you know it's bad when cleaning my room is a major operation plan. plus sleeping in bed just isn't the same when all the blankets are bunched up in one corner and the other half of the bed isn't taken up by another person...but with clothes. anyway, i figured i'd do myself a favor and make my room pretty again. so now i have a bed.

i'm having the most incredible time right now. yesterday was flashback to the abbey days. tanaka came back for a bit from medical school in north carolina, so i organized a get-together (go wedding planner!) and i am still in shock as to how everyone was able to get their act together and meet up! maija came sans jonathan, and then had to leave earliest but she still had us in stiches about her little "activities" with hubby. charysee knitted me the most adorable arm-warmers! it's mostly grey-white with touches of blue and pink...AND purple and pink ribbons too! she totally knows my inner girly side! lilian showed up later with her fiance, michael...no one can still believe lilian's getting married.

it's so odd, but if feels like just yesterday that i was sitting in the cafeteria with all these girls and laughing and making fun of each other. just like old times, but OLDER. lilian pointed out that i never call satchmo anything other then satchmo. i suppose the nickname has just stuck, i can never call her "maureen" it's just not the same. satchmo's right! ;p

ROGER
Who do you think you are?
Barging in on me and my guitar
Little girl -- hey
The door is that way
You better go you know
The fire's out anyway
Take your powder -- take your candle
Your sweet whisper
I just can't handle
Well take your hair in the moonlight
Your brown eyes -- goodbye, goodnight
I should tell you I should tell you
I should tell you I should -- no!
Another time -- another place
Our temperature would climb
There'd be a long embrace
We'd do another dance
It'd be another play
Looking for romance?
Come back another day
Another day

MIMI
The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn
There is no future
There is no past
I live this moment as my last
There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today

ROGER
Excuse me if I'm off track
But if you're so wise
Then tell me -- why do you need smack?
Take your needle
Take your fancy prayer
And don't forget
Get the moonlight out of your hair
Long ago -- you might've lit up my heart
But the fire's dead -- ain't never ever gonna start
Another time -- another place
The words would only rhyme
We'd be in outer space
It'd be another song
We'd sing another way
You wanna prove me wrong?
Come back another day
Another day

MIMI
There's only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what's right
No other course
No other way
No day but today
(Lights slowly fade up on the Life Support group.)

MIMI & OTHERS
I can't control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only goal is just
To be
There's only now
There's only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today...

ROGER
Control your temper
She doesn't see
Who says that there's a soul?
Just let me be...
Who do you think you are?
Barging in on me and my guitar
Little girl, hey
The door is that way
The fire's out anyway

ALL
No day but today
No day but today
No day but today
No day but today
No day but today

ROGER
Take your powder; take your candle
Take your brown eyes, your pretty smile, your silhouette
Another time, another place
Another rhyme, a warm embrace
Another dance, another way
Another chance, another day

- Live Another Day, RENT

i ran into laurinda on my way home monday evening, god that girl looks good. we met up for lunch the next day and had a really good heart-to-heart. it kills me the things we as human beings go through. you think you just watch it on tv, but then when you hear real live friends tell you the things they go through, it just seems so unreal. half of me wishes that she'd told me before, but realistically, what help can i give? all the love that a friend can give, but nothing else. i suppose a friend support is good to have but still, it's hard the whole feeling of helplessness.

life is hard. but it can also be good.

i say this as i look back on the last couple of months. i feel like in the past couple of weeks, i've taken on a new out look on life. suddenly i know where i'm going with my life (i hope.) david, my instructor at ryerson has opened a HUGE door for me regarding post-grad schooling and possibly grad school. i haven't been this excited since i don't know when. work is starting to look good, french is incredible, i *heart* alliance, and the best part is seeing old friends. friends define who you are, and i'm glad i have so many. always the greatest treat of all.