i don't know what's wrong with me. i've been sleeping so many hours for the past couple of days, yet i'm still so tired! i've been so tired that i've actually been able to fall asleep in some of my classes. i think i just don't care anymore. yech.

i couldn't stop laughing when i read this. it's the funniest story ever! ;p

anyway, kelly's korner is tonight, and i'm not going to it because i have to go home and sleep. My stomach keeps rumbling and since i'm sitting in the library....it's not that fun....especially when the guy sitting right next to me just let out the biggest sneeze ever.

wow, talk about coming off of a high...

just got home from the peel pub on college where SMCSU had their last celebration of the old council. why was i there? hahaha, because i was the CRO for the tumultanous elections and they all wanted me there! how it feels to be loved! mind you, i got soooo buzzed on beer and we were all laughing and were being really nutty...

and then you come home to the awful news of cecelia's death...

C- may you rest in peace

it's times like these, when you wonder why people believe in god...

i finished my essay in 5 hrs and handed it in. whoa that's a crazy run. although, the bad news is that i obviously didn't read the course notes because now it says i have to get it to the T.A. and i don't know her email...how screwed am i? ahhhhhh.

anyway, i'm exhausted

ahhhh....the dramatic elections has finally come to a close (okok, knock on wood, we all know the candidates MIGHT appeal...but we also know they most likely won't....) the point is, IT'S OVER.

tension was high, and tempers were raging...ppl were quite impatient with the time it took to count ballots (about 7 hours of non stop counting...how exhausting) and then afterwards they wanted me to go out partying....yeah riiiiiight....although i did stop off at mullins to say hi and congrats!

unfortunately, neither of my essays are done although i may have a fair chance of finishing one tomorrow. i guess that means i should check in with my bed.

i have 2 essays due today, and neither one is even close to being done....maybe because neither one has been even been worked on. this is NOT good. i'm too tired and stressed, so much that i don't even really care anymore. you know it's bad when i'm calculating late penalty marks.

those election mofos are getting a hit placed on them after elections. this one candidate had the audacity to question my judgement AND THEN my authoritative power over a ballot box. he made me sooooo angry, i wanted to hit him...in fact, i don't think i'd ever been put in a position where i was completely speechless for over 30 secs. i can't believe how this guy even got to me. he made me so completely unsure of myself and my decisions and thank god joe figs came over and calmed me down enough to show me that i still completely sane and that he's going to kick that guys ass to the moon and back.

off a different tangent...went out for our tuesday lunch with simone, and she brought this really hot guy, rich, with her. the funny thing is that i've actually met him before, in my first year eco100 class, and this was the SAME GUY that i had gone up to, and told him he had "gorgeous eyes". wow, how embarassing...hahahahahahaaaa....for him! hahahaha. (i have no shame!) we had the greatest time, and now rich thinks i'm coocoo...but that's ok, because i really think i've lost it.

wow, i just finished my anthro-linguistics assignment. man was that some tedious work extracting and coding the raw data for 2 english kids from york. it was a cool assignment because we were looking at the use of "be-like" before quotatives in english, as well as "say", "think", "go" and the zero quotative...but i am sooooo tired now. and needless to say...i need to start my bioethics essay tomorrow morning as it's due...hahahaha...WEDNESDAY...along with my social cultural paper...which i probably won't hand in until thursday....i'd rather take a 3% hit then a 5% hit. ah....the pressures of essays....

in other news...i checked out the pictures from the cssu formal. flo looks so gorgeous it's unbelievable...and sadly enough, yes everyone looked lovely, but i still believe that the st. mike's formal is better simply because the girls seem to dress fashionably better....just MY point of view...heh heh heh...

anyway, i'm going to crash now.

i wasn't planning on blogging....i have 6 billion things going on and i really don't have time to do this. but after reading flo's blog, she made me so excited that i have to say this: i got a corsage too! it was a gorgeous white orchid and it matched my dress perfectly! there was no dancing for me because the heels on my shoes were soooo high that i couldn't even walk properly (but they did look very nice! ;p ah the things girls do to look good!) , but brendan and i did sit in the front hall and talk to everyone who was going into and out of the washrooms!

the cocktail party was a huge success, so many people came out for the free flowing wine, and even the bus fiasco didn't damper anyone's moods! there was enough food to feed a million people, and everyone looked gorgeous, it was like the oscars or something! suffice to say, i don't really recall alot of drunk people at the party, or maybe people just knew how to handle their alcohol. georges and anna were soooooo funny, when those two are drunk, they just won't stop jabbering! little jenny got wine on her dress....again, she does it every year! but it wasn't very terrible at all, just just doused her dress in water and it was good to go. alot of the cast of blood brothers were there and i wish we got a picture of us all, but we were so widely dispersed, i'm just glad i even saw them!

