WHAT'S GOIN' ON?!?!?!?!?

it's new years eve for cryin' outloud! this holiday has just been a huge blurr...i can't even separate each day anymore...everyone i talk to on the phone asks me the same question..."whatcha doin' for new years?" and to every single person i tell them..."nothing"

that's right. it's a tradition...i always stay at home...sometimes i stay up and watch the ball drop on tv, but most of the time i go to sleep and then...whoa...it's jan 1st. and this year is no exception...

i hate it when i'm not working...it's very very boring, and then i find myself doing homework and that's just peachy...i really really dislike sitting at home doing nothing, UGH! well, after tomorrow i will find myself back into shipshape...(i hope) especially since i've just been eating like a pig and NOT working out. what with everything that's going on, i just want to crawl into bed and sleep...which is what i've done all day, so i have no idea how i'll be sleeping tonite...

oh wow...new years resolution...that's unheard of...i don't really make resolutions because they are never kept...why make a NEW YEARS resolution? when you can make a resolution for anytime...why push it back to one single day? i just thought i'd apologize if i'm wreaking anyone's fun...i'm feeling very cynical right now. karina got a new piercing at the side of her mouth and i was so jealous that now i want another piercing too! but where? i'm seriously looking into the tragus...but my parents will flip...this won't be as easy to hide as the other one...and plus this includes a whole ton of cartilage. my other option is to dye the back panel of my hair like avril lavigne's in her music video i'm with you and that would be the better option. either way...something will prolly be done when i see karina thursday....

i'm peeved at a certain person, and i didn't exactly treat them very nicely on the phone today...i felt so bad afterwards that i ate a quarter of a tub full of chocolate ice cream...just for the record...i didn't feel that great afterwards...but that person will never know because they are stupid...and i'm even more dumb for being blind towards their actions and being so nice and understanding when everyone around me can see how badly i'm being treated and TRY to tell me, but nono...i won't listen...i think deep down i've known what was going on, but i tried to make excuses for everything and now, I SEE. so all i have to do now, is give them their present (i did after all buy this present thinking OF THEM, so might as well) and...not see them as often...man oh man...that might as well be a new years resolution...

will someone please make the time to see "chicago" with me? i really want to see it...but it seems that everyone is busy...

i am going to go INSANE. mom's been running around all day like a chicken with it's head cut off...she's on the verge of giving me a heart attack...she just took a tumble down the stairs trying to lug up a heavy chair from the dining room to grandma's room. earlier, she caused a HUGE commotion over grandma ringing a bell in her room, and before grandma was discharged from the hospital, she'd been calling the whole entire day to ask over and over again one question..."when's amelia going to work?"

it's boring at home. the phone's been ringing off the hook all day, but few are for me! boo!

today will go down in tanaka's books..."i went to christina miao's house today..." hahaha...man...we just kill each other...we can just FEEL it....soon, soon...ALL OF US will be in some sort of relationship and then we'll all be acting weird..."hey...this is so and so" hahahahaaaa! hmm...who will it be?!?!? socrates?!?!?! cha?!?!?! witkos?!?!?! man...we're waiting for the day!

this has been a very interesting christmas break...way too many things have been happening and i'm always soooo tired...so i'll just sleep it ALL off...heh heh...with ups and downs, this will go down in classic history!

"You are in my heart
I can feel you're near
And I lose my mind
While behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name"

sixpencenonethericher

yup, uh huh...i'm in love again...

so i've got some pics from queens...they are posted here

went to see sandra bullock and hugh grant's movie two weeks notice with tanaka, karina and maija...not bad considering you have to check your brain out at the movie door, but we got thru it...and even had a fun filled evening of eating and joking at spring rolls on yonge...the girls are dying...

i dunno...i'm sooooo much more exhausted then i've EVER been...ppl at work keep asking me to stay, but no way...it's tooo stressful, i have to have a social life...i feel so trapped in a cage...always looking outside...i just wanna have fun!

this is NOT good...everyone is getting sick, first daddy, now grandma's sick...we were eating dinner at home (i know...when's the last time i've had a meal at home?!?!?!) and grandma ate like 2 bites of food and then left cuz she didn't feel well...and then threw up in the bathroom...that is NOT good...and i feel soooo bad...like, i should be there for her when she's ill, and i haven't even seen her in a week! i didn't even KNOW she was sick...and now i feel soooo guilty...

spoke to lisa on the phone today, we were trying to get communications into some sort of order...we've mapped out a decent plan, now we must set it in motion and start cracking...did i mention that winterfest was gonna be awesome this year? WINTERFEST'S GONNA BE AWESOME THIS YEAR! and i can't wait till i get a t-shirt! it really DOES make a difference between a shirt or not...i was not happy about having a makeshift marshall shirt this year...felt like a fraud...but no more...NO MORE! i'm getting a shirt if i have to kill for it!

went to boss monica's for dinner today. her house is HUMONGOUS...and she and her husband sam are like these HUGE decorating fans...it's like walking into an art page....or one of those show homes...except for the fact that they live there...

my feet are officially DEAD. i mean....DEAD...like....FISHDEAD...like....yeh....dead.

oh. and i'm tired and dad's sick, so i'm gonna hit the sack.

is life not full of shits and giggles?

first of all, i don't care how i do on my exam anymore, i'm studied out...i mean, sure i'm at kelly right now but that doesn't mean i'm studying?!?!?! i will, but to be honest i don't need to be here. i had coffee with flo this morning...let's just say we got a whole shitload of stuff cleared up...whatever happens now will be all pretty interesting. i haven't decided if this was a good thing or a bad thing. i'll figure it out when stuff happens.

nicola's engaged! i'm soo excited for her! lanthia told me last night just as i was going to log off, and then i was excited for the rest of the nite, and now that i think about it, i'm STILL excited!!! what a good opportunity to visit sydney, australia next year! hahahahaaa! and to imagine, she's only 22 years old! that's TWO WHOLE YEARS older than me...WOW!

there's too many things going on in my life for me to concentrate...damn botany to hell! it's driving me insane!!!! but on a good note, at this time tomorrow, i will be officially done my exams and i will be sooooooo happy!!!!

argh! my feet are killing me!

alrighty then...i'm sitting at kelly library (see? i told you this was my home!) and guess who i'm with?!?!? BERNADETTE!
that's right....WOW! i haven't seen her in the LONGEST TIME! like last year! and even when we did, it was by complete chance randomness...on the street...like..."hi!" "hey!" "how's it going?"...less then a min kinda seeing...and it's soooo good to see you!!! eeeee! that was my happy happy screech! which i did for a bit on the street...that's ok...it's dark and late tonite, so nobody really cares about two psycho girls screeching on the street! hahahahaaa! and bernie...your hair! it's soooo short!!!! but it's all good cuz your hair grows sooooo fast!

i saw ames' friend stephanie today, she said hi to me and i looked at her like a fool...how am i supposed to remember this girl that i met once during the summer?!?!?! that's right...i didn't...but it's all good...she works at holt renfrew as the gift wrapping girl! and i saw dad's friend, pete today...he was looking for some jeans for his daughter jennifer...and i ran into him, and i'm like "bernie's girl?" (not bernie as the aforementioned bernie) and then he remembered me...and then i saw anne from last year chem...and then teresa! whoo hoo!

so now i'm gonna finish this blog so that i can go upstairs to study!

this is bad...i'm sitting at a kelly computer on the second floor blogging because i almost fell asleep studying botany. the good thing is that i finished the chapter i was reading so i decided now is a good time to take a break. after all, i've been at this stinkin' library since 11am because i georges went home today and he wanted me to visit before he left...which meant that i was up at 8am this morning...whatever...on the bright side, i'm up early to study...yay?

so georges is gone...i'll try not to cry too much...

paul kim came over to kelly at almost 1pm to give me back my lab 5 notes, so i waited for him outside of the library, and who do i see...but ken (from alumni)...who's this big dude that's pretty scary...but in all actuality is really nice...and he stopped by to chat with me...which is all fine and dandy except for this small factor...where i notice this SPIDER crawling up his chin (he has a beard) and then it fell off onto hi shirt...and i didn't have the guts to tell him...so i just WATCHED...oops...hahaha

and what's up with everyone thinking that there's something going on with me and paul? he's just my LAB PARTNER...that's it...and we were meeting up so he could give me back my notes! i asked christian for his number after lecture one day so that i could call him to arrange the mtg (b/c paul is never in class) and chris gave me a funny look and said paul had asked for my number as well...and even after i explained, he still gave me a weird look...damn you all! believe what you will...boo ya

my goal today is to finish reading 3 more chapters before i go home...right...that's because my shift was cancelled...so now i have more time to study...which is good...except for the fact that i want to sleep! that's not good....

