WHAT'S GOIN' ON?!?!?!?!?

it's new years eve for cryin' outloud! this holiday has just been a huge blurr...i can't even separate each day anymore...everyone i talk to on the phone asks me the same question..."whatcha doin' for new years?" and to every single person i tell them..."nothing"

that's right. it's a tradition...i always stay at home...sometimes i stay up and watch the ball drop on tv, but most of the time i go to sleep and then...whoa...it's jan 1st. and this year is no exception...

i hate it when i'm not working...it's very very boring, and then i find myself doing homework and that's just peachy...i really really dislike sitting at home doing nothing, UGH! well, after tomorrow i will find myself back into shipshape...(i hope) especially since i've just been eating like a pig and NOT working out. what with everything that's going on, i just want to crawl into bed and sleep...which is what i've done all day, so i have no idea how i'll be sleeping tonite...

oh wow...new years resolution...that's unheard of...i don't really make resolutions because they are never kept...why make a NEW YEARS resolution? when you can make a resolution for anytime...why push it back to one single day? i just thought i'd apologize if i'm wreaking anyone's fun...i'm feeling very cynical right now. karina got a new piercing at the side of her mouth and i was so jealous that now i want another piercing too! but where? i'm seriously looking into the tragus...but my parents will flip...this won't be as easy to hide as the other one...and plus this includes a whole ton of cartilage. my other option is to dye the back panel of my hair like avril lavigne's in her music video i'm with you and that would be the better option. either way...something will prolly be done when i see karina thursday....

i'm peeved at a certain person, and i didn't exactly treat them very nicely on the phone today...i felt so bad afterwards that i ate a quarter of a tub full of chocolate ice cream...just for the record...i didn't feel that great afterwards...but that person will never know because they are stupid...and i'm even more dumb for being blind towards their actions and being so nice and understanding when everyone around me can see how badly i'm being treated and TRY to tell me, but nono...i won't listen...i think deep down i've known what was going on, but i tried to make excuses for everything and now, I SEE. so all i have to do now, is give them their present (i did after all buy this present thinking OF THEM, so might as well) and...not see them as often...man oh man...that might as well be a new years resolution...

will someone please make the time to see "chicago" with me? i really want to see it...but it seems that everyone is busy...

i am going to go INSANE. mom's been running around all day like a chicken with it's head cut off...she's on the verge of giving me a heart attack...she just took a tumble down the stairs trying to lug up a heavy chair from the dining room to grandma's room. earlier, she caused a HUGE commotion over grandma ringing a bell in her room, and before grandma was discharged from the hospital, she'd been calling the whole entire day to ask over and over again one question..."when's amelia going to work?"

it's boring at home. the phone's been ringing off the hook all day, but few are for me! boo!

today will go down in tanaka's books..."i went to christina miao's house today..." hahaha...man...we just kill each other...we can just FEEL it....soon, soon...ALL OF US will be in some sort of relationship and then we'll all be acting weird..."hey...this is so and so" hahahahaaaa! hmm...who will it be?!?!? socrates?!?!?! cha?!?!?! witkos?!?!?! man...we're waiting for the day!

this has been a very interesting christmas break...way too many things have been happening and i'm always soooo tired...so i'll just sleep it ALL off...heh heh...with ups and downs, this will go down in classic history!

"You are in my heart
I can feel you're near
And I lose my mind
While behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name"

sixpencenonethericher

yup, uh huh...i'm in love again...

so i've got some pics from queens...they are posted here

went to see sandra bullock and hugh grant's movie two weeks notice with tanaka, karina and maija...not bad considering you have to check your brain out at the movie door, but we got thru it...and even had a fun filled evening of eating and joking at spring rolls on yonge...the girls are dying...

i dunno...i'm sooooo much more exhausted then i've EVER been...ppl at work keep asking me to stay, but no way...it's tooo stressful, i have to have a social life...i feel so trapped in a cage...always looking outside...i just wanna have fun!

this is NOT good...everyone is getting sick, first daddy, now grandma's sick...we were eating dinner at home (i know...when's the last time i've had a meal at home?!?!?!) and grandma ate like 2 bites of food and then left cuz she didn't feel well...and then threw up in the bathroom...that is NOT good...and i feel soooo bad...like, i should be there for her when she's ill, and i haven't even seen her in a week! i didn't even KNOW she was sick...and now i feel soooo guilty...

spoke to lisa on the phone today, we were trying to get communications into some sort of order...we've mapped out a decent plan, now we must set it in motion and start cracking...did i mention that winterfest was gonna be awesome this year? WINTERFEST'S GONNA BE AWESOME THIS YEAR! and i can't wait till i get a t-shirt! it really DOES make a difference between a shirt or not...i was not happy about having a makeshift marshall shirt this year...felt like a fraud...but no more...NO MORE! i'm getting a shirt if i have to kill for it!

