WHAT'S GOIN' ON?!?!?!?!?

it's new years eve for cryin' outloud! this holiday has just been a huge blurr...i can't even separate each day anymore...everyone i talk to on the phone asks me the same question..."whatcha doin' for new years?" and to every single person i tell them..."nothing"

that's right. it's a tradition...i always stay at home...sometimes i stay up and watch the ball drop on tv, but most of the time i go to sleep and then...whoa...it's jan 1st. and this year is no exception...

i hate it when i'm not working...it's very very boring, and then i find myself doing homework and that's just peachy...i really really dislike sitting at home doing nothing, UGH! well, after tomorrow i will find myself back into shipshape...(i hope) especially since i've just been eating like a pig and NOT working out. what with everything that's going on, i just want to crawl into bed and sleep...which is what i've done all day, so i have no idea how i'll be sleeping tonite...

oh wow...new years resolution...that's unheard of...i don't really make resolutions because they are never kept...why make a NEW YEARS resolution? when you can make a resolution for anytime...why push it back to one single day? i just thought i'd apologize if i'm wreaking anyone's fun...i'm feeling very cynical right now. karina got a new piercing at the side of her mouth and i was so jealous that now i want another piercing too! but where? i'm seriously looking into the tragus...but my parents will flip...this won't be as easy to hide as the other one...and plus this includes a whole ton of cartilage. my other option is to dye the back panel of my hair like avril lavigne's in her music video i'm with you and that would be the better option. either way...something will prolly be done when i see karina thursday....

i'm peeved at a certain person, and i didn't exactly treat them very nicely on the phone today...i felt so bad afterwards that i ate a quarter of a tub full of chocolate ice cream...just for the record...i didn't feel that great afterwards...but that person will never know because they are stupid...and i'm even more dumb for being blind towards their actions and being so nice and understanding when everyone around me can see how badly i'm being treated and TRY to tell me, but nono...i won't listen...i think deep down i've known what was going on, but i tried to make excuses for everything and now, I SEE. so all i have to do now, is give them their present (i did after all buy this present thinking OF THEM, so might as well) and...not see them as often...man oh man...that might as well be a new years resolution...

will someone please make the time to see "chicago" with me? i really want to see it...but it seems that everyone is busy...