"joy to the world
and the boys and girls,
joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea...
joy to you and me"

that's the song that's been running thru my head the whole day...since i was in the GAP store at bayview village...hahahaha....what a fun song!

i went shopping with mom at the fore mentioned bayview village...wow that place is expensive! all i could do was window shop. if there's anything i like...well? what can you do? i saw the most perfect thing for kirsten! a HUGE key ring with like 20 places for her 50 million keys...but then...it was $36...and i don't have that kinda money to throw around...sorry girl!

i don't know why...but i always get soooo tired during exam time. i remember in the summer i used to take so many cat naps instead of studying...but i got thru it. so hopefully i'll be fine. tomorrow will be a LONG day at the library...yay kelly!

to my abbey girls: did you get the abbey unites email? michelle lee has been sending out emails to us all, in hopes that we'll all make time for a get-together dec 27th at marche...i think we'll go! it'll be fun times! i'm just wondering if we should just rent out the place for the nite, there's so many of us! hahahahaaa!

worked today in the morning for 4 hrs...and spent the rest of the day at kelly library...however, i didn't feel very productive at all...maybe cuz i fell asleep a couple of times in my cubicle...hmmm...maybe that's it....

i think i studied a total of 8 pages...and mapped out what i need to study...meh...wait till next wk...when i need to hardcore study...this is what i'm debating...study now...or later....hmmmm....sooo difficult

WINTERFEST is gonna be AWESOME this year...so that's why i'm plugging it now...there's gonna be sooo many activities! and we're doing it with VIC, UC AND TRIN...so it'll be tons of fun...not like last year...the hell was that?!?!?! we're gonna go skiing up at blue mountain...and have snowball/ice cream ball fights (that's if there's no snow) and build snowmen...and go tobagganing at riverdale...and have hockey games....and have a GREAT time...i'm soooo excited!

hey guys...i know i know...and i'm really really sorry that i haven't blogged in awhile...i've been a very busy busy girl.

what's that? november 23rd? whoa it's been awhile.

i went to lunch with georges today. yay. and yeh...what's up with that? why did you eat before? ugh...i really don't know what goes on inside boys heads...really...you couldn't wait an HOUR before i got off work?!?!?! blah. but whatever, we had a good lunch cuz HE paid for it! hahaha! it's about time, especially all the other times i paid! and then georges ordered sake wine, and i said i was fine with that except that i forgot that i really don't like sake wine...oops...my bad...

i can't believe i actually have time to blog...wow...it's sooo weird, i keep thinking that i really shouldn't be blogging, and must be doing something else...but nah...i have PLENTY of time to study before my ONLY EXAM on dec 18! but the last 2 wks have been full of busyness...including writing a really intense paper for my poli sci class which i really really hope i did well on cuz i spent soooooo much time because i really don't know much about philosophy and i often spend more time on this class then in my other classes, which is really in a sense, retarded because poli sci is my elective and everything else is for my major and minors...man...

and yeh...i've been studying for my ant test and stuff...and guess what?!?!?! i'm kicking skeletal ass like crazy! it's sooo much fun! so now that i'm off on a high, i'm gonna be so psyched about kicking some plant roots!!! heh heh! kelly library is my first home, and the place where i go to sleep at nite is my second home. and i'm not the only one with so much work to do...marko's been crazy busy studying for his engineer exams...and georges been going nuts with his soc and calc tests...plus his computers assignment and philosophy paper...and he has an exam tomorrow that he hasn't even begun studying for...oh no...he's been out getting a crazy short haircut (which i was there for) and man is it short! as a certain person on his floor said "it looks like he'd been in a fight with a weed wacker and lost badly" ...ahahahahaaaaaa! really...it's not that bad...

oh man...went to "rowers" last nite for our SMCSU social...and it was soooo much fun! almost everyone came and went sometime in the evening...we had like 5 tables put together and chowed on an unspecified amount of wings and fries and nachos...wongie loved the little presents that i'd been buying for her throughout the week (cuz i was her kk)...i bought her the advent calendar chocolates for monday, a slinky for tuesday, mexican jumping beans for wednesday, a rita bender for thursday, and because i wasn't downtown friday, i included a cute little beaded bracelet in thursday's present as well! and then i bought her the norah jones cd that she absolutely loved!
my kk was awesome too! thanks to melissa for buying me that sunshine carebear! i love it sooo much! i was so shocked and happy when i got it! who knew that someone actually reads those smcsu commission bios?!?!?! all i had for favorite cartoon as a kid was: "carebear countdown stare!" and then i get the most adorable little stuffed bear....of course i also got a bottle of baileys as well...heehee...someone's gonna have some good nites with coffee...

went to a basketball game to watch the Raptors play the Sixers at the ACC the 24th of november...and we lost horribly...that was quite disgusting to watch...i was throughly disgusted with their playing skills...next to allan iverson they looked like robots gone horribly wrong...WHATEVER...i had a good time with the guys and lauren tho...pat wouldn't stop blowing lauren's big horn...and he had some blue pom poms stuck in the back of his hat...so it looked like he had blue hair!

hmm...what else? uh...smcsu's been through some rough times...but everything is in the process of being sorted out...to the expense of some really early early mtgs during the busiest times of our lives...and jacob had a sale on underwear...5 pairs for $12!!! lisa and i went...and paul and ray came along...hahahahaa....we had to drag paul...and poor ray just had really bad timing and we ran into him while we were on our way...and dragged him too! but good times!

so...i'm so tired now...what with all my time spent on studying at the library, and working, and doing stuff for smcsu, and spending time with my boys...that's all for now...maybe i'll blog later if i think of some more exciting things that's happened.

you know it's gotten pretty bad when i don't post in color or lyrics anymore...

my botany textbook is doing a hell of a lota good sitting in my locker at the AC...when i have a lab monday afternoon...shit
oh well...i guess i'll just be studying anthro this weekend. FINE. i'm gonna kick some skeletal butt anyway...poli sci paper? oh no...that won't be touched till wednesday...luckily i got an extension on that paper...otherwise i'd sit down and cry.

the house dinner for the sorbora rez guys was fun! i know i know...THEY don't make a big deal about it...after all, for them it's just a bunch of guys getting together for house photos and eating food that could possibly be better then what they usually eat in the canada room...but REALLY...i'm just a girl that wanted to dress up and look pretty! after all, the rez formal didn't happen this year, so my outfit was sitting in the closet just BEGGING to be worn...and what better then to this little shindig with marko? ;p

my camera is officially retarded...i've been having issues with it since queens. first it died on me in the middle of us getting drunk at charysse's house...cuz the battery died...fine...i go home and put in a fresh new battery...but oh no...it doesn't end there...it decides that the camera is EMPTY...empty?!?!?! it's NOT! i still have a full 10 pics left to take...and it won't take pictures! so i couldn't take any pics from the dinner...boo...and now there's a game tomorrow that i want to take pics at...but oh no...i can't...cuz my camera's being stupid...ARGH!

ames has gone to kate's cuz it's her b-day...come to think about it...it's rob's b-day today! HAPPY B-DAY ROBERT! so i only found out about this on thursday cuz i ran into adele and she told me...hahaha...i gotta call him! mom and dad have gone to a bridge party...this is perfect timing for me to go out for coffee with lisa..but oh wait...i don't drink coffee or tea anymore...damn stupid bet...i should have made it 3 wks or something...what do you drink in cold weather like this other then tea or coffee?!?!?! that's right....NOTHING...man...that sucks majorly.

so karina, faye and i have decided that we're gonna help tanaka write a book on how to drive a broken down car the size of a boat:
- if the key breaks in the ignition, use a screwdriver that you keep in the glove compartment to turn on/off the car
- if the sideview mirror is broken on the passenger side, get your friend to stick her head out the window and give instructions
- if the back, right axle wheel is broken, just make wide wide turns...and don't do back ups
- if the windshield has two humongous cracks like an "X", just let it be
episodes in tanaka's car! ;p

queen's was amazing...it was good times the whole weekend...except for some pretty shameful episodes...but that's all part of the fun of being away and chilling with friends...in their HOUSES! we're totally doing a kris kringle this year...and i don't care who it is...but i want the woodstock underwear collection from "three" AND the lucy liu glasses from "willy"

eeeeeeeee! i'm soo excited! tomorrow at this time, i'll be at QUEENS! chillaxing with faye, tanaka and possibly charysse! we'll be completely updating each other's lives and pigging out on god knows what! the who, what, where, when and hows will be discussed to the bare minimum and everything will be good! ahhhhh! good times!

so i have these mini bruises on my arms and hands cuz i had my ass whooped in the ticklefest with ray and georges...no fair! two guys and one little girl! and then an awesome dinner at exotic tandoori (i know...sounds like a strip club) with the guys...INDIAN FOOD! nice! i'm not a big fan of spicy food tho...whatever

did i mention that i'm really excited about tomorrow? hahahahahaaaa!

i feel like i'm wearing one of those multi-faced masks...
the happy mask is used to impress ppl, to keep up an image of a happy bubbly girl who has no worries and is perpetually care free...
the sad mask (otherwise known as the what's-on-your-mind mask) is usually most identifiable through my closest friends and only they have the privilege to knowing what's wrong...oh wait...i have no problems...
the angry mask is only shown at home...or if something is really REALLY bothering me...otherwise, yeh...home...ames can vouch for that...
the crying mask is NEVER shown...i have this problem where i don't really express what i'm feeling...especially by crying...i find it very disadvantageous...as it's a sign of weakness...the only ppl who've seen me cry (off the top of my head) are probably the ppl that had to help me out last year in march...but other then that...don't speak of this to me

so mom's pissed me off majorly today...oops...did i say just today? i meant this whole week...she's been on my case about EVERYTHING...and i really don't need this...not now...too bad she's mom...i can't get mad at her...it's just not happening...

other then that...i had a pretty good day. had breakfast at the mike cubes (mike jaques, mike allemano, and mike skarz) apartment with lisa and flo this morning...skarz made an awesome meal of omlettes, sausages and bagels...with JUICE! i've made a bet with lisa (with flo and skarz as witnesses) that i can DEFINITELY go an entire month of no coffee or tea...and i don't care what anyone thinks...but i'm not losing this bet because i'm NOT addicted to coffee...NO...don't even say it OR think it!

i think i gave georges the cold...he wasn't feeling too hot today...but he was a trooper and went off to calc class so that afterwards we had lunch (soup) at jakas and then napped for an hour afterwards...went shopping for vitamin c (to stop scurvy!) and other edible food for georges fridge which consists of water and vodka (nice diet, eh?) and then went back after a grueling poli sci lecture...for a movie nite of "something about mary" most of the guys. good times!

oh did i mention that my mom thinks i don't study? for her information...i do...i studied in mike^3's solarium for an hour and a half, reading aristotle's POLITICS and such...today is my "fun day!" so don't bother me! ;p

what's going on?!?!? is babipiggie going to cardinal carter? wow! that's COOL! girl, you gotta send me an email or something to update me on what's going on! oops! i guess that's what the blogger's for! ahahahahaaaa!

so, i have a huge announcement to make ppl....I'M SOOOOO SCREWED FOR MY MIDTERM TOMORROW!
that's all...yup...unless i actually get off my ass and actually open the book. i think i'll have a muffin...so i thought i lost one of my new square earrings i bought on thursday...but i DIDN'T! yay!