went to boss monica's for dinner today. her house is HUMONGOUS...and she and her husband sam are like these HUGE decorating fans...it's like walking into an art page....or one of those show homes...except for the fact that they live there...

my feet are officially DEAD. i mean....DEAD...like....FISHDEAD...like....yeh....dead.

oh. and i'm tired and dad's sick, so i'm gonna hit the sack.

is life not full of shits and giggles?

first of all, i don't care how i do on my exam anymore, i'm studied out...i mean, sure i'm at kelly right now but that doesn't mean i'm studying?!?!?! i will, but to be honest i don't need to be here. i had coffee with flo this morning...let's just say we got a whole shitload of stuff cleared up...whatever happens now will be all pretty interesting. i haven't decided if this was a good thing or a bad thing. i'll figure it out when stuff happens.

nicola's engaged! i'm soo excited for her! lanthia told me last night just as i was going to log off, and then i was excited for the rest of the nite, and now that i think about it, i'm STILL excited!!! what a good opportunity to visit sydney, australia next year! hahahahaaa! and to imagine, she's only 22 years old! that's TWO WHOLE YEARS older than me...WOW!

there's too many things going on in my life for me to concentrate...damn botany to hell! it's driving me insane!!!! but on a good note, at this time tomorrow, i will be officially done my exams and i will be sooooooo happy!!!!

argh! my feet are killing me!

alrighty then...i'm sitting at kelly library (see? i told you this was my home!) and guess who i'm with?!?!? BERNADETTE!
that's right....WOW! i haven't seen her in the LONGEST TIME! like last year! and even when we did, it was by complete chance randomness...on the street...like..."hi!" "hey!" "how's it going?"...less then a min kinda seeing...and it's soooo good to see you!!! eeeee! that was my happy happy screech! which i did for a bit on the street...that's ok...it's dark and late tonite, so nobody really cares about two psycho girls screeching on the street! hahahahaaa! and bernie...your hair! it's soooo short!!!! but it's all good cuz your hair grows sooooo fast!

i saw ames' friend stephanie today, she said hi to me and i looked at her like a fool...how am i supposed to remember this girl that i met once during the summer?!?!?! that's right...i didn't...but it's all good...she works at holt renfrew as the gift wrapping girl! and i saw dad's friend, pete today...he was looking for some jeans for his daughter jennifer...and i ran into him, and i'm like "bernie's girl?" (not bernie as the aforementioned bernie) and then he remembered me...and then i saw anne from last year chem...and then teresa! whoo hoo!

so now i'm gonna finish this blog so that i can go upstairs to study!

this is bad...i'm sitting at a kelly computer on the second floor blogging because i almost fell asleep studying botany. the good thing is that i finished the chapter i was reading so i decided now is a good time to take a break. after all, i've been at this stinkin' library since 11am because i georges went home today and he wanted me to visit before he left...which meant that i was up at 8am this morning...whatever...on the bright side, i'm up early to study...yay?

so georges is gone...i'll try not to cry too much...

paul kim came over to kelly at almost 1pm to give me back my lab 5 notes, so i waited for him outside of the library, and who do i see...but ken (from alumni)...who's this big dude that's pretty scary...but in all actuality is really nice...and he stopped by to chat with me...which is all fine and dandy except for this small factor...where i notice this SPIDER crawling up his chin (he has a beard) and then it fell off onto hi shirt...and i didn't have the guts to tell him...so i just WATCHED...oops...hahaha

and what's up with everyone thinking that there's something going on with me and paul? he's just my LAB PARTNER...that's it...and we were meeting up so he could give me back my notes! i asked christian for his number after lecture one day so that i could call him to arrange the mtg (b/c paul is never in class) and chris gave me a funny look and said paul had asked for my number as well...and even after i explained, he still gave me a weird look...damn you all! believe what you will...boo ya

my goal today is to finish reading 3 more chapters before i go home...right...that's because my shift was cancelled...so now i have more time to study...which is good...except for the fact that i want to sleep! that's not good....

"joy to the world
and the boys and girls,
joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea...
joy to you and me"

that's the song that's been running thru my head the whole day...since i was in the GAP store at bayview village...hahahaha....what a fun song!

i went shopping with mom at the fore mentioned bayview village...wow that place is expensive! all i could do was window shop. if there's anything i like...well? what can you do? i saw the most perfect thing for kirsten! a HUGE key ring with like 20 places for her 50 million keys...but then...it was $36...and i don't have that kinda money to throw around...sorry girl!

i don't know why...but i always get soooo tired during exam time. i remember in the summer i used to take so many cat naps instead of studying...but i got thru it. so hopefully i'll be fine. tomorrow will be a LONG day at the library...yay kelly!

