"People love each other for all sorts of different reasons. Most of the time we're loved for what we can do rather than for who we are. It's not such a bad thing, being loved for what you can do."
"But the other is better"
"Better. I hate to say better, but it is. If someone loves you for what you can do then it's flattering, but why do you love them? If someone loves you for who you are then they have to know you, which means you have to know them."
this is the best part of the book i just finished reading. Bel Canto by Ann Patchett, it's also the winner of the Orange Prize, winner of the Pen/Faulkner award and a National Book Critics Circle Award Finalist. i personally don't care whether or not it won prizes, i think it's amazing....although the ending was quite shocking (ok, well not really) and REALLY sad. but i haven't enjoyed a good book in a long time (well, that's also because i haven't really had time to myself...i had to read this on my subway rides to and from school) and this is really good! definitely recommendable!

i'm actually getting pretty psyched for our musical that's on showcase these upcoming two weeks. BLOOD BROTHERS! march 5, 6, 12 & 13 in sam sorbara hall. tickets are $7 for students and $10 for adults! we're actually looking and sounding like a real production! this cheers me up greatly because i felt so awful that i sucked, but maybe i don't! the only thing is that rehearsals are excruciatingly LONG...oh well, part of the packaged deal! but seriously people, this show is GOOD! it's not dramatic, but rather fun, light and comedic...well, there's a dark part but still, it's tons of shits and giggles!

mom made cookies and ames' immediately informed me of them when i got home tonight. damn it. there goes my resolution to keeping away from junk food!

the shit has hit the fan...

this has been by far the most distressing week of 2004.
to make a very long and painful week short...these are my "highlights":
MONDAY:
- having my boss call me THREE times in the early morning (7am, 7:10am and 7:45am) while i'm freaking about my bellringer
- a dreadfully long bellringer that everyone is sure to have failed (you know i've lost my senses when i start laughing in the middle of the test because there's nothing else i can do...)

TUESDAY:
- falling into mud puddles and nearly falling down stairs
- half-assed assignment finished not 10 mins before it's handed in....
- and getting back a test...(that should be self-explanatory)
- late night study group
- forgetting chris was working at JD's and just went home

WEDNESDAY:
- frustrated with the lack of lab structure for ANT429...not really paying attention to the australopithecines...maybe because i'm...
- wanting desperately to get high for my bioethics test
- too tired to go to groove nation
- almost falling asleep in ant204 (which is a crime in itself because i LIKE this class)
- wanting to go straight home and falling into my lovely bed, but OH NO....let's go to eglinton to pick up my sister, where we wait for over 45 mins...i COULD have been home sooooo much more earlier!

THURSDAY:
- work sucks...i hate my job...the only good thing is that the work-study period ends next week...the bad thing is that since i've "padded" my hours to get the maximum amount of money out of this job...i won't be done until i finish those hours...*sigh*
- i hate my boss' boss...i think that's why i don't like my job anymore
- spent over an hour filling out my time sheets...and i get PAID to waste my time doing this
- hahaha, i think this is the best one yet...let's put it this way...i haven't failed a test since first year...
- BUT, i've dropped at least one course every year
- tarik stood me up
- oh, did i mention how much i suck at being the piano accompanist for smc's musical? riiiight, so i totally suck at it.

FRIDAY:
- for f***'s sake, i don't really care which william ross is deceased!
- i've been drinking WAYYYYY too many starbucks tazo chai's. i have a hole in my bank account the size of north america (i hate corporations...i need to make my OWN chai teas with soy)
- why is everyone done their 200 hrs but me?!?!?!?!

ok, sooo i'm getting whiney here...there HAVE been some good stuff over the week, such as going out to chinese food, sushi, pizza (ok, getting on a food track here); seeing simone try on the most gorgeous dress in the world (which also happens to be $200); and running into lots of my life sci guy friends who i haven't seen since first year (conrad, dominic, john, mark...who are also the same guys that are geniuses and getting accepted into all these medical schools)

whoa, i'm getting distracted...

my stress level is SOOOO high that i'm convinced that i've gone nuts.

i fell TWICE today...that's right...the first time i fell into a wet mud puddle right in front of hart house, and flo had to pick me up, lead me to the girls washroom, and helped me wipe my ass off....mind you, i wasn't as embarrassed as i was laughing my ass off...it was 1pm and there were people streaming around everywhere and there was this guy who was concerned yet trying not to laugh in my face, and i turned around and announced "there might be a second viewing later this afternoon!"...it's a good thing i don't have much pride...that would have definitely bruised it! ;p

riiiight...so there actually WAS a second viewing of me falling, but not into another puddle...i tripped on the stairs at kelly as i was going down the stairs...and i nearly brought simone down with me as well...that was actually more of a really bad scare then anything at all. i think i'm going to stop wearing heels for awhile...or maybe while i'm not getting enough sleep...