i sit and muse with myself alot, and i would periodically have bursts of laughter or sobbing...prolly cuz i'm thinking of my soap operatic life...the complicated day-to-day basis of trying to solve a difficult algorithm that seems to be in stalemate. there is much unspoken tension within my large group of friends, it's quite difficult to watch from the sidelines as we're all so close to each other...if something hurts one of us, it reciprocates and hurts ALL OF US. in a sense, this may be good, as it shows how tight and close a group we are...in another, it might be holding us back from better things...better to take it as it comes.

so my cough doesn't seem to be getting any better...it's continuous hacking and wheezing...and nose blowing and grossness...ugh...i suppose it doesn't help that i don't seem to be sleeping anymore, or that i'm out all the time...drinking coffee when i should be sleeping! ;p my kids weren't helpful at all...no one seems to bother practicing anymore, and then they wonder why i won't give them new pieces to practice on, or their parents would come and bother me about why i'm not sending them into an exam or something! hello?!?!?! i'm a piano TEACHER....not a piano PRACTICER! i'm there to teach new things, not to do their homework for them...and all this while i can't speak...it's great...it got to the point where steve noticed that i was laughing at his jokes...so he KNEW i was feeling crudy...ahahaaa...got my second wind last nite after coffee with lis...and then i finally puttered out at 2am with my bro...he always calms me down and makes me feel better...and to a certain degree...puts me to sleep! j/j!

i've got some pics of me, ray and mu from halloween...courtesy of georges...thanx man...they're on my website...YOU go find it...i'm too lazy to make a link to that page...mwahahahahahaaaaa...

so the OUR LADY PEACE concert was WICKED last nite! it totally rocks for a first time concert goer, like me...raine has the most AMAZING voice! it's sooooo pretty! even when he speaks, it's so musical and seductive...wow...i'm in love with his voice! fun times! see ames' blog for a more detailed description of the nite's events...i just had alot of fun with faye! i haven't seen her in THE LONGEST TIME! not since her birthday in september! i almost didn't recognize faye...your hair's grown! wow!

so i pigged out on fries and a veggie pizza slice...and...COFFEE!!!

did i not say us gogo girls would rule the nite? that's right, thank you very much...i do believe we had THE BEST costumes there...

too many playboy bunnies...wayyyy overrated...and alot of guys who didn't have the money to buy costumes so wrapped themselves up in toilet paper! a lot of monks, deans in army fatigues...looked sooo cute! like a boy scout! , mike as the pimp daddy! and lotsa girls as cheerleaders and school girls! and it was really great seeing mike kwadrans and megan st. john, ppl that graduated last year! i heard al was there with his girlfriend! i'd liked to have seen him again!

the poor bus driver! i feel bad for the guy...so he was driving the first bus with many of us eagerly waiting to get to the party...and made a right turn that wasn't wide enuf...and side scrapped a cab, who's ass was sticking out of the intersection...and then he started freaking out and apologizing and everything...but everyone was totally cool about it...we just waited for another bus to pick us up and off we go again!

all in all...a very successful and entertaining nite! i'd especially like to thank kirsten for making our dresses and the other girls for making US work! those boys had no chance! ahahahaaaa!

wow! and i haven't blogged in a pretty long time...

so my nose is stuffed up, yet it's like a faucet that isn't turned off properly and keeps on dripping...and it's driving me INSANE! i just want to chop off my nose, turn it upside down, stick it UNDER the sink tap, and CLEAN IT! REALLY!!! ugh....it's ALMOST as bad as when i get one of those headaches where i want to cut my head off, stick it in a plastic bag...and throw it in the dumpster....

dress episode: (soap #928365)
so kirsten's sewing my halloween costume, and it's quite form fitting...i now know that my bustline is CLEARLY larger then my waistline..*whew!* and unfortunately, the way my costume is made, i must put the whole thing over my head...and it includes going PAST the waist...and that's where we get ME....stuck with my arms waving around in the air...oh wait...did i say waving? that's wrong...i was just....stuck...i couldn't even move my arms if i wanted to...and then i had to get it off...but did i mention? it was STUCK...so kirsten had to pull it off my head...fortunately she lives in a girl's rez and is quite used to seeing ppl half-naked...

yes...i DID see georges pink heart boxers...quite by accident...but COME ON! didn't you look soooo cute?!?!?!? ;p *giggles*

and yes...we did have fun at dim sum...it was quite scary, considering he was completely relying on ME to converse in cantonese/mandarin with the serving cart ppl...but luckily, he eats frogs legs! ahahahaha!

note to self:
so the next time you're home alone with grandma, and she starts SHAKING like a leaf...go open a can of coke (not DIET coke) and give her some to drink...she's most likely not got enuf sugar in her system...and while i'm doing that...DON'T FREAK!

not that i did or anything...but it's quite traumatizing to see grandma shaking like her time has come or something...luckily mom and dad were home too...tho we didn't know what to do till aunty anne came over and made everything all better!

still...to a certain degree, this is quite a wake-up call...the fact that i LIVE with my grandmother yet i don't seem to see her, EVER. not that i've been doing that on purpose, i haven't...but i'm outta the house by 7am (or earlier) and by the time i come home at nite (10ish pm) she's in her room watching her chinese soaps or in bed...but the point is, she's not exactly a spring chicken anymore, and she won't be around forever, so i must make the most of the time i have left with her.

ames owes me big time...
i buy her a cd, i lend her my scarf and gloves (ok...so eugenia was using them...but she's YOUR friend), i stand in line with her for an hour, i'm GOING to the concert with her....you NEED ME!...oh...and i THOUGHT i had a cold...but now i KNOW that i've got one...

so what do i want? oh yes...everything...mwahahahahahaaaaa...ok...i realize now that that was NOT funnie

wow! good times tonite!
we went to see "hollywood bollywood" at the bloor cinemas and we saw the actress who played "twinky" and marko went and got her autograph...then mu took us to this indian place next door where georges bought me some pita bread which was really good...but the BACLAVA which was even BETTER!!! wow! it's better then making out with someone!

so i've been EXTREMELY busy these past few weeks...and everyone's stressing...georges called right after my piano lesson today and we went to the UC quad and sat outside for an hour before my poli sci lecture...it's soooo beautiful and peaceful there! like something out of a movie...like the secret garden...wow...and we just talked and relaxed...and the sun was shining and we were watching a squirrel jump into a garbage can and the hybid pigeons walking around with their multi-colored wings!

i'm feeling good!

i miss my life-sci friends...i ran into mimi today...her hair looks awesome! i felt so bad that i was rushing off to class, but i was...i never see ava anymore...we were sooooo tight last year...we had mostly the same classes, and i'd pick her up at her st. george apartment in the morning and we'd walk to class together...she helped me start working out and think more about my health...i see robert and winsion and adele at the library sometimes, but it's rare...we're soooo busy...christian, edward and jay are in my botany class but i feel as if i don't have any classes with them...GABS! where are you? i'm so scared that i might pass you on the street but not know it...even worse...NOT passing you on the street...i remember you used my ID card all the time...we looked alike! john, tom, dominic, mark pahuta and nasser...we used to study in those private rooms at kelly on the 2nd floor...that was sooo funny that i found you guys there two weeks ago! some habits die hard! remember robarts 5th floor? "studying"? i don't think so..."rob...i know NOTHING for this exam! teach me EVERYTHING in TWO HOURS! GO!!!" ahahahaa...and then i wondered why everyone did well, cept for me...except that jay knows to come ask me questions these days...

karina almost made me cry today...she brought up the three of us chilling with tanaka in the student council...we had like 5 spares a day, and we spent soooo much time in there that valarie kept getting mad at us and saying "guys...we have a mtg...and you're not part of council...so you gotta go" bitch...and then we'd go chill in our dingy cafeteria with awesome chocolate chip cookies, cinnamon buns and french fries...when i used to eat so much more and NOT workout...thanx for the recap, fool! (you know who you are)

and satchmo! tanaka trying to call maureen but she wouldn't answer her name till she called satchmo and that's her nickname whether she likes it or not...best friends from day 1 of gr. 9...till the end...i can't wait till we go up to queens...maija who i haven't seen since commencement last august, tanaka i haven't seen since we last went shopping at yorkdale....summer?!?!?! faye since her birthday at movenpick (even when we went to pick up her camera at her house in the middle of the night....AND i remembered where she lived even tho i'd only been to her place ONCE!) and karina?!?!? frosh week?!?!?!

karen lam...we're supposed to meet up and study saturday afternoons...but i'm quickly coming to this revelation that it's NOT happening...you're WAY too busy with forensics, and i'm WAY too busy period. i think i need to cry...but i have no tears...i want to talk to someone...but who's the right person? i'm finding it much too difficult to keep up with life right now...it's going much too fast...i'm falling behind...someone catch me please...

THE "QUARTER-LIFE CRISIS"

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn`t know and may not like.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren`t exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.

You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you cry and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

The stupid ones plateau, the smart ones rise. You get your heartbroken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can`t meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it and we are all in this together. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

We are friends, and in 10 years we will be friends who have figured out where we fit in in this world. If people expect sincerity from others, they should be sincere, otherwise do not expect anything at all. Having heart to heart conversations is being real. Wish you and myself all the best of luck. Put unhappiness aside and go with the flow..*

"Your love is like a river
peaceful and deep
your soul is like a secret
That I could never keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent
A little more time
On you"

NSYNC

so how was my day?

it started off with flo being late mtg up with me...flo man...i had a MIDTERM to be studying for!
and then we got coffee at timmy ho's (cuz coffee is an ESSENTIAL morning element to make my day work!) AND then as i was washing out my coffee cup in the women's washroom in brennan hall, i saw the LARGEST CENTIPEDE in my life....it was the size of half my hand...with the longest legs ever....i got outta there in no time!

then i'm at the library in my own little botany world of kindom chromista's and rhodyphyta's...when FELIX had the audacity to give me a freaking heart attack! he forgot that i was wearing earplugs and thought i heard him coming....obviously NOT! and EVEN THEN...he continues to make rackets...hello?!?!? is it me or is a library a place for quiet? maybe it IS me...either way...fe and his friend were playing italian cards and i was just ITCHING to grab his neck to find his larynx and PULL IT OUT! ugh....

so i was supposed to meet jay at 1pm at the hanger...and in my messed up head, i thought it was 1pm so i left to meet jay....to realize that it was only 12pm...can you imagine? the tizzy fe puts me in! *sigh*

and then that whole thing where i was the first person done the midterm in just under 40mins...so either
a) i was NOT prepared
or
b) maybe i was
but then...there's also
c) it's freaking multiple choice

meh...whatever...we'll see

and then i'm working out at the AC and i run (literally) into reza...who's also just started running...and we run for like a full 50mins...man...my thigh muscles are killing me....

and now i'm hungry...