to my abbey girls: did you get the abbey unites email? michelle lee has been sending out emails to us all, in hopes that we'll all make time for a get-together dec 27th at marche...i think we'll go! it'll be fun times! i'm just wondering if we should just rent out the place for the nite, there's so many of us! hahahahaaa!

worked today in the morning for 4 hrs...and spent the rest of the day at kelly library...however, i didn't feel very productive at all...maybe cuz i fell asleep a couple of times in my cubicle...hmmm...maybe that's it....

i think i studied a total of 8 pages...and mapped out what i need to study...meh...wait till next wk...when i need to hardcore study...this is what i'm debating...study now...or later....hmmmm....sooo difficult

WINTERFEST is gonna be AWESOME this year...so that's why i'm plugging it now...there's gonna be sooo many activities! and we're doing it with VIC, UC AND TRIN...so it'll be tons of fun...not like last year...the hell was that?!?!?! we're gonna go skiing up at blue mountain...and have snowball/ice cream ball fights (that's if there's no snow) and build snowmen...and go tobagganing at riverdale...and have hockey games....and have a GREAT time...i'm soooo excited!

hey guys...i know i know...and i'm really really sorry that i haven't blogged in awhile...i've been a very busy busy girl.

what's that? november 23rd? whoa it's been awhile.

i went to lunch with georges today. yay. and yeh...what's up with that? why did you eat before? ugh...i really don't know what goes on inside boys heads...really...you couldn't wait an HOUR before i got off work?!?!?! blah. but whatever, we had a good lunch cuz HE paid for it! hahaha! it's about time, especially all the other times i paid! and then georges ordered sake wine, and i said i was fine with that except that i forgot that i really don't like sake wine...oops...my bad...

i can't believe i actually have time to blog...wow...it's sooo weird, i keep thinking that i really shouldn't be blogging, and must be doing something else...but nah...i have PLENTY of time to study before my ONLY EXAM on dec 18! but the last 2 wks have been full of busyness...including writing a really intense paper for my poli sci class which i really really hope i did well on cuz i spent soooooo much time because i really don't know much about philosophy and i often spend more time on this class then in my other classes, which is really in a sense, retarded because poli sci is my elective and everything else is for my major and minors...man...

and yeh...i've been studying for my ant test and stuff...and guess what?!?!?! i'm kicking skeletal ass like crazy! it's sooo much fun! so now that i'm off on a high, i'm gonna be so psyched about kicking some plant roots!!! heh heh! kelly library is my first home, and the place where i go to sleep at nite is my second home. and i'm not the only one with so much work to do...marko's been crazy busy studying for his engineer exams...and georges been going nuts with his soc and calc tests...plus his computers assignment and philosophy paper...and he has an exam tomorrow that he hasn't even begun studying for...oh no...he's been out getting a crazy short haircut (which i was there for) and man is it short! as a certain person on his floor said "it looks like he'd been in a fight with a weed wacker and lost badly" ...ahahahahaaaaaa! really...it's not that bad...

oh man...went to "rowers" last nite for our SMCSU social...and it was soooo much fun! almost everyone came and went sometime in the evening...we had like 5 tables put together and chowed on an unspecified amount of wings and fries and nachos...wongie loved the little presents that i'd been buying for her throughout the week (cuz i was her kk)...i bought her the advent calendar chocolates for monday, a slinky for tuesday, mexican jumping beans for wednesday, a rita bender for thursday, and because i wasn't downtown friday, i included a cute little beaded bracelet in thursday's present as well! and then i bought her the norah jones cd that she absolutely loved!
my kk was awesome too! thanks to melissa for buying me that sunshine carebear! i love it sooo much! i was so shocked and happy when i got it! who knew that someone actually reads those smcsu commission bios?!?!?! all i had for favorite cartoon as a kid was: "carebear countdown stare!" and then i get the most adorable little stuffed bear....of course i also got a bottle of baileys as well...heehee...someone's gonna have some good nites with coffee...

went to a basketball game to watch the Raptors play the Sixers at the ACC the 24th of november...and we lost horribly...that was quite disgusting to watch...i was throughly disgusted with their playing skills...next to allan iverson they looked like robots gone horribly wrong...WHATEVER...i had a good time with the guys and lauren tho...pat wouldn't stop blowing lauren's big horn...and he had some blue pom poms stuck in the back of his hat...so it looked like he had blue hair!

hmm...what else? uh...smcsu's been through some rough times...but everything is in the process of being sorted out...to the expense of some really early early mtgs during the busiest times of our lives...and jacob had a sale on underwear...5 pairs for $12!!! lisa and i went...and paul and ray came along...hahahahaa....we had to drag paul...and poor ray just had really bad timing and we ran into him while we were on our way...and dragged him too! but good times!

so...i'm so tired now...what with all my time spent on studying at the library, and working, and doing stuff for smcsu, and spending time with my boys...that's all for now...maybe i'll blog later if i think of some more exciting things that's happened.