and asked if i was SURE i wasn't dating anyone, and i said i'm pretty sure...and then she came around AGAIN and asked if i wasn't sitting on the lawn the other day. at the last question, i suddenly remembered that yes, i WAS sitting on my neighbor's lawn on monday evening with JACOB, but how the hell she knew that, i had no idea...until she told me that she was the girl sitting in the back seat of greg's car (with greg and terry) when they were passing by! it's funny because i didn't get a good look at her that night so there was no way i could ever had recognized her, and then when simone mentioned that steve was a friend of greg and jacob, she didn't recognize steve and only about AN HOUR later did steve realize who she was.

it's a small world after all...

the weather has been gorgeous and it's making me really excited about hitting up a beach or a cottage up north! i want to suntan! simone and i even bought the cutest bikini's at aqua the other day, so now i need an excuse to wear it! ;p

my computer is being stupid again. it won't let me log into ANYTHING. no hotmail, no utoronto account, no gmail, no blogger...no matter, i have two other computers to mess around with. hahaha. but i know this inconvenience will eventually drive me crazy.

after shopping all friday afternoon (hence the new bikini's!!!!), simone and i accidently mooched a sushi dinner off of patty and her 2 friends that came in from the states! (i say accidentally because we were fully going to pay for the meal but ken and matt decided they would treat us ladies...who's to say no to that? ;p) it was really nice of them as the sushi place we went to wasn't exactly CHEAP, but the food was good, and the guys ordered cold sake wine...oh man, i got sooooo giggly it was so funny!

afterwards, simone came over and we watched a couple of episodes of sex and the city (that's our goal, to watch the whole series this summer..hahaha) before we headed out at 10:30pm to jordon's house party. this is the best part...jordon lives 2 mins away in my neighbourhood, and you can't even imagine how great it is to just walk out of the house and walk to a party. it's a lot different then going to a party downtown toronto where you have factor in the time it takes to go DOWN and back UP and plus the subway and buses...just the biggest headache in the world, which is why i hate going out sometimes!

jordon is one of the nicest people i've ever met. he and his parents are so gracious and they don't even care who comes over (for the record, i met his mother before i met him...long story...involves dragging jacob out to vote with me...). simone and i literally walked up to the house, opened the front door, and walked right in (for all we knew, we could have been in the wrong house!) jordon's mom went out and bought chasers for everyone in hopes that we wouldn't be hungover the next day! right, so who's everyone? well steve took the liberty in inviting us over, as well as some other queen's people, and along with brandon, chad and greg, i met some more of jacob's highschool guys including alex (so cute!), lenny and niv. scary guy mark dropped by as well, and my only regret is that we missed out on seeing the infamous lucy and adam! greg was so nice, he insisted on driving us home (like it's far away or something...) and the rest of the night was devoted to 6 more episodes of season one SC.

i went in for a TB skin test yesterday, and somehow also found myself taking a blood test as well. it was my very first time i've ever done one of those, but it's really not that bad...i know grace HATES needles and all i've heard are stories of people holding to every limb while someone else does the blood test, but really, other then the slightly nausating sound of the squirting blood at the end (haha, sorry if that was gross) i feel that i'll be ok for future blood tests.

ah alright, to end on a non-gross note...today we're all going out to celebrate grandma's 90th birthday, whooo...something to dress up for! hahaha.

happy birthday canada!

what did i do to celebrate my nationality? i browsed through douglas coupland's souvenir of Canada 2 that's sitting ames' desk. wow do i feel canadian... haha.

i'm feeling pretty relaxed now that the field report's done and the bellringer is over (oh but the bellringer was brutal...). went to see the producers with my family last night and then on the subway ride home, we happened to run into aunt gen and uncle ron. interesting conversations arose and ended with an upset sister and me feeling retarded and stupid as usual...not cool.

today i went over to simone's and seeing how it was a GORGEOUS day outside, we walked over to commerce gate (hwy 7 and leslie) to have bubble tea, and of course, seeing as i don't see her enough (haha) we had a great long conversation as per usual and then watched some of mandy moore's cheesy chasing liberty...and when i say cheesy, i MEAN IT.

it's going to be quite interesting to see how i fare the upcoming week as i'll have absolutely nothing to do...and it's been a very long time since i've had THAT kind of feeling...