"It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of
It's in the way we make love "

Shania Twain

i love popo's and gong gong's they always give red pocket money whenever they come...it doesn't matter that it's not your birthday, or christmas, or chinese new year...they give it cuz they haven't seen you in such a long time...and even if they HAVE seen you...same deal! mwahahahaaa! so now i have extra money for MORE clothes! teehee! hmmm...maybe i should save some of this money for something better...like...maybe a new PHONE! (you know...cuz i like to kill my old one) or....maybe a little car...yeh...a car would be good...but i really don't think the $50 i got will make the cut...ahahahaaaa!

this botany will kill me....i'm stupid...i make such a huge deal over this ONE test...hmmm...maybe it's the first one?!?!? just maybe...cuz afterall, this will show me if i'm not studying enuf or if i'm doing ok...well...not reallly....but still...my summer classes really helped me with my studying skills and i'm soooo scared that they'll go down the drain now that i have so many more "distractions"...

BUT....i'm meeting up with jay to go over the botany exam...cuz our prof is all smart and gives up the answers...blah

ok...you know i HAVEN'T been studying when i tell you i've watched "ghost" tonite, "footloose" and "gilmore girls"....well the gilmore girls doesn't count cuz i was working out during that time...but STILL...now i gotta go!

i'm tired but i must continue on like a trooper and study for that damned botany midterm on monday...check out the communal blog for georges screaming face...that was the highlight of my day...ahahahahahahaaaaaaaaa

;p

so i was coming home from "the foxes den" with georges, marko, v something (i can't spell his name) and r something (can't spell his either) and i was going to the yonge and bloor station...when i passed the yonge and bloor intersection...there were ambulances and fire trucks and police all over the place...and me being the curious kitty that i am, asked a passerby what was going on...so apparently an advertising truck clipped the edge of a crane that was on the north west corner of yonge and bloor...and the crane tipped over onto a building that was in the middle of construction...and there were hurt ppl ON the building...and even tho i didn't exactly WITNESS it...it looked pretty bad...and plus...i could hear the ppl on the building and it didn't sound very good...in a sense...it was kinda traumatizing...i spent my time on the subway reading plato's "republic" to take my mind off that event...

AND btw...on the subway...freakiest couple...i think they were both women...or a really ugly man...making out with another lady...man...i concentrated sooo hard on the book i was reading...it was freaky...wow...now i know why i wake up so freaking early in the morning to hitch car rides with lisa....cuz i really don't miss the sardines in the cans and the freakshows...

georges gene formula just wasn't programmed to study in the library...i hauled his ass there tonite...i was like...i promise if we study for an hour, we'll go out afterwards...and i went and studied...i had my earplugs in...i had my cue cards out...i had my lecture notes in front of me...and my huge ass textbook...and i was in my own little world...and totally assuming that georges' reading his philosophy textbook...and then i take a side glance and realize he's sprawled on the table sleeping...ahahahaaa....i didn't have the heart to hit him on the head and make him study...good luck in philosophy! ;p

i wonder if marko will ever grace "the foxes den" ever again...so he's having a deep business conversation with one of the guys...but he wanted to order something from the menu...and so i flagged down a waitress but i didn't want to interrupt the conversation and i tell the waitress so...she's like "what's his name?" and i'm like "marko"...and she goes "MARKO" (with the accent and the rolling of the tongue on the 'r') and marko's head whips round to see who called him cuz apparently she sounded just like his mom when she was mad...and we all started laughing...there's actually more to it...but i can't really remember so i won't even try and make anymore of it sound funnie...so that's the end of that...

our communal blog is pretty fun...i realize now what a nerd i am...always blogging...have i no life? yep...well...maybe i just don't want to study...that could be it...but i DO...yehhhhh....

so can you say crazy week?!?!? or rather...crazy day...i was up at 6am yesterday morning because missy kirsten randomly decided that we'd have a council mtg at 8am....hello?!?!? EIGHT O'CLOCK in the MORNING!?!?!?!? yesh...so lil me mosied my way downtown, had my mtg...had a HUGE cup of tea...office hrs at 10am...class and studying and class and class and class....ugh...ooooh...and dinner with georges and car ride home lisa...

and my botany lecture was HILARIOUS! the prof was lecturing about fungal diseases and mentioned ringworms...and he said that he once contacted that disease on his leg from a locker room and then he tried to grow the fungus from his leg in a petri dish...and then tried to cultivate it on his other leg...and only stopped when his wife wouldn't sleep in bed with him anymore! thanks prof! i really needed to know that! and THEN he went on about ringworms on the groin and i was sooo scared that he'd say he got some sorta ringworm disease on his groin and tried to cultivate THAT!

This is from georges.... hi. And now back to miau...

hahaha...so we've started a new blog...it's a team thingy with me, georges and flo so far... you can check it out here we're just silly ppl with WAY too much time on our hands!

anyhoo...so our neighbours have been robbed and i didn't witness it...so that's not good...meh...i'm tired...and i gotta get up early tomorrow to hitch a car ride with lisa...so....SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP...giggles...tho...on a side note...i did get sleep in georges bed while he was in class today...yay! i'm still tired tho...hahahahahahaaa

i love you flo! ok...that's because if it wasn't for her and her family eating at vinnie zucchini's i'd have NOT gone out today...and i really really needed to get out of the house! i love the cold crisp air and the crunchy leaves...when you have a really warm scarf, gloves and hat...otherwise it's not fun...but I DID! so ames and i picked up flo, her bro tony, and her cuz bess from vinnie's and trekked to timmy ho's where it was completely insane! anyone who knows flo...knows how she is....CRAZY!!!! ...now....times that by 3...and you get...whoa! now i know why flo is soooooo nutty! it runs in the family!

i've slept the entire afternoon away! dad has his childhood best friend's from HK over playing MJ, so i've been sleeping, watching tv, and surfing the net....whoa...how long has it been since i've done THAT?!?!?! gala pics are up! thanx to my aunt eva who brought her pics over and i've scanned them in and they are now on my website here

so ames went and chopped off all her hair too! i went with her to the hairdresser's yesterday and watched them painstakingly cut off all her hair...it's now in a short ASYMMETRICAL bob...she gets all her short hairdo's from charisma carpenter (angel) and because my sister has such a nice thin face, they totally work on her...i hate her...she looks GREAT with that look! *sigh* just watching them cut and style her hair made me want to do that too...except for the fact that i DON'T have the face structure...hahahaaa...however, she's now afraid that ppl will go up to her and tell her that they didn't cut her hair straight! ;p no worries ames! you're just a fashion trend setter!

grace and juju came over for dinner...we had a nice turkey that ames wouldn't eat cuz she heard on the mojo radio that all turkey's have maggots in them...silly girl...gave up an awesome dinner! uncle stephen took us to timmy ho's (oh..wait...he didn't us on a whim...grace had to beg him and sell him her soul) and only grace and i actually bought anything...you see...juju's on some odd diet or something cuz she has to be at a wedding nov 1 and wants to look thin (not that she isn't thin already) and so she's not really eating much...but get this...my silly cuz has a packet of mickey d's sugar in her purse...which she takes out and proceeds to EAT...*sigh*...some ppl are alcoholics and/or snort cocaine...my cousin eats sugar...geez

what an unproductive long weekend...i must admit that i've done absolutely...NOTHING...that's right...i haven't studied or done any hw...(tho...i did DO all my hw the day i spent at kelly...so that's good) ...i've slept more then my share and now i don't think i'll be needing to sleep tonite...and i've watched alot of tv...wow! did i mention that i can't study at home? hmmm...i wonder why...maybe...too many distractions?!?!?!

good times! ruth and alice organized a surprise anniversary dinner for their parents...and invited the WHOLE FAMILY...and i mean the WHOLE FAMILY...all of my dad's 4 sisters and 3 brothers (tho...1 lives in HK so that doesn't count) but it was really nice of them. i mean...with all the fucked up inner turmoil...we had a nice dinner with no deaths in the family....alexandra looks GREAT! she's growing up so fast...it's amazing how different everyone looks when you don't see them very often...but we've promised each other that i will take her out to breakfast at timmy ho's one day...reina and erica are just shooting up like weeds, they're soooo cute! and LUKE! wow...luke is WAY cuter in person! he's got the biggest eyes in the world! they just see everything...and drools like the devil! ;p tho...i must admit that i'm worried about that bald spot that's at the back of his head...he should get that fixed before he actually grows up...i'm totally predicting him to be a total hottie when he's older...girls! WATCH OUT! ;p

auntie gen, hwang and ron are just amazing...i really miss their cottage...we used to go up in the summer and the winter and it would be just us cousins and them and we'd chill and relax for a couple days with no parents bugging us...i really really miss those days...cross country skiing, chasing woodpeckers, picking berries on the side of the road, catching toads, going canoing in the morning with the mist and loons....SWIMMING!

"Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Think it over
Think it over"

The Supremes

i'm tired tho...been up since 8am to get to work at 9:45am...it's been a crazy day filled with holes as student's parents decided that they'd rather be with family this weekend...leaving me with gaps the size of texas...i've cut my hair...and no...i didn't cut it ALL off...i still have hair...so flo...no worries...tho...i miss it already...even tho it was like 8 inches of split ends...that i have no more...but i'm thinking of buying that vitamin thingy that hair dresser dude sprayed in my hair...it's called fusion or something...and if ames goes tomorrow, i'll get dad to buy it...hahahaaaa...did i mention that i was at the hair dresser's for 2 hrs?!?!? something about my hair being thick and long...and the time it took to blow dry it...hahahaaaa...classic...