in terms of pictures, yes i have them, i just need to have them developed. of course, the symposium is tonight as well, so i'll get pictures of those. oh man, i'm wayyyy too busy. after this week i vow that i'm going to vegetate in my bed for a whole weekend!

i'm sooooo tired....sleeeeeeeep....
is not available at this moment. flo bought the most amazing pair of shoes i've ever seen, they're gorgeous and she's gonna knock her boy out of his socks. and me? well my boy's gonna have to content with a tired girl.

just incase no one's figured it out, but my two biggest pet peeves are ppl setting me up with people and people lying to me. the setting people up one bothers me a whole lot because i'm not a person lacking in social skills and i really don't see why i "NEED" help with anything at all. if i like someone i will go and talk to them, i don't need anyone else sticking their nose in and giving me their two cents. as for the lying part, that should speak for itself. i don't like people telling me they'll do something with me and then turning around to do the exact opposite of what they told me. i just don't respect that.

of course these people don't know who i'm talking about, and i'm not about to divulge here, oh no...i'm just going to make a mental note of this and move on, just take people with a grain of salt. and of course, i'm procrastinating YET AGAIN. how lovely.

this is sooooooo weird. the past couple of days has gone by in a blur and it's been drama upon drama upon drama. i think i'm going to combust soon.

formal is a drama in itself. it shouldn't be, yet every year it happens. let's put it his way. i do not condone people setting up people...it's not allowed...but what happens? figure it out yourself. and not only that, but the formal committee is running around like a chicken with it's head cut off...not fun.

then there's the spring elections...apparently i had no idea what i was getting myself into by applying for CRO. apparently there's this unspoken rule that people are going to be asses and just shit disturb like there's no tomorrow. unfortunately for me, many people have taken it upon themselves to tell me how i should run the show. hmmmm, maybe THEY should have applied. i have two words for them...."FUCK OFF", it's my job and i'll run it the way i see fit, if you have a VALID problem, come talk to me nicely, otherwise stop wasting my precious fucking time.

boys are ruining my life. i've had so many run-ins with them this week and it isn't even over. i'm tired of them. i need a break, for real. yet i can't even do THAT. i have to continually see boys until maybe after the symposium this sunday, and then that's when i go into hibernation to do work....maybe.

oh wow, before i forget....i ran into jacob and AVA today! it was soooooo weird! who knew that jacob and ava would know each other? and then they were so excited that everyone knew each other, and i was just excited period because i haven't seen ava since.....since last year? oh wow, too long...too much excitement....i'm going to combust!

and now i'm SUPPOSED to be working on my lab report, but oh no, of course i'm procrastinating....

i'm tired.

and so...another chapter of my life has closed...

we had our last show last night, and for the first time ever, i wanted to do another two shows....but we ALL know how insane an idea that would be, so i guess it's good that it's done. everyone loved the show and i'm glad! i think it was really well organized (in the end! hahahaha) and laura was so sweet, she had flowers for us backstage people and because it was completely unexpected...it made it even better! i'm going to miss the cast sooooo much!!!!

i'm so excited! i met up with a bunch of random people today and made a new friend! her name is karis and she's been in the circus for 10 years! it was really cool because we totally hit it off and even after everyone else had left, we took the subway together and continued chatting! that's wayy too cool! and to make the world even smaller, she always hangs out at chris' JD's because she goes to ryerson and likes to study and eat there! so i'll probably be meeting up with her to hang out! ;p

the only thing that makes this weekend not so fun is the fact that i have to study for tomorrow's test. ugh...another bellringer. the only good thing is that it's on australopithecines and not on the early miocene anymore. the bad thing is that there will probably be other extant ape stuff to confuse me!!!!!!

procrastination is the way to go! this is why i'm sitting in kelly library blogging!

i need to take a nap.

grace dear, all signs are pointing to...forget about the Crush.

as my msn name states: dottie is a busy busy girl
why dottie? no idea...just a random floating free thought in my head that my fingers typed out...hahahahahaha!

anyway, a recap of this weekend:
friday
after work (which was stressful because i was so nervous...) we had our first performance of blood brothers....honestly, it was AMAZING...i think we got all the bad stuff out at the rehearsal! everyone loved it, and it's going down in my books! the cast went out to tobey's after for $0.99 burgers (a rip-off cuz you have to buy the fries too) and we all had a blast, especially since it seems were getting off on a high...