i have one more test this week, bioethics...and i went to the study group tee, ash and em were holding at kelly this evening after my sociolinguistics class (which btw...SUCKED MY ASS!!!)....i am SOOOO tired....

i want to cry.

we just finished a reading week, and i don't think i knew we had one. today's ANT429 test has left my mind in shambles and i don't know if i have the stamina to finish the rest of this week.

my boss is being annoying right now....this is NOT the time to be bothering me about WORK...for god's sake, i'm in a WORK-STUDY job and right now i need to STUDY. i really don't like this job anymore, and i really want to quit...but i've only got one more month left, so i guess i'll hold out a while longer....

shit, sociolinguistics isn't waiting for me...

Aegyptopithecus - 32 mya, Fayum Egypt
Pliopithecus - 17 mya, Eurasia
Proconsul - 17-20 mya, East Africa, South of Fayum, Rusinga Island, Songhor
Micropithecus - early miocene
Afropithecus - 17-18 mya, Northern Kenya
Heliopithecus - early miocene, Saudi Arabia, North East Egypt
Griphopithecus - 16.5-14.5 mya, Slavakia, Germany, Austria and Turkey
Equatorius - middle miocene, Moboko
Nacholapithecus - 15 mya, baringo, Kenya
Morotopithecus - 17-18 mya, Uganda
Turkanapithecus - early miocene, Kenya
Dendropithecus - early miocene, Africa
Rangwapithecus - early miocene, Africa
Simiolus Enjiessi early miocene, Kenya
Kenyapithecus - middle miocene, Kenya
Otavipithecus - 13 mya, Namibia
Sivapithecus - 12.8-13 mya, Siwalik Hills, Northern India and Pakistan
Ankarapithecus - 10 mya, Ankara Turkey
Lufengpithecus - 9 mya, Southern China, Nunen
Kharatpithecus - 9 mya, Thailand
Gigantopithecus - 6.5-7 mya and 1 mya (pleistocene) Siwaliks, China
Dryopithecus - 9-12.5 mya, France, Spain to Republic of Georgia to Hungary
Ouranopithecus - 9 mya, Greece
Oreopithecus - 7 mya, Tuscany and Sardinea

omg i'm sooooo screwed.....

how to date and blog
that's the title to one of blogger's little msg thingies...i thought that was hilarious!

so i'm back from the grave...so to speak. i've been so incredibly busy, and that really sucks considering that i've just finished reading week....are you serious? reading week just went by in a blink of an eye. wow....now for the update...

got up this morning at 8:30am and freaked out because i wanted to leave for downtown at 9am, and well...that just gave me half an hour to get ready...plus i was feeling really really groggy...(there's a story to why i'm tired...i'll get to it in a bit...) made good time and then went to the OISE building to get some articles for my pop culture paper (that i'm sooooo excited about writing...and NO that isn't sarcasm...i really am interested in the topic that i'm doing). GUESS WHAT?!?!?!? ed's alive! so yeh, stopped off at the rcm to get some tax receipts for my dad, and stopped off to say hi to ed. i miss him alot, and he misses us too! BUT, he's promised that he'll come see my musical, and when he does, he'll try to come on a day that the rest of the family will be going...yay!

went out for coffee with brendan later on this morning (ok, more like noon, but whatever), and that was fun cuz the last time i saw him was at the "cowboys and schoolgirls" party during winterfest, and that was AWHILE ago. he's been chillaxing and having some mad fun, and for that....i'm green with envy...

okok, so here's the scope on the last couple of days...

went up to blue mountain with the CS people...and it was a disaster and a half. someone overbooked the bus with people and equipment, and since we were on a MAGIC SCHOOLBUS....it took half an hour to sort it out. and then just before we got to the south base lodge...the bus found its front tire in a "MAGIC" snowbank...yeh, so no skiing for me...which was ok cuz chris came by and picked me up and it was all good.

so yeh, went to the haritun's farm...and let me stop now and gush about it's quaintness. it's a GORGEOUS farmhouse...fully modernized for a city girl like me, yet still full of little frills and dainty dishes and cutlery with cows and pigs on them...so cute and "doll-like." (hahahaha, i HAD to put that in cuz tim told me that his dad would have a cow if i said it...hahahaha) i ADORE their farm, and i'd love to go up again sometime in the near future! ;p

plus i got first hand experience of chris' cooking...and i must say that i love his food. a little bit on the rich side, but hey...as long as i don't have it everyday...(and if i continue going to the gym...) it's all good

right, on to the good part....watched "fight club" half drunk on baileys, and an episode of "curb your enthusiasm" and then had a sleepless night...hahahahaha....this is where i say...chris snores and then you ALL understand...hahahaha. long story short...i was only able to get any sleep when i kicked zen out of the family room to claim the couch...hahahahaha

they also have a wild turkey which they're plotting to kill, AND a very LARGE plot of land, that we went trekking in before i left to go home. do you know how good it is to be the first people to make tracks in the snow? (well, other then the millions of rabbit footprints that we saw) i love fresh white snow...and i'm glad i was able to see it this winter!