EXCUSE ME...i DO NOT...look like ELVIRA....

you are drunk if you:
laugh your ass off at anything and everything
try to lie on the grass and look up at the stars that you can't see
try to roll off a bed for fun
can't breathe, hence needing to suck up air from the window like a maniac
try to drink vodka thinking it's water
throw your phone HARD against the concrete wall
run thru the corridor running into the wall in order to get to the bathroom
making your guy friend stand in a corner of the hallway so that you can GO to the bathroom
running DOWN the stairwell at break neck speed in HEELS
letting friends run around the dark looking for you while you sit on a bench WATCHING them look for you
break down emotionally and telling your life story to the friends that have FINALLY found you

hmmm...i wonder who i'm describing...hahahaa!

on a side note:
HAPPY B-DAY AND CONGRATS LISA!!!!
lisa had the most number of votes for the council election...amazing! i'm so proud of you!
so we went out last nite to celebrate her birthday and victory...8 of us at gabby's...7 girls and one guy...georges! hahaha! we had a GREAT time...considering i spent most of the time preoccupied...and lisa LOVED her b-day present...a digital camera! she was really MAD at first...cuz she didn't need us to this...but we wanted to...you know we luv ya!

"Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes it's all a big surprise

Cause there was a time when all I did was wish
You'd tell me this was love
It's not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow it's enough

But now we're standing face to face
Isn't this world a crazy place?
Just when I thought a chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
You wondered how you'd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you

Cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me
Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see

But now we're standing face to face
Isn't this world a crazy place
Just when I thought a chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

Sometimes the very thing you're looking for
Is the one thing you can't see

Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
Just when I thought a chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

You went and saved the best for last"

Vanessa Williams

i hope everyone has a good thanksgiving...i know it will be AWESOME to wake up later then 9am and partying with my girls and family! and yay shopping!

ohohoh! so i've read 100 pgs of plato's Republic and i still have 112 more pgs to go! UGH! can you imagine? spend the whole day at the library reading plato and that's how far i get? ok...so i lied...i didn't REALLY spend the whole day at kelly...only the morning and an hour in the afternoon...the rest of the day was a time warp...working out at the AC and chilling at smcsu was also part of my diet....HEY! georges got me cookies 'n cream ice cream! thanx! yum!

my 2 hr nite lecture was quite brutal...my professor is soooo attention deficit that i could prolly get up and teach that course if i really really wanted to....(well...i'd also have to get paid for it too) there's the cutest guy in my class, named ben...and last week he did this foot rubbing on my arm...which was REALLY nice...except for the part that he's gay...that's also prolly why i LET him do the foot rubbing in the first place...HELLO??!!!?! would i be nutty enuf to let ANYONE do that? I THINK NOT!

so i ran into andrew today (he's the editor for "the mike") and we went back to elmsley so i could view the pics from the gala...wow it was good! he emailed me some pics and they're great...too bad i'm too lazy to post them up...hahahaaaa...ok...shutting up now...

is it just me or is toronto weather really really messed up? it's sooooo freezing cold outside...but i have the urge to strip indoors...so i wear tank tops and 5 outerlayers...booooo...and then i wonder why my bag is always full...hahahaha

the rest of my week looks soooo scary...it's completely crammed full of busyness...i really want to talk to a certain person...but i cannot because this person is always very busy...i am always busy...and we can never really get time to ourselves...oh well...i guess i can wait...who says virgo's are impatient? ;p well...off to lala land...and timmy ho's is my first stop tomorrow morning! yay!

i'm sooooo proud of myself! i went shopping at fairview mall today...and i spent no money! hahahaaa...of course...MOM was there...so i did get some clothes! mwahahahaaaa! she's taking me to orfus rd, and the jacob outlet store at first markham place next week...i'm so excited about that!

"I don't wanna understand this horror
There's a weight in your eyes, I can't admit
Everybody ends up here in bottles
But the nametags the last thing you wanted

As the world explodes we fall out of it
And we can't let go because this
Will not go away
There's a house built out in space

I can't see that thief that lives inside of your head
But I can be some courage at the side of your bed
And I don't know what's happening and I can't pretend
But I can be your, be your

Someone help us understand who ordered
This disgusting arrangement with time and the end
I don't wanna hear who walked on water
Because the hallways are empty, clock ticks

As the world explodes we falling to it
And we can't go on because this
Will not go away
There's a house built out in space

I can't see that thief that lives inside of your head
But I can be some courage at the side of your bed
And I don't know what's happening and I can't pretend
It's a long, long get away
It's a long, long get away
Make it home again
Make it home again
It's a long, long get away
It's a long, long get away"

Our Lady Peace

dad bought me a new watch. it's exactly the same as my old one...but it's newer...hahahahaaaa...and it's got these little dangly things on the side of the watch that make it sooo girly. i love it!

i've decided that i will not be curling at the bayview country club this winter....it's a fun sport and all...but i don't really like going to a place where it's dominanted by white snotty ppl...they don't necessarily think they're better then me...they just act snotty...and i hate ppl like that...i always figured that they'd get nicer or something once they got to know me...but they don't really want to get to know anyone new...they're all in their own cliches...elementary school all over again...i don't need that kinda crap from 14yr olds...so i'm sorry grace, ju and moo....i won't be there this winter...i'd rather spend my sunday afternoon's sleeping, shopping, sleeping, maybe doing hw, oh..did i mention sleeping?

i haven't done anything really special or important this weekend...just worked friday nite and saturday...talked on the phone with georges for over 2 hrs...which is ALOT...watched "dr. doolittle 2", went shopping...oooooh...and talked to my brother, carl...the good thing tho, is that my hw is all done! now it's just studying and making notes....except for "REPUBLIC"...that book is BRUTAL! *sigh* off to reading i go!

so apparently because i'm a polling clerk at kelly library october 9th, i can't promote
LISA AND JOE FOR SMCSU!!! anymore...oops...so i guess you'll have to check out my italian sista's website for that kinda promotion...

whew! i'm glad i'm done with the mad thing...tho i wasn't the mad person...i was the madeee...the person being mad at...does that make sense?!?! anyway...mom and dad got mad...but they're ok now...i guess they have a reason to be mad...remember that whole thing about buying out all of 'gap' and 'jacob'? yeh well...i spent like $130 there today for some awesome new clothing! i literally walked into jacob, found a BEAUTIFUL pair of black pants...and walked out of the store wearing them!!! ;p call me nutty...but that's what i do! yeh...unfortunately, i had to take them off so they could take the security tag off them...too bad they couldn't just take it off my ass....oops!

had an AWESOME dinner today! there were 8 of us at 'spring rolls on yonge'...including lisa, gabe, lauren, kirsten, georges, mo and john...wow the food was good and the company was great! but i won't be doing this often cuz i'd be broke...boo....not good...

"If I had a $1000000
(If I had a $1000000)
I'd buy you a house
(I would buy you a house)
If I had a $1000000
(If I had a $1000000)
I'd buy you furniture for your house
(Maybe a nice chesterfield or an ottoman)
And if I had a $1000000
(If I had a $1000000)
I'd buy you a K-Car
(A nice Reliant automobile)
If I had $1000000 I'd buy your love.

If I had a $1000000
I'd build a tree fort in our yard
If I had $1000000
You could help, it wouldn't be that hard
If I had $1000000
Maybe we could put like a little tiny fridge in there somewhere
You know, we could just go up there and hang out
Like open the fridge and stuff
There would be already laid out foods for us
Like little pre-wrapped sausages and things

If I had $1000000
(If I had $1000000)
I'd buy you a fur coat
(But not a real fur coat that's cruel)
And if I had $1000000
(If I had a $1000000)
I'd buy you an exotic pet
(Like a llama or an emu)
And if I had $1000000
(If I had a $1000000)
I'd buy you John Merrick's remains
(All them crazy elephant bones)
And If I had $1000000 I'd buy your love.

If I had a $1000000
We wouldn't have to walk to the store
If I had a $1000000
We'd take a limousine 'cause it costs more.
If I had a $1000000
We wouldn't have to eat Kraft Dinner
But we would eat Kraft Dinner
Of course we would, we’d just eat more
And buy really expensive ketchups with it
That’s right, all the fanciest dijon ketchups
Mmmmmm

If I had $1000000
(If I had $1000000)
I'd buy you a green dress
(But not a real green dress, that's cruel)
And if I had $1000000
(If I had $1000000)
I'd buy you some art
(A Picasso or a Garfunkel)
If I had $1000000
(If I had $1000000)
I'd buy you a monkey
(Haven't you always wanted a monkey?)

If I had $1000000
I’d buy your love

If I had $1000000, If I had $1000000
If I had $1000000, If I had $1000000
I'd be rich"

Barenaked Ladies

so lisa and i were bopping along to this song this morning in the car...i think it's a great idea to compile a bunch of car songs! so far, they'll be including this song and avril's 'complicated' hahahahaaaaaa!!