saturday
unfortunately i had work in the morning, and especially since i was out so late that morning i was quite tired, but oh well. the 2nd performance was just as good, although i don't think my playing was as good as the first night. we went out to the karaoke bar after and man, it was funny to see the regulars at that bar. funny....yet also kinda sad...you see these guys sitting in the corners by their lonesome and they're taking shots before they go up to sing the saddest songs in the world. one guy sang billy joel's piano man and that got us all rowdy! whooo!

sunday
you think i had a day of rest? try again!

went to the raptors game with my family (and no, my mom doesn't cheer...i don't think she understood the game, but that's alright) where they played a SICK game: 84-76...sweet! BUT...before the game, we went to marche for brunch, and we sat at a table right next to....mike bullard...ahahahaha...that's right...he was there for brunch, and it was funny because i noticed right away and he waved at me! ;p

oh...what else? i've done absolutely no homework this whole weekend, and i am thus screwed.

i need to take up smoking weed....really....

the dress rehearsal was a DISASTER. the stage lights weren't working so we didn't start until at least 8:45pm...we weren't even into our very first song before mark accidently tripped over the piano (keyboard) light and broke the lightbulb...so we had to stop and clean up that mess. THEN after we stuck a new bulb into the lamp, the bulb....exploded....yes, i mean what i just wrote...it EXPLODED. pieces of glass everywhere, and smoke rising from the lamp...it was completely unreal and i was so shocked because i was standing RIGHT IN FRONT OF IT. i'm surprised i didn't cut or anything, i was THAT close. people kept forgetting lines and missing cues, even missing musical numbers and ugly shoes. i'm just crossing my fingers that we've gotten all the problems out TODAY, and that the next 4 shows will be better....

today was a spectacularly busy day. wasn't planning on going to work, but eva really needed me so i went in at 10am. OH!, what did she want me to do? play the little errand girl! ugh...oh well, i get PAID for it...THEN i had to walk over to the other side of campus to get an important document, but of course it wasn't done, and when it FINALLY DID get done, the paper was unprofessional and then it was like "whatever". let's put it this way....i was NOT impressed, and saddened by the nonchalent attitude taken on for something that i find so serious and important to me.

BUT....going dress window shopping with anna and simone was great fun. i think we've definitely found simone's little classic black dress, although it's still $180...ouch...

what do you think if lola and guy starts going out?

so apparently i'm going incoherent, and i might have work tomorrow. peachy.

"People love each other for all sorts of different reasons. Most of the time we're loved for what we can do rather than for who we are. It's not such a bad thing, being loved for what you can do."
"But the other is better"
"Better. I hate to say better, but it is. If someone loves you for what you can do then it's flattering, but why do you love them? If someone loves you for who you are then they have to know you, which means you have to know them."
this is the best part of the book i just finished reading. Bel Canto by Ann Patchett, it's also the winner of the Orange Prize, winner of the Pen/Faulkner award and a National Book Critics Circle Award Finalist. i personally don't care whether or not it won prizes, i think it's amazing....although the ending was quite shocking (ok, well not really) and REALLY sad. but i haven't enjoyed a good book in a long time (well, that's also because i haven't really had time to myself...i had to read this on my subway rides to and from school) and this is really good! definitely recommendable!

i'm actually getting pretty psyched for our musical that's on showcase these upcoming two weeks. BLOOD BROTHERS! march 5, 6, 12 & 13 in sam sorbara hall. tickets are $7 for students and $10 for adults! we're actually looking and sounding like a real production! this cheers me up greatly because i felt so awful that i sucked, but maybe i don't! the only thing is that rehearsals are excruciatingly LONG...oh well, part of the packaged deal! but seriously people, this show is GOOD! it's not dramatic, but rather fun, light and comedic...well, there's a dark part but still, it's tons of shits and giggles!

mom made cookies and ames' immediately informed me of them when i got home tonight. damn it. there goes my resolution to keeping away from junk food!

the shit has hit the fan...

this has been by far the most distressing week of 2004.
to make a very long and painful week short...these are my "highlights":
MONDAY:
- having my boss call me THREE times in the early morning (7am, 7:10am and 7:45am) while i'm freaking about my bellringer
- a dreadfully long bellringer that everyone is sure to have failed (you know i've lost my senses when i start laughing in the middle of the test because there's nothing else i can do...)