yeh well, back to smog and reality, but now i gotta study for my 2 tests and work on my assignment that's due as soon as i'm back at school...which sucks my ass, but you know....OH WELL

even though i claim valentine's day is completely over-rated....i still enjoy a dozen long stemmed red roses, dinner at il fornello's, and baileys with chocolate-covered strawberries, whipped cream....and a fireplace! ;p

friday night dancing at ice lounge was a disaster. the venue was too small for a smcsu AND utica party, and it obviously showed because when simone and i got there at around 10:15pm, there was a MASSIVE crowd infront of the club. the doors weren't even opened until after 10:30pm, so we snuck into the line with al, pat, justin and them, but then were redirected to the front of the line on the otherside of the ice lounge, and somehow managed to get in before the ppl standing at the front of the line who were there earliest! (for the record, the people at the front of the line included adrien...wink wink) AND THEN...we get into the club, but they wouldn't even let us coat check, so in the end...we stashed our jackets in a corner and hoped no one would go through it. (no one did...hahahaha)
the company that DID get through the doors were fun. georges and justin were high on SOMETHING...and georges even almost lost his id, but i found them and now he owes me! hahahaha. i even hurt my knee when i ran into a table when i saw ray...for the record...i have the biggest bruise on my knee now. it's purple and blue...hahahaha.

i'm reading this awesome book called sons of fortune by jeffrey archer. i love the fact that i can make time for myself to just sit and read something other then a textbook.

yay reading week!

i got tea-ed yesterday. went out for my regular sushi lunch with simone, uri and chris...and flung my arm out at the crucial moment when the tea was next to me...and got tea all down the back of my left pant...hahahahaha....and plus my pants are rolled cuz i'm short...and the tea collected in the little crevice....hahahahaha....the poor sushi lady was just horrified and went all crazy psycho about cleaning me up and everything...she's so cute! but i was good, just a little wet (but i dried off eventually) and sushi was still good!

the sociolinguistics test sucked my ass. well, i guess it really wasn't THAT bad...i just didn't like it. i don't know if i'm going to do well on it or not...but i guess that's up for grabs now, huh? and i guess it didn't help that the jazz band was practicing right next to our class during the test...and they aren't exactly any good...if you get my drift...

so i know i'm lazy when....i've been wearing the same hairstyle since monday morning...yes, it's pretty bad...i put my hair in a crazy pony bob and then i've left it there...i even went to sleep and got up...looked in the mirror, thought it looked alright (ok, i stuck a headband on)...added a bit of makeup to draw the attention away...hahahaha....geez! i'm busy studying!

anyway, going to be late for lab if i don't leave the house...

Dear Christina:

I think I found what the error was. I am thus going to change your
grade to 88. I have your student number but I need your college asap,
before noon if possible.

Take care,

MD

sweet! and yes, i'll give des credit for giving me this idea of telling everyone how our original marks were not at all what we deserved...i originally had a 76%, which really isn't a bad mark, but considering what i'm NOW going to get...hahahahahahahahaha!

i was judged today...the verdict? she's "absolutely delightful" ;p
so today is chris' mom's birthday, and i went out to mandarin for dinner with his mom, dad and tim. we spent 2 1/2 hrs there and it was just soooo much fun! tim is such a shit-disturber...can't and won't shut his trap... ;p i haven't been to mandarin in such a long time, and it's good to know that the food isn't bad at all. and the dessert was the BEST part! (and this can be taken in two different contexts...if you know what i mean...*wink wink*) hahahahaha.

saw EMBRACE last night at Isabel Bader Theatre, and it was such a great show. it's a modern dance show based on a collection of different dance routines. two of my friends are in that show, melissa lawless and melissa schuter. isn't that cute? they're both melissas! and the funniest thing was that they were NEVER in the same dance routine as the other! weird!

this is bad...i'm inhaling those cookies mom made that i would have NEVER known about if i hadn't read in ames' blog that she was eating them....and now i'm finishing them...AFTER mandarin...ugh....

i would like to take this opportunity to inform everyone that I had the broken blood vessel in my eye BEFORE juju did.
(and no i'm not gloating about it, i just want everyone to know that i'm a trendsetter hahahahaha....please excuse me, it's 1 am.