VOTE LISA AND JOE FOR SMCSU!!!!!
i'm really tired so i'll just mosey along with my account of happenings about and around st. mikes...i went swimming with gabe and lisa at gabe's apartment in the bay charles towers! that was fun! lisa wore a bikini...i frankly, don't have the guts to wear one, so i was in a two piece bathing suit...and i was damn proud of that too! now...i love lisa and gabe to death...but next time i go...i'd like company...rather then being the third wheel (even tho they tried soooo hard to make sure i DIDN'T feel left out!) but gabe, the sweetheart that he is...made me a "rubens" sandwich later on after our swim! thanx gabe! mwa!!!

did i mention that i'm now part of the italian club? that's right...who knew i was half italian?!?!? ;p and after they found out i'd joined, then john and georges went and joined...and then marko got all jealous and didn't want to be left out...and went and joined too! aren't i great at promoting things? massimo's all happy now! tho i can't say much about the kid he was supposed to tutor tonite!

i LOVE walking along bloor street at night...it's quite peaceful (not really quiet)...with few people crowding the sidewalks...i love window shopping...gap came out with their winter clothes...eeeeeeee!!! they're awesome! i wanted to walk into the store and buy out their whole collection..fortunately the stores were closed so i saved myself alot of money and grief...holt renfrew always has beautiful store displays, like the machimo stuff that's out right now...and zara...*sigh* zara always has the most exquisite clothes...too bad i'm not rich...i can only stand there and stare at the beautiful clothes in wonder and awe...and with i had money...AND the figure....

marko and i studied in georges room tonite...tho...georges wasn't there...what kind of host are you?!?!? but it's alright...i don't think he studies in the same atmosphere as i do...he likes listening to music and bops along to that...i can't take it....i need QUIET in order to concentrate....unfortunately...after being the energizer bunny all day, i was sooooo tired...i still managed to get some studying done...good times!

meh...alright...i've been fiddling around with brinkster and blogger...trying to figure out if i can put a picture up on blogger...and it hasn't been very helpful or cooperative...so you'll just have to go here to see my newest picture with georges. that's right...we had quite a bit of fun walking around the eaton centre looking for rollerblades and jogging shoes...and just general shopping...poor georges...i kept dragging him into all these clothing stores cuz i got sooo excited with the selections! hahahaaaa...but all in all...it was a good 2 hrs of pure relaxation and fun that i haven't really had in the past week or so...especially with all this smcsu stuff, lisa and joe campaigning...which by the way...

VOTE LISA AND JOE FOR SMCSU!!!!!!

i forgot my lab coat today for my botany lab...but that's alright...i paid $2 for a real ratty and dirty one! ;p and then spent 3 hrs playing around with mould...yay....and then went to meet jessie thomson, the UC prez...way to go girl power! and then finally...a 2 hr linguistic lecture, where i met this really cool, gay guy named ben...he just wouldn't SHUT UP in class...i was sitting infront of him trying to listen to our ADD professor and he's just be giggling away with his girls...when finally i told him during our 10 min break that he was really annoying and he burst into laughter! what a way to go...

last night was AMAZING...nonono...i didn't have sex...but i DID go to the SMC 150th GALA at the metro convention centre! ;p

everyone looked soooo GOOD!! and i'm in love with NICO! hahahahaaa...that boy can DANCE! he saved me 3 times last nite...my first dance was with this old fat man with white hair...his face was all red and he was sooooo plastered! but my radar missed him and he pulled me onto the dance floor, so i had no choice but to dance with him (thank GOD it wasn't a slow song)...nico and flo were dancing there already and i kept giving the "puh LEAZE help me" look...and nico and flo kept thinking "oh there's christina macking it up with the old rich folks"...until nico got the hint and smoothly cut in and saved me....and then the old dude danced with the rest of us girls...until he tried to pull some sorta backwards move and fell straight on his ASS...and then we pulled him up again and that's when he finally got off the dance floor and went back to his more then horrified wife...hahahahahaaaa!

the other two times that nico was there for me was when ian francke wanted to dance with me...he'd already pulled his move on kirsten and flo...so i knew that when he came over near me that he was gonna ask me...so i immediately moved over next to nico and started whispering to him...with ian staring at me...what was i whispering? "nico...just stay here and don't let ian come over here!" and everything was fine...except that after that slow song finished...another one came up and then it was "NICO!" and then i stole him away from kirsten, bronwyn, and jeanne....hahaha...we danced to i can't help falling in love with you...and then as we were spinning round...i caught a glimpse of ian dancing with...bronwyn! sorry! hahahahaha!

the mingling part was the best! i met john mccormack who played for the maple leafs in 1947 and then played for the canadiens later...he and his buddies were HILARIOUS! and then he gave out cards of him when he was younger! chatted up with principal mcgowen and his wife, irene...who were later seen leaving the gala with a bunch of beautiful centerpieces! ;p also had some great conversations with president alway, brian o'malley, mary ellen burns...fr. patrick invited smcsu over to the newman centre for dinner sometime...hahaha...soooo many ppl! there was the cutest little lady named evelyn in a cute pink suit who danced the night away with her husband...they were soooo cute!

oh! and before i forget....the dinner! that was some of the best food i've had in a LONG time...i ate sooo much! and the dessert was sooo good that i'd have loved to eaten the whole platter (except that i didn't)...i was pretty lucky in the table department as well. i was originally sitting in one of the edge tables (cuz we're not important) but unfortunately, sam sorbora died yesterday morning so his sons, edward and joseph sorbora didn't come and polish paul and i moved up into that table...where we chatted with some really nice and GOOD friends of edward sorbora....kissed rich ppl's asses...hahahahahaaaa!

all in all...i had an GREAT night...it's just too bad that i couldn't bring a date...i should have...no one was checking tickets and there were sooo many more empty seats...NEXT time i'll know what to do! ;p

"I wanna rock you baby, I wanna hold you baby
Won't you be my baby? I wanna be your lady
I wanna rock you baby, I wanna hold you baby
Won't you be my baby? I wanna be your lady
Baby let me rock with you (Gangsta gangsta)
You know I wanna rock with you (Gangsta gangsta)
Baby let me rock with you (E-V-E)
You know I wanna rock with you (Alicia Keys, gonna rock you)
Baby let me rock with you
You know I wanna rock with you (It's gangsta gangsta)
Baby let me rock with you (Gangsta gangsta)
You know I wanna rock with you (Gangsta gangsta love)
Ooooh, yeah, you know I wanna rock with you
Baby let me rock with you"

Eve feat. Alicia Keys

so what else is up? EVERYTHING....i've been sooo busy that it's not even funny...why else would i be up at quarter to 11am on a sunday morning? when i could be sleeping? because some stupid retard called me in the morning and woke me up with a heart attack...and who was it? no one....that's right....NO ONE....i hate ppl that do that...really...i do...makes me want to turn off my phone and THEN how will ppl contact me? they won't! hahahaha....okok...that was sooo not funnie...

but really...i've got a botany lab to prepare for so more updates laaater!

ME: mornin' mom
MOM: what time are you leaving today?
ME: 7:30am
MOM: are you happy with you friends?
ME: yup...they're great
MOM: do you have a boyfriend?
ME: no mom, i don't...i promise that when i do...i'd tell you *of course this may not necessarily be true*
MOM: what happened to you and joel? did you guys break up?
ME: no mom, nothing's happened between me and joel...we've never even DATED...he's been busy with school and work...and he's hooking back up with his childhood sweetheart, shari
MOM: ok...here's a banana for school...don't work too hard, ok?
ME: ok mom...thanks, i'll call you when i'm downtown...bye
MOM: bye

a conversation with my mother at 7:00am this morning...

i'd like to start off apologizing to ppl who may think i am mad at them. i'm not. VERY NOT. i'm quite happy to chill and be nuts and fun, but i AM human and i do have my mood swings. however, i've had a revelation and i'm quite mad at MYSELF...for chasing a dream...which i now understand will always BE a dream...i can't control this, so i'm not going to even try anymore. it's sad that my head can be so logical at times, but my heart gets in the way and messes things up...i need to do something about this damn heart...it's much too vulnerable...maybe i should get a plate in there...then i'd be less emotional and much more rational...

i love my friends and family...and you will always be my top priority. schoolwork and smcsu will be next. anything else will have to come after and i'm not going to dwell on this. oh don't get me wrong...i'm still going to be fun and nutty...

i hope i feel better tomorrow...till then...i'm never having an espresso again.

yeh...crazy screwed...my week is soooo busy...and it's not OVER YET! argh! *that is the sound of despair*

so lisa picked me up this morning at 8:15am, and then we picked flo up at eglinton...and then we went to the office cuz flo and i had 10-12pm office hours...where i decided that because i had already done what i needed to do, that i would...here we go...*crack knuckles*....CLEAN THE CUPBOARD!!!! not a small feat in itself!! crazy much? hahaha!

ava and i almost missed each other at the AC...hmm...but she found me running on the track so it was all good...and now my abs are killing me cuz that's what i've been working on ....cuz otherwise i'd look like i'm 2 months pregnant or something...and plus, we don't want a bulge there for the gala, now do we??!? hahaha...which, by the way...i found out this evening after class...I'M GOING TO THE 150TH SMC GALA! wooohoooo!!! i don't have to pay for the tickets...and i don't have to WORK for it either! so i'm one happy camper! *doing a small dance...tho...i can't dance*

so jerome now thinks i'm a maniac....cuz he's always in the office when i go into my cleaning spree...i want to clean the drawers cuz they are DISGUSTING...and he's like "christina...calm down...let peter do his job" so i stopped...stuck everything back in...and i'm letting peter do his job...afterall...he gets PAID to do this...

i think my mom's sick...she wanted congee but the store was closed and we couldn't get it on my way home...and then i got home and she's lying on the couch like she's sick and coughing and stuff...so....now i gotta be extra EXTRA good...by going to the library tomorrow morning to do my lin and ant tutorial assignments...and get the rest of my readings done...i feel soooo bad...i'm so busy it's crazy insane!

"On top of spaghetti,
All covered with cheese,
I lost my poor meatball,
When somebody sneezed.

It rolled off the table,
And on to the floor,
And then my poor meatball,
Rolled out of the door.

It rolled in the garden,
And under a bush,
And then my poor meatball,
Was nothing but mush.

The mush was as tasty
As tasty could be,
And then the next summer,
It grew into a tree.