i really SHOULD start my field report...after all, it's due tomorrow...whatever, i'll get to that after i blog...maybe... ;p

congratulations to flo and alan on a great bbq, although i can't say much about the food, for some odd reason i was particularly full last night *wink* and i don't know how to explain it, but i think flo lost me and matthew for a bit there...where did we go? i say we were in the basement watching the simpsons the whole time, i think flo was just too drunk to see us! *gasp* hahaha. also, i wish i knew the kids were going to be there so that i could bring michelle's yarn ball with me, as well as pictures from japan...i think we still need to meet up to go over the pictures some time!

so let me tell you about the fabulous time i had at the docks on friday...went over to simone's after work and dinner with the folks, and met up with steve, brandon, chad, richard and sajel (birthday girl) at the docks. great music + smirnoff raspberry twist (new favorite drink) + shot of something steve bought = a hell of a good time! at least i can say this time that i really did dance! (flashback to halloween...hahahaha) jacob came by after work to buy sajel a couple more shots and then he was kind of enough to come home with me as the subway stopped running.

dad bought tickets to the terracotta warriors show playing at the elgin theatre and we went to that on tuesday. ames was wondering how good it would be but i think we all throughly enjoyed the show. i think i enjoyed the movement of the long flowing robes that the dancers/actors wore and even though the music was of the traditional chinese kind with drums and strings and even an opera singer, it was really great to hear and see. i definitely recommend people to see it!

travel update:
cat and shelley are leaving wednesday, i think i need to see those girls again before they go!!!!! *tear* and i think i'll be seeing ava sometime this week, as she's off to japan next week! on the bright side, georges should be back tomorrow and i think we're supposed to go out (?!?!) plus faye should be back from france sometime soon...

ok, so it doesn't look like this field report will write itself...too bad.

disclaimer: this is NOT a happy post so i suggest you NOT read on if you're looking for a happy girl.

sometimes i wish i was a robot with no emotions, i think it would definitely make life easier. there's just too much 'drama' in my life right now, and it's speeding like a train wreck towards the limit of some sort of emotional or mental breakdown...i can feel it. i'm starting to drink more, and when i DO drink, i like to drink really fast so that i can feel the effects faster, so that i can laugh, be rambunctious and act like everything is alright.

i'm not really happy anymore, and this is terrible because when people ask me how everything is and how i am, i can't even say a fake 'great!' because i'm feeling THAT bad, that i'll just start babbling about what's wrong at the time, and frankly, i can see the scared expression on their faces, and their concern hurts me because i don't like to burden people with my troubles.

the worst thing is that the type of person that i am, i don't have many REALLY close friends (tons of acquaintences) and even less close girlfriends, but i can only count two that are even remotely close enough to see right now, and only one of them do i see on a regular basis. all the others are abroad, or out of town...and it's scaring me so much how i'm feeling like i'm losing my backbone and strength from them.

summer time is about having fun and this is the prime of my life to be out and about being a sub-adult and growing up. instead, i'm feeling so cloistered and smothered and i'm having difficulty from doing something really drastic. and i'm really afraid that the consequences will NOT be a pretty sight. i'm this close to losing it...i need something to break my fall, but what...i have no clue...

i look back on yesterday's post i'm thinking "wow that was so stupid, posting a blog about how drunk i am" but really, it was so much fun! just for the record, i was SO NOT HUNGOVER this morning (whew!), but i can't speak for either steve or simone, who were popping advils and drinking coffee on the subway! ;p

how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see

- sarah mclachlan "stupid"

HA! i am SOOOO WASTED right now....it's great! can you imagine? only 2 raspberry smirnoff twists and a shot of liquid cocaine (it's a drink) and i'm sooooo good to go. jacob and chad got to the bar about half an hour ago and they couldnt stop laughing at how gone i was...and simone and steve were like "rah!"

anyway, i have school tomorrow...goddamn school...

so this week was "abbey" week. had a great dinner at salad king with faye on wednesday, i haven't seen her since new years. also saw our very pregnant friend, romeila (who i haven't seen since she left about 11 months ago to go to ottawa) and now she's back, 8 months pregnant and only married a month ago...i know...crazy! and then tanaks came back from kingston this weekend so we hit up money last night with faye and jamie (who i also haven't seen since god-knows-when). we were supposed to see karina and cha but they ended up going down to see some "northwest" music set thingy that was going on so i guess i'll see them some other time when tanaka comes in again.