so my parents are going mental. i've NEVER worked harder in my life, yet they think i'm spending all my time carousing around town. seriously, i can never win. dad flipped on me this morning because he forgot ames' textbook at home and he wanted me to bring it to him at his office, which i normally would...except for two things...wednesdays are my crazy insane busy days....and i almost overslept this morning (well, mom woke me up in the middle of this weird dream i was having...something to do with me going to a movie theatre late, and by myself...and then this random guy sitting next to me just leaned over and started devouring my ear....chris swears it was him...but i really had no idea who it was, and i couldn't find out...well, because MOM WOKE ME UP!!!!!). and then i tried to explain this to dad, and he got all huffy. boo.

i had the most amazing conversation/discussion earlier this evening with chris about corporations and their takeovers and globalization. it was really good, we were both so excited about what we were saying, that a couple times it almost went into debate...except that i'm a sucker and not very good at debating at all...mostly because my ideas are constantly changing, and i'm easily swayed by a good debate. hahahaha.

school's been sucking my ass. had a really good rehearsal with annie crane yesterday at st. joes. and i've started studying for my two tests next week, which is GOOD...ant429 lab was good today, tarik slept in and i learned alot about early miocene hominoids...whooo! i only regret not being able to photocopy the reading sets...i really should get on that considering i have a test the monday after reading week. good god reading week is ONLY A WEEK LONG!

i'm too busy. but i think we all got the gist of that.

well...

whatever the heck i had this week, it certainly took me down pretty badly. i've had some sort of cold for the past week, and although i still attended lectures, labs and ABT, (well, except for tuesday when they shut down the university cuz it was SNOWING...whatever...but i digress) i was pretty much a wreak. starting with achy bones last sunday, i KNEW i was getting something, but what i still have no clue. the whole week basically has been written off since i've had no zest (hahaha, for lack of a better word) for reading. i think it's my body telling me i've been doing WAYYYYY too much and it decided to shut down this weekend. i nearly died at work yesterday...a bloodvessel broke in my eye, and so my left eye was a network of angry red lines, AND i had to take out my contacts....oooooh....

the only good thing is that it snowed alot and this contributed to the more laxed situation, MIND you, i STILL went out tuesday, and stayed out till about 5:30pm (that's right....i had INCENTIVE at JD's...heehee...i don't know what you're all thinking about but i think it was the hot chocolate!)

even though i was dying friday night, i still went out with the sorbara 3rd floor boys, chris, and simone to le biftheque. the ribs were very large and plentiful, and i must say that alot of the guys did themselves justice by packing in two platefuls of ribs....wow...simone and i were the only girls there, and did we ever feel special! ;p i had forgotten how entertaining the guys are, and seeing them just made me miss their company even more. after dinner, chris and i walked with simone to meet up with uri, and then i proceeded to let the goddamn bug have a go at me.

on another note:

SMC drama society is presenting a musical called blood brothers in which i am to be playing the piano accompaniment with ray metts. there will be 5 shows, the first one is a preview by a select audience, and the rest are on 2 fridays and 2 saturdays. the dates of the shows are march 4, 5, 6, 12, and 13th of march starting at 7pm. great bunch of singers, i totally recommend everyone coming out to see this show (and it's not because i'm in it....ok....yes it is!) i don't know the price of the tickets yet, but i don't think it's going to be that expensive.

the smc formal will be held at the da vinci banquet hall on friday march 19th. on a hollywood glamour theme, it's $30 per person ($35 the week of) and this price includes: 2 bottle of wine for the table, 2 drink tickets, bus, and a cocktail party while waiting for the bus (i believe this is because dinner is being pushed past rush hour, and i of course am helping with the cocktail party with colin and avril, so of course it will be good!)

also, the smc symposium will also be held the same week as the formal, on sunday march 21st at in either fr. madden hall or sam sorbara hall. This year's theme is Vision for the Future of SMC and it's looking to be as good as last year's (when i ran it with flo, thanks very much) if not better (because this year, tee's running the show). Tickets are the usual, $5 for good food, free flowing wine (ok, don't take my word on that one...that was just last year) and sometimes even good entertainment! (hahaha, that's mostly if a heated debate goes on or something)

it's getting to be that time of year where i'm getting pretty burnt out. i am NOT looking forward to all this crap. did you know that february has the highest suicide rates of the year? i'm thinking it has something to do with the slugginess of the month, the lack of sun exposure is killing brain cells, as well as people. i have never had this much crap to do, and it's taking it's toll on me. and this is definitely not good, why? because most of this hasn't even HAPPENED yet...looking at my little pieces of calendar paper hurts...

no worries, all i need is some alcohol in my system, reading week (which there may or may not be reading done) and an eradication of this stupid bug that's living in my lungs...someone call the exterminator....