The tree was all covered,
All covered with moss,
And on it grew meatballs,
And tomato sauce."

it's hilarious! i first read it in Calvin and Hobbes YEARS ago! which reminds me...i still need to get butt naked baby blues....but alas...i have no money...or rather...i'd spend it in a minute for clothes, jewellery, or makeup any day....hahaha....i'm relishing the idea of going shopping at the mall! yay! when was the last time i went to a mall? i think when i was in calgary...hmmm
BUT THANK GOD flo needs to look for a gala dress, gives me the excuse to stop studying for a bit and relax with flo and lisa...hahaha...

btw...i don't fit nicely in MY gala dress anymore...that is NOT a good thing...and mom's freaking out cuz she thinks i'm not eating enough and working out too much...blah blah blah...whatever...i haven't felt this good in AGES....

went to the movies with ames and daddy last nite to see..."ballistic"...hmmm...let's just say you should check your brain out the door before you go in...and is it just me or is there ALOT MORE ASIANS going to the movies?!?!?! whoa...the whole place was packed with fobs...and they talk sooooo loud...and really...i DON'T CARE to hear your conversations with your friends or the phone...and yes ppl DO sell popcorn in the theatre...oh geez....as if popcorn nausea wasn't bad enuf...i had to put up with THAT! at least they shut up when the actual movie started...i guess cuz all the guys were drooling at lucy liu and talisa soto while the girls where in awe of antonio banderas....not that i was or anything...

i think i've figured out my saturday work schedule...9-4pm teaching kids...whoa...that's like a whole WORK day...boooo!

Ontario University Life by Nauman Abbasi:
Okay, so the summer has ended and school is about to start again soon. Well, you've probably gotten together with old friends and have probably noticed things about each of them since they attend other schools. This is what you may have noticed:

UofT St.George:
After being at a school with so many people at it, your friend lacks individuality and has come back as a robot. They may address themselves by their student number instead of their name and may talk in a monotone voice.

UofT Erindale:
Your friend talks in a new language - Punjabi - after being around so many South Asian people for too long. They also talk about how the Toronto Argonauts football team practices at Erindale but fail to realise how bad the Argonauts are.

UofT Scarborough:
Your friend constantly talks about how they've got many girlfriends or boyfriends there and how they're 'keeping it real' because of the gangster influence there. What they fail to tell you is that they're school is actually a local nightclub.

Ryerson:
Your friend constantly reminds you that its a 'university' and not a college and reminds you that its among the top in Engineering. What they fail to tell you is that it borders the Gay/Lesbian area of Toronto and has homeless bums harassing students.

Queens:
Your friend was once a proud member of an ethnic group but has comeback acting like a Gino, blasting techno beats. He or she may constantly talk about Kingston being 'the place to be' and talk about Queens' medical program being among the best. They fail to realise its Kingston and no one cares.

McMaster:
Just like Queens, your friend will talk about it being 'the place to be' and talk about McMaster having its own nuclear reactor. However,they fail to mention that its nuclear reactor is one atomic collision away from causing another Chernoble.

Windsor:
Your friend will talk about Windsor attracting some of the best
students regardless that the University somehow felt the need to run infomercials to promote itself. They fail to mention that the school harasses prospective students to choose Windsor, often begging students in their offers.

Lakehead:
Your friend couldn't come back home during reading week because by the time he/she made it all the way home, they'd have to start heading back up. They talk about never going back again to Lakehead and ponder working at an automotive plant for the remainder of their lives since a degree from Lakehead means nothing.

Ottawa:
Your friend will stick up for their school where possible but
secretly tell you that they only came to Ottawa after they were rejected by their first, second, third and fourth choices. May talk about how Ottawa is just a smaller, more 'governed' version of
Toronto.

Western:
Your friend will come back home and talk about how great the social life is at Western. However, they won't recall a thing about school and will wonder what you're talking about when you mention the word 'integral' to them. They may think its a bar on campus.

Waterloo:
Being the top school in Canada, Waterloo students are smug and arrogant believing that they are the best around. They fail to mention that the library was designed by Waterloo students and that its sinking into the ground after the students forgot to account for the weight of the books in the library. Way to go!

Guelph:
Your friend was originally planning to be a veternarian or go intoenvironmental sciences. Somehow, they're now studying Business. Wentto Guelph for the great guy-girl ratio but came back angry after learning that all the women still have boyfriends back home.

York:
Your friend is trying to switch to a different school. Enough said.

it's a pretty good thing i decided to do the stuff the anthro prof asked us to do for our tutorials...cuz i was the only one in the group that had any info....and thus...i saved my group from a tragic disaster...yay!

so georges is no longer a bubble tea virgin...hahahaaaaa! and grace is gonna hook it up with "O" hahahhaaaaa! oh man...she is soooo gonna kill me! ;p
the library is a funny place...when i first go in to study...my blood is pumping away at like 160km/hr cuz i'd just been speed walking from class across campus...and so i'm very very warm...but then...after awhile...when i've been there for a couple of hours...it gets soooooo cold...and then ppl wonder why that crazy girl is wearing this HUGE ASS sweatshirt on such a beautiful day as today! hmmm....

"I could lose my heart tonight
If you don't turn and walk away
'Cause the way I feel I might
Lose control and let you stay
'Cause I could take you in my arms
And never let go

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

I could only wonder how
Touching you would make me feel
But if I take that chance right now
Tomorrow will you want me still?
So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

And I know it's not right
And I guess I should try to do what I should do
But I could fall in love
Fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

Siempre estoy soñada en ti
Besandos mis labios, acariciando mi piel
Abrazadome con ansias locas
Imaginando que me amos
Cómo yo podia amar a ti

So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love
I could fall in love
With you..."

Selena

school will be the death of me...and lisa...especially lisa...queen of bruises from xoxoxoxo...but i really don't like this commuting crap anymore...really...i hate waking up early in the morning and running myself to death to catch the bus (whoa....i did a MAJOR bus chasing this morning) and falling asleep in georges room while i'm supposedly "studying"...and paying $9 for a meal that isn't worth $5 because the veggies had no taste...and leaving really late at nite because my parents think i have class till 9pm every nite...(ok so maybe THAT isn't such a bad thing) BUT...it's not fun when you have one of those days when your head ACHES sooo bad that you feel like chopping it off with a butcher knife and sticking it into a plastic bag and throwing it away in the dumpster...THEN you'll want to go home early for chamomile tea.

oh...did i mention how screwed up smcsu is? oh yeh...that's another story on it's own...i'm FULLY not pleased with the results we've been getting...no wonder ppl complain about us...the small percentage of ppl that actually do work to try and keep the college alive is being overthrown by the rest of the council who haven't pulled their acts together and is screwing us up...*sigh* how political is that?

so "deadend.com" is NOT recommended unless you're the type of person that likes to watch the camera shake. it had good plot and good ideas....but i think i freaked georges out by looking like i needed to puke throughout the WHOLE movie...but i also think that i made up for it by eating some sorta hot pot rice thingy at a cute little restaurant on yonge st. THAT part was fun...hahaha...the weirdo that sat next to me during the movie was NOT fun (and no...not georges...some other graduate engineer from mac)

i'm very worried about pol200. i'm worried that i won't be able to keep up in that class. i'm worried that i don't think like pol sci ppl. i'm worried that i'll fail that course...which is NOT a good thing. i'm soo worried that i'm afraid i'm gonna give myself an ulcer.

i miss my grandma...she went to my aunt's house for a coupla days cuz my lil cousin erica has bronchitis...she was at the hospital and the house was up in shambles...ugh...

i'm tired. i have so much work to do it's insane.

"Ohhhhh I want to shoot my math teacher with tampons she's so gaaaaahhhhhh!" - shmoozed off juju's blog

and so life goes on....after you die from being shot in the head...

so ed wants me to take my ARCT practical in january....and this is MY response....:
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!"
and ed's like it's sooooo easy...all i have to do is play 1 prelude & fugue, 1 gr. 9, 1 gr. 10 and 2 ARCT pieces....2 which i already have...and 3 more i have to learn.....oh....and PLUS scales in thirds and in sixths and chords and dominant sevenths and arpeggios....
oh well...we'll see how much time this chick has to practice....

i met up with joel on wednesday...wow....joel....i think he's dating shari again...he's a funny one...even when he's NOT dating shari...they're always doing stuff together and seeing each other...i'm telling the whole world now...joel and shari will one day get married and i'll be there....BUT...i love seeing joel...he always has a surprise for me...like how he took me to the arts college at the corner of dundas something to eat in the food court for lunch...and then we went to the comic book store "the silver snail" for him to BUY comic books (BOYS! they never grow up!) and then we went into a costume shop! wow! those places are funky! they had everything...even ballet clothing...now i know where to go for halloween! teehee!

wow! guys....you gotta check out ames' blog....she does all these cool things for her layout...but i really really like this one! ames...you have WAY too much time on your hands! is vergura NOT giving you enough hw? ahhahaha.

tried to make a long distance call to queens so i could gab with tanaka....but guess what? john left me 28 mins....*sigh* at least now i know what to buy john!

oh oh! too many parties! too many events! too much work to do! christian's invited me to his 80s/hawaiian bash at his place with his cousin egan. i WANT to go...cuz i haven't seen fran, and gabs and the rest of the asian gang in AGES! but....i'm going to the film festival...and the party's too late for me...oh well...at least i'm cool enuf to sit with chris in botany! ;p

if i die...i put the entire blame on political science 200...i feel soooo stupid in that class. maybe it's just me...i can't understand the prof. i think you need a certain frame of mind to understand. OTHER ppl are understanding! they answer questions...they even POSE unintelligible questions themselves....oh boy....

FINE. i'm gonna clear my mind by working out...it usually makes me feel better...and if THAT doesn't work....well..lisa and flo...we'll go shopping sunday!

New Sex Study

It has been studied and determined that the most often used sexual position for married couples is the doggie position.