TUESDAY:
- falling into mud puddles and nearly falling down stairs
- half-assed assignment finished not 10 mins before it's handed in....
- and getting back a test...(that should be self-explanatory)
- late night study group
- forgetting chris was working at JD's and just went home

WEDNESDAY:
- frustrated with the lack of lab structure for ANT429...not really paying attention to the australopithecines...maybe because i'm...
- wanting desperately to get high for my bioethics test
- too tired to go to groove nation
- almost falling asleep in ant204 (which is a crime in itself because i LIKE this class)
- wanting to go straight home and falling into my lovely bed, but OH NO....let's go to eglinton to pick up my sister, where we wait for over 45 mins...i COULD have been home sooooo much more earlier!

THURSDAY:
- work sucks...i hate my job...the only good thing is that the work-study period ends next week...the bad thing is that since i've "padded" my hours to get the maximum amount of money out of this job...i won't be done until i finish those hours...*sigh*
- i hate my boss' boss...i think that's why i don't like my job anymore
- spent over an hour filling out my time sheets...and i get PAID to waste my time doing this
- hahaha, i think this is the best one yet...let's put it this way...i haven't failed a test since first year...
- BUT, i've dropped at least one course every year
- tarik stood me up
- oh, did i mention how much i suck at being the piano accompanist for smc's musical? riiiight, so i totally suck at it.

FRIDAY:
- for f***'s sake, i don't really care which william ross is deceased!
- i've been drinking WAYYYYY too many starbucks tazo chai's. i have a hole in my bank account the size of north america (i hate corporations...i need to make my OWN chai teas with soy)
- why is everyone done their 200 hrs but me?!?!?!?!

ok, sooo i'm getting whiney here...there HAVE been some good stuff over the week, such as going out to chinese food, sushi, pizza (ok, getting on a food track here); seeing simone try on the most gorgeous dress in the world (which also happens to be $200); and running into lots of my life sci guy friends who i haven't seen since first year (conrad, dominic, john, mark...who are also the same guys that are geniuses and getting accepted into all these medical schools)

whoa, i'm getting distracted...

my stress level is SOOOO high that i'm convinced that i've gone nuts.

i fell TWICE today...that's right...the first time i fell into a wet mud puddle right in front of hart house, and flo had to pick me up, lead me to the girls washroom, and helped me wipe my ass off....mind you, i wasn't as embarrassed as i was laughing my ass off...it was 1pm and there were people streaming around everywhere and there was this guy who was concerned yet trying not to laugh in my face, and i turned around and announced "there might be a second viewing later this afternoon!"...it's a good thing i don't have much pride...that would have definitely bruised it! ;p

riiiight...so there actually WAS a second viewing of me falling, but not into another puddle...i tripped on the stairs at kelly as i was going down the stairs...and i nearly brought simone down with me as well...that was actually more of a really bad scare then anything at all. i think i'm going to stop wearing heels for awhile...or maybe while i'm not getting enough sleep...

i have one more test this week, bioethics...and i went to the study group tee, ash and em were holding at kelly this evening after my sociolinguistics class (which btw...SUCKED MY ASS!!!)....i am SOOOO tired....

i want to cry.

we just finished a reading week, and i don't think i knew we had one. today's ANT429 test has left my mind in shambles and i don't know if i have the stamina to finish the rest of this week.

my boss is being annoying right now....this is NOT the time to be bothering me about WORK...for god's sake, i'm in a WORK-STUDY job and right now i need to STUDY. i really don't like this job anymore, and i really want to quit...but i've only got one more month left, so i guess i'll hold out a while longer....

shit, sociolinguistics isn't waiting for me...

Aegyptopithecus - 32 mya, Fayum Egypt
Pliopithecus - 17 mya, Eurasia
Proconsul - 17-20 mya, East Africa, South of Fayum, Rusinga Island, Songhor
Micropithecus - early miocene
Afropithecus - 17-18 mya, Northern Kenya
Heliopithecus - early miocene, Saudi Arabia, North East Egypt
Griphopithecus - 16.5-14.5 mya, Slavakia, Germany, Austria and Turkey
Equatorius - middle miocene, Moboko
Nacholapithecus - 15 mya, baringo, Kenya
Morotopithecus - 17-18 mya, Uganda
Turkanapithecus - early miocene, Kenya
Dendropithecus - early miocene, Africa
Rangwapithecus - early miocene, Africa
Simiolus Enjiessi early miocene, Kenya
Kenyapithecus - middle miocene, Kenya
Otavipithecus - 13 mya, Namibia
Sivapithecus - 12.8-13 mya, Siwalik Hills, Northern India and Pakistan
Ankarapithecus - 10 mya, Ankara Turkey
Lufengpithecus - 9 mya, Southern China, Nunen
Kharatpithecus - 9 mya, Thailand
Gigantopithecus - 6.5-7 mya and 1 mya (pleistocene) Siwaliks, China
Dryopithecus - 9-12.5 mya, France, Spain to Republic of Georgia to Hungary
Ouranopithecus - 9 mya, Greece
Oreopithecus - 7 mya, Tuscany and Sardinea

omg i'm sooooo screwed.....