awww, i feel so shitty right now. my "friend" decided to show up RIGHT before i went out last night. at that point i realized why i've been so moody lately. it was weird because i had gone out friday night with jacob and ames, and i'd get upset so easily but not really know the real cause of being mad. it just really sucks how hormones can take over your life and blow you away.

whoa what a crazy night. thanks so much to jacob and henry for coming to the rescue. no thanks to my crazy parents who wouldn't stop freaking out. really, how old am i? i think i'll always be 12 with them, and it's getting quite frustrating to open my own wings and fly...that's another rant for another blog...

as human beings, a common requirement is that we all do stupid things, but the best thing that shows up through all the stupidness is you find out who are your friends and who are not. i've had my fair share (tequila rose, girls? *shudder* ;p) and luckily for me, my girls are always with me thinking for me when i cannot.

simone needed me last night, and i was there to help her. mind you, i don't have a car, but that didn't stop me. jacob unfortunately could not be reached earlier, so i had my other friend, henry come to the rescue. sure, it was late at night, and i was ready to hit the sack, but hey, that's what friends do...look out for each other.

the 'episode' had a happy ending, but unfortunately, through it all, my parents had to be asses. i'm not going into the details but all i have to say is i don't agree with their morals and i'm not sure how i feel about being open to them anymore. i only wish they could be more supporting and more helpful, but i guess you can't have everything, eh? all i have to say, is if ANY of my friends ever need my help, they shouldn't worry about being judged or not having me watch their back (well, unless i'm in the same situation).

last night definitely opened up my eyes a little bit more to other people's closed minded views.

ew ew ewww!! (note to self: don't watch movies like 'something's gotta give' or 'calendar girls'...)
watching a movie with keanu reeves kissing diane keaton is just really really gross!

oh i spent too much money at the muhtadi drummer's festival at queen's park today. but it was pure good times as we stayed there from 12 noon to around 7:30pm. yah, there was some really awesome drumming (jamaican, caribbean, and even chinese dragon drumming!) and good food, and at 4pm there was a D-Day celebration on the other side of queen's park where we got to see a glimpse of dalton mcguinty and david miller. there was even a beer tent set up so that we could go and have a bottle of steamwhistle (which i just found out is made in the roundabout by the AC, and that is just really really cool!)

i'm exhausted. must be all that walking...huh...

guess what? tee and i had our frosh coordinator interview today and......we didn't get it. =(

oh well, life is full of shits and giggles, and i guess this is a big piece of poo. on the bright side, i'll be able to go on vacation with parents in august (oh wait...how is that a good things?) BUT it also means i have more time to do...other stuff...

oh whatever. i wish i was still in japan.

i advise anyone with nothing better to do this summer to definitely go and see shrek 2. it had me in stitches the whole entire time! another movie i really want to see is the terminal with tom hanks and catherine zeta jones...she actually looks very pretty with the short hair and bangs.

it's been a weird couple of days. yesterday i had this uncontrollable desire to eat junk food, so i went out with my sister to buy a bag of chips...turns out you can buy one bag of lays for $2 but you can buy 3 bags for only $5...you can guess which deal i went for! but after having nearly an entire bag of chips to myself...i think i've sated THAT craving for awhile...not to mention having a reese's piece's blizzard from dairy queen today (flo, matt and i snuck ours into the theatre, but of course flo decided to leave the theatre again and BROUGHT her snack with her...and got in a fight with the girl about bringing outside food into the theatre...)i think my craving for ice cream has also been fed.

i also went insane with my debit card today. we had a test in class, and afterwards i told my mom it was a nice day and i wanted to walk outside for a bit before i came home...turns out walking outside means walking inside the jacob store at the manulife centre...that place just sucks me in like a vacuum cleaner...i bought the cutest pair of cargo pants...(they roll up at the side!) as well as a new PINK purse, and of course...the staple jacob underwear! they have this new line with really cool, bright colors and a little flower on the left side!

why is it so easy to spend money, yet so difficult to make it? if anyone has an answer to that, i'd love to know!