The husband sits up and begs and the wife rolls over and plays dead.

hahahahaha....so i'm totally gaining back all the calories i lost today at the AC with ava and christine! whoa! it's toonie tuesday at KFC!

stupid thing i did for the day....well..it's not really stupid...but just....UNUSUAL! went to pol200 at 4pm (TODAY instead of yesterday!) and then went to the bookstore to buy some of the fifty thousand books that they want us to buy. as i'm standing at the shelf looking at ALL the pol sci books ready to cry....this guy comes by and looks over my shoulder and was like "hey...you're in my class" and then we hook up and help each other out! so then i help him out by getting him a copy of the handout from class (cuz he MISSED class...) and he bought me an iced tazo chai! and then to top it off...because i had class at 6pm and he made me late leaving the spadina and college area...he DROVE me to my class! how sweet is that? i MEET bruce like an hour and then he drives me....whoa...

ran into jude today...or rather...he invaded my personal space...that boy...he's just an odd one....he stands VERY VERY close to me...and everything he does is very very CLOSE...except until i told him i was seeing someone...ahahahaha...then he backed off....a TEENY TINY BIT! hahahahahaa! of course...just for the record....i'm not seeing anyone...but...i'm meeting tons of new ppl everyday!

"Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I say would it be a sin
(Be a sin)
If I can't help falling in love with you
Like a river flows (Oooh)
To the sea (Oooh)
So it goes
Some things are meant to be
Some things are meant to be"

Darren Hayes

i was soooo afraid that lisa was gonna leave me downtown by myself...and then i'd have to take the bus home...but she came thru! i was homeless for a short time frame...that's all! but we had a very nice chat in her cutie little car! and had fun all the way home! except the part where we almost killed a very stupid pedestrian who didn't look where he was going...and could have died except for the fact that lisa made good judgement on her part....by BRAKING! ;p

it's a pretty good thing i didn't go to the rez dinner cuz what was waiting for me when i got home? yuppers, that's right...chicken...so shoot me in the head...council mtgs are killer...

"it's getting hot in here...so take off all your clothes..."

was it just me? or was it very very warm today? flo and i trekked all around the campus today...worked up a very nice sweat...and who did i just have to run into first thing in the morning? yep...that's right...STALKER BOY (only ppl who know me and the story will understan) so yeh...my day went downhill from there...cuz then later that morning flo, lisa and i witness the terrible scene of francke with his tongue down some poor chick's throat...and we were just standing there with our mouths wide open...

fortunately things got a bit better when i ran into georges at SAC office. that was a fun round of hide and seek, eh? hahahaaaa

zoo looks like a fun class...too bad i'm not officially enrolled in it yet... =( lin is exactly same as my summer course so i'll be surfing through THAT class...and i'm soooo glad that i'm not the only person in 2nd yr in that class...joe v and haley are there too! we'll be the cool ppl in there! ;p went to my pol200 class today...except that it WASN'T TODAY! god! how smart am i?!?!?!

hey! ran into ava today! wow! haven't heard from her in THE longest time! yea! we're gonna workout! just like old times! i still have christine's shower puff! hahahaha!

oooh...my shoes are not fun....they make blisters...and then pop em....meh...

booo...i don't wanna go to school! *sigh*

so i've spent some time scanning in pics and updating my website...so if anyone's interested, my vacation pics are up...here...tho of course...there is more to come cuz i still have a roll of film to develop...which WILL be developed...as soon as i finish the roll! duh!

went out for coffee with my girl, lisa...and spent our time updating each other on frosh week and fixing schedules and planning workout/studying times...it's terrible! everyone wants to work out at hart house but i HATE hart house...i've had very bad experiences at hart house...see monday may 6, 2002

dim sum for lunch! it's so sad how dim sum has modernized...i remember when i was little, we'd go for dim sum and piles of steaming food would be pushed on carts by our table and we'd just reach over a pluck a dish/flag the cart pusher down. much much more visual...and time wasting because you can eat dim sum for like HOURS....NOW it's like ordering food out of the kitchen, and that just totally sucks...defeats the whole PURPOSE dim sum...AND...they don't make this really good dessert anymore...something like yellow tapioca pudding...i loved eating that...it's just not dim sum without yellow tapioca pudding...*sigh*

what's this? i have a very impertinent question for all my blog readers....AM I A BAD INFLUENCE?!?!?!?!?!?!? now...i personally DON'T think i'm a bad person to hang around with...but i've now been told otherwise...by who you ask? hahahaha! now that's a fun question! why...my uncle stephen of course! he wants grace to stay away from me because if she doesn't...she's gonna end up JUST LIKE ME....which is?!? oh that's right...she's gonna drink, get drunk, have sex and basically become a whore and a half...just for the record....that hurts like hell...to find out that my uncle...MY UNCLE...thinks i'm a bad influence....i'm gonna go and have a good cry now...and then i'm gonna hate him forever...

PLUS...now i've lost a white fubu sock with pink trimmings to the laundry machine...ugh...

Christina: "I DID come to your wedding...because I wanted to see you and the feeling IS mutual...and you better be a really good kisser..."
*kisses*
Christina: "wow...that was weak..."
Peter: "weak?"
Christina: "yeh...it's ok...you can try again."
*kisses*
Christina: "you're so much better in my dream...that's weird..."
Peter: "hold these" *hands Christina yellow flowers*
*kisses*
Christina: "I THOUGHT THIS WAS LIKE MUTUAL!!!"
Peter: "oh my god!"
Christina: "NO! I'm serious! listen....I'll call you, ok?" *starts walking away*
Peter: "what? wait! WAIT!"
Christina: "thanks for the flowers, really nice touch..."
Peter: "I'm out of practice! ...I just woke up! ...UNBELIEVABLE!!!"

hahahaaaa! classic movie! that was hilarious! i laughed sooooo hard i almost peed my pants! (or rather...in this case...my jogging shorts) the best part is that the girl's name is christina....leave that up to your imagination...and selma blair as jane....she was THE BEST! who does what she does? hahahahaahahaaaaa! i don't want to give it away...but you gotta see what she did! but here's some advice....no guys with piercings...they're lethal! so yup yup...what i do in my spare time is walking with ames to shoppers (FOR COSMETICS!), blockbuster and starbucks...

i'm in love....again! whoa...like i drooled from my house to yonge street! his name is jonny lee miller...HACKERS! with angelina jolie...wow...unbelievably drool-worthy...the greatest thing was that i was jogging on the treadmill so i was so totally packing in the milage...hahahahahahahaaaaaaaa! speaking of treadmills...i cannot wait till i get a locker at the AC...i LUV that track...it doesn't hurt my feet like my treadmill...it's beautiful! so i'll be there on monday...it'll be like home sweet home...yeeaaa...

i was at the studio this morning for my kids...it was great! only problem is my 2 hr lunch break...what to do ...what to do...ahhh! steve ALSO has a lunch break that time (ok...so it's NOT really a lunch break...more like a period of time where we both don't have kids coming in) so we walk across the street to second cup for lunch...NICE! i think this will become a tradition...tho...i think it'll have to be at timmy ho's on the other side of leslie cuz it's much cheaper there...

so....what's this i hear from ms. lisa?!?!?!!?!? oooooooh! i see i missed something this week, eh?!?! *nudge nudge wink wink* hahahaa...ok...i'll keep quiet!

now i'm getting cold in my basement...so i'll just mosey on upstairs to sleep...but on a last note...thank you thank you thank you CARL! for being SUCH a sweetheart and being my antidote! you KNOW i love you for it! mwah!

and they just keep on popping up...2 weeks ago i knew absolutely nothing about my cousins in australia...and now i have to check my junk mail folder really closely or else i'll delete emails that are important! like the one from lachlan! hahahahahahaha! and right....my voice sounds sooooo bad...like i have a cold or something. i was teaching today, and EVERYONE thought i was sick, it's so sad. which brings me to my 1st day back to work after 2 weeks off. can you imagine? after two weeks and everything is sooo different, monica changed all the piano benches to piano chairs (i personally like the piano benches) and i've got this little white thing in the corner of my room that supposedly a fan (how the heck was i supposed to know it was a fan?!?!?) and steve's room has a mirror for his voice students...wow....

monica made a boo boo today! she forgot to call one of my kids to confirm that they were coming tonight, and i sat around waiting for her, almost falling asleep...geez...i've got sooooo many holes in my schedule....like swiss cheese...i'd rather teach 8 hrs straight as opposed to being there 16 hrs and teaching half the time. but HEY! i got a raise! *making a whirly sign above head*

"It's been seven hours and fifteen days
Since you took your love away
I go out every night and sleep all day
Since you took your love away
Since you been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
But nothing ...
I said nothing can take away these blues,
'Cause nothing compares ...
Nothing compares to you

It's been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong?
I could put my arms around every boy I see
But they'd only remind me of you
went to the doctor guess what he told me
Guess what he told me?
He said, girl, you better have fun
No matter what you do
But he's a fool ...
'Cause nothing compares ...
Nothing compares to you ...

All the flowers that you planted, mama
In the back yard
All died when you went away
I know that living with you baby was sometimes hard
But I'm willing to give it another try
'Cause nothing compares ...
Nothing compares to you ... "

Sinead O'Connor

yeh so...remember i had a council mtg this morning? yeh...well guess who's the chick who's on the subway with flo....when the phone rings with kirsten calling to say it was cancelled? that's right...figure that one yourself...so what does this chick do? go have coffee at timmy ho's with flo! (i know...i know...it's so sad...the fact that i got up early in the morning...but what can you do?!?!?) THINK OPTIMISTICALLY! look at the cup half full! well...until you get completely screwed over...

evilness surrounds me...major crisis' happening ALL the time...flo and i went to the alumini office this morning (that's what we do when we have time on our hands) and spoke with mary ellen burns...turns out that we have a pretty good chance of getting a good deal with those gala tickets! yeh! those tix are like $150! hi! i'm a 2nd year university student! the only way i'll be able to pay that amount is if i get into my robber uniform and do a series of bank robberies...so if you ever hear on the news that there was a series of bank robberies....IT WASN'T ME! (and i SWEAR that i'm NOT the person who's breaking into st. joe's and vic! hahahaha!)

HEY HEY HEY!!!!! GUESS WHO'S BACK?!?!?!?!?!?! "back again....shady's back....tell a friend".....PATRICE! yeh! i'm sooo excited! the only thing is...he's at UTM! why?!?!?!?! oh well...meet my friend karina...she goes there too...oh wait...so does karen...and tiffany...and alex...

i'm extremely tired now...so tired that i can't even freak out about my problems anymore...well i guess in a way...that's a GOOD thing...