how to date and blog
that's the title to one of blogger's little msg thingies...i thought that was hilarious!

so i'm back from the grave...so to speak. i've been so incredibly busy, and that really sucks considering that i've just finished reading week....are you serious? reading week just went by in a blink of an eye. wow....now for the update...

got up this morning at 8:30am and freaked out because i wanted to leave for downtown at 9am, and well...that just gave me half an hour to get ready...plus i was feeling really really groggy...(there's a story to why i'm tired...i'll get to it in a bit...) made good time and then went to the OISE building to get some articles for my pop culture paper (that i'm sooooo excited about writing...and NO that isn't sarcasm...i really am interested in the topic that i'm doing). GUESS WHAT?!?!?!? ed's alive! so yeh, stopped off at the rcm to get some tax receipts for my dad, and stopped off to say hi to ed. i miss him alot, and he misses us too! BUT, he's promised that he'll come see my musical, and when he does, he'll try to come on a day that the rest of the family will be going...yay!

went out for coffee with brendan later on this morning (ok, more like noon, but whatever), and that was fun cuz the last time i saw him was at the "cowboys and schoolgirls" party during winterfest, and that was AWHILE ago. he's been chillaxing and having some mad fun, and for that....i'm green with envy...

okok, so here's the scope on the last couple of days...

went up to blue mountain with the CS people...and it was a disaster and a half. someone overbooked the bus with people and equipment, and since we were on a MAGIC SCHOOLBUS....it took half an hour to sort it out. and then just before we got to the south base lodge...the bus found its front tire in a "MAGIC" snowbank...yeh, so no skiing for me...which was ok cuz chris came by and picked me up and it was all good.

so yeh, went to the haritun's farm...and let me stop now and gush about it's quaintness. it's a GORGEOUS farmhouse...fully modernized for a city girl like me, yet still full of little frills and dainty dishes and cutlery with cows and pigs on them...so cute and "doll-like." (hahahaha, i HAD to put that in cuz tim told me that his dad would have a cow if i said it...hahahaha) i ADORE their farm, and i'd love to go up again sometime in the near future! ;p

plus i got first hand experience of chris' cooking...and i must say that i love his food. a little bit on the rich side, but hey...as long as i don't have it everyday...(and if i continue going to the gym...) it's all good

right, on to the good part....watched "fight club" half drunk on baileys, and an episode of "curb your enthusiasm" and then had a sleepless night...hahahahaha....this is where i say...chris snores and then you ALL understand...hahahaha. long story short...i was only able to get any sleep when i kicked zen out of the family room to claim the couch...hahahahaha

they also have a wild turkey which they're plotting to kill, AND a very LARGE plot of land, that we went trekking in before i left to go home. do you know how good it is to be the first people to make tracks in the snow? (well, other then the millions of rabbit footprints that we saw) i love fresh white snow...and i'm glad i was able to see it this winter!

yeh well, back to smog and reality, but now i gotta study for my 2 tests and work on my assignment that's due as soon as i'm back at school...which sucks my ass, but you know....OH WELL

even though i claim valentine's day is completely over-rated....i still enjoy a dozen long stemmed red roses, dinner at il fornello's, and baileys with chocolate-covered strawberries, whipped cream....and a fireplace! ;p

friday night dancing at ice lounge was a disaster. the venue was too small for a smcsu AND utica party, and it obviously showed because when simone and i got there at around 10:15pm, there was a MASSIVE crowd infront of the club. the doors weren't even opened until after 10:30pm, so we snuck into the line with al, pat, justin and them, but then were redirected to the front of the line on the otherside of the ice lounge, and somehow managed to get in before the ppl standing at the front of the line who were there earliest! (for the record, the people at the front of the line included adrien...wink wink) AND THEN...we get into the club, but they wouldn't even let us coat check, so in the end...we stashed our jackets in a corner and hoped no one would go through it. (no one did...hahahaha)
the company that DID get through the doors were fun. georges and justin were high on SOMETHING...and georges even almost lost his id, but i found them and now he owes me! hahahaha. i even hurt my knee when i ran into a table when i saw ray...for the record...i have the biggest bruise on my knee now. it's purple and blue...hahahaha.

i'm reading this awesome book called sons of fortune by jeffrey archer. i love the fact that i can make time for myself to just sit and read something other then a textbook.

yay